Chapter 42
IT'S HERThat night you spend the rest of your night in your room, practically being questioned by both Sungjong and Sungyeol. . . No, you can't sleep at all. Thinking about Myungsoo, and you also feel bad to Sunggyu for making Myungsoo mad at him too.
The next morning, you don't feel like getting up from your bed. You are banned from the activity anyway. Both Sungyeol and Sungjong already gone, and nothing you can do but to meet Sunggyu and Woohyun.
" Rules are rules.. I'm sorry
YOUR POV
It's so awkward to be alone in one room with him after what happen last night. I sit at the back of the empty room which looks like an old classroom or meeting room to me. . . Not wanting the awkward silent to present, I call him
" Myungsoo "
No reaction
" Myun... Myungsoo yah ~ "
No reaction
" Yah, Myungsoo ! "
Still no reaction
" YAH KIM MYUNGSOO !! JUST SAY SOMETHING !! " I lost my temper
Not moving from his original position, he rolled his eyes to me lazily
" Now that you look at me already, say something " I collect all my courage to say these words
" Why should i say something when you don't have anything to say either... so shut up " He said coldly, then he turns around, sitting lazily on the chair and leaning his head on the table. Feeling sleepy, maybe.
Well, he's true. I don't have something in mind. I don't know what to say . . .
Deep down, my heart is crushed into peaces and I feel a great pain in my chest. I'm hurt and sad. But I let it out already last night. I'm not going to show him my weak side and I don't want him to know that I regret that.
Last night, I think about something else... Beside the fact that I was playing with this heart. . . but, at that time, he knew that I was going to do that, the silly prank that me and Sungyeol made. But, why did he accept me? I realize that he doesn't love me back, he's turning the situation around, making him the one who plays with my heart when I fall for him. He's cruel. . . I decided to drop off my feelings, even when i know that I love him, so much. . .
" Myungsoo . . . " I tried to talk again, this time I want us to be a little bit open up. Not waiting him to even reply me back, I decided to make another move. I stand up and walk confidently to the seat in front of him, and sit there, facing him even I know that my legs are now shaking.
" Myungsoo, it's not that I'm being rude or something. but I just want to make everything straight. About last night . . . " But he cuts me
" Oh please, I saw what I saw and I believe of what I saw. I know that you're going to say that at first you really want to play with me but slowly you fell in love with me, and you are expecting me to heart that ? " He said in cold tone, not facing me. It broke my heart. I am a tough girl and I know what I'm doing. I'm not going to cry, I want to show him that I'm strong
" Listen ! You just don't understand ! I am ! I didn't want to play with your heart anymore, and .. and .. I ... l... love you " I said that softly when it comes to the part I love you, I don't know but it feels weird to say that at this time
" Oh, you love me? Why are you saying this now? Why didn't you say it before this happen ? Just tell me, when did the last time you said that to me? I think you forgot because you're too concentrated for the prank, am i right ? "
" And one thing, girls... cry... If you love me, and I left you, why don't you cry ? Showing me that you're a strong girl ? Or maybe.. because you can't cry.. Why would you cry for someone who you're playing with ? Now... excuse me, I don't want to be near you. I'm leaving " He then left me speechless inside that room, trying to hold my tears back
SUNGJONG POV
Last night was rough. . . I can hear noona was mute crying while me and Sungyeol hyung pretending to be asleep to give her some space. And now, here I am, joining th activities while Sally noona in the detention office, and I'm sure Myungsoo hyung also. . because I can't see him around. I can spot Sungyeol hyung is standing there, mixed emotion.. sadness. .. worried. . . . guilt. . . happiness ?
Yes, I know that Sungyeol hyung likes noona. It's obvious. Now, I wonder if Sungyeol hyung is happy or sad ? Sad to see noona in misery or happy seing noona and Myung hyung got seperated. . . I don't know
One thing that I know right now, I know what I want... it's to be out from this activity. I'm not in the mood, really ~
" E-excuse me... sun-sunbaenim... " I walk slowly towards Woohyun-ssi , acting like I was sick or what
" Sungjong-ssi, right ? Ah,what happen ? "
" I don't feel good, can I take a rest somewhere more silent ? " I show my puppy eyes
" Of course, you can go. I'll tell Sunggyu " He said, pat my shoulder and let me go
Not going to any places for rest, I go and look for Sally noona !
Maybe now she's heartbroken and sad and desperate. . .
I need to tell her that Sungyeol hyung loves her, so that she won't fall for Myungsoo hyung too deep, because I know my hyung. Once Myungsoo hyung hates a person, that person will be living in hell everytime Myungsoo hyung is around. I need to protect noona !!
MYUNGSOO POV
I walk out from the room, obviously leaving her crying alone. She holed her tears for too long. I know her, she doesn't want to show her weak side to anyone. So that's why I left, so that she can cry . . .
I hate her, yes...
I'm the type of person who hate everyone I dislike . . . Never for once I forgive
I do hate her. . . so much
But I love her first
Same with my other side, I'm the type of person who love everyone I like . . . and never for once I let go of them
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