It hurts.

When will I be as good as him?

"Joooooonghyun-aaaahhhh~, are you going out again?"

Key's naggy voice sounded up from the living room, and Onew could only roll his eyes as he sat in the kitchen, finishing his cup of coffee. Their "Hello" promotions had finally ended and before their next comeback, the five members of SHINee could finally enjoy a week off. No interviews, no performances, no rushing to this show, no rushing to that show. Of course it was their job, and of course it was fun, they got to travel around and just recently returned from Taiwan, but every good musician needed a break. Especially since they didn't have any after their Lucifer promotions had ended, successfully. Minho decided to do Taemin a favor and take him out to Lotte World. Taemin has been complaining the last days how he wanted to visit the huge amusement park after such a long time of hard work, after all he was only seventeen - no one could blame him. Minhi himself seemed to be in need of distraction as well, so them two took the train and drove off to the park where every child's, but as well adult's heart beated faster. Onew couldn't help but to worry a bit, after all he was the leader and felt like he had a bigger responsibility for the maknae than for anyone else, but knowing Minho, he would take care of him, making Onew shove his worries aside.

"Key, I told you yesterday that I'm going to spend a day with girlfriend."
"Are you saying that your girlfriend is more important than the people you've spent almost three years together?"
"Aniyo, that's not what I'm saying. I'm saying that I simply need ONE day for my girlfriend. Am I asking for too much?"
"Yes, you are! Stay here and spend the day with Onew and me!"
"But my girl is already waiting for me, pabo."
"Yah! Who do you call a pabo? Jonghyun-ah~, staaay here."

Onew sighed, hearing the remaining two members arguing once again. They argued almost every day because of one certain topic -- Shin Se Kyung, Jonghyun's new girlfriend. Ever since them two started to date Key had become even more naggy and clingy with the vocalist. He always had to know where Jonghyun was or wanted to go, when he would come back, if he was hungry, if he did his laundry, if he was bored, and even if Jonghyun had to go to the toilet. How could a person be so obsessed with someone? Especially with someone who had a significant other and seemed to be happy in his relationship. It was no secret that Key always had a thing with Jonghyun, since the beginning of their debut days. Maybe for Key it was love on the first sight, but obviously to Jonghyun it was the whole time only close friendship, nothing more. And now, where he was no longer a single man it was obvious that Key was only a friend to him, but Key didn't seem to accept this fact. Onew found himself thinking about this topic once again. Why did he care so much about their constant fighting and Key's obvious jealousy? He was used to them having their little fights and nagging here and there, but this time it was different. Seeing Key craving for Jonghyun's attention in every possible way hurt him -- hurt him more than he thought.

"KIM JONGHYUN, STAY HERE!"

This was the last thing Key yelled before the door shut close. Jonghyun left, like he said he would, and the only thing Onew could hear was some kind of sniffing. Sniffing? Was Key... crying? The leader set his cup down and slowly got up from his seat, making his way carefully into the living room where he saw Key sitting on the floor, his knees pulled up to his chest and his head lowered. Onew cleared his throat and stared at the sad human being in front of him. He felt like his heart just got stabbed -- seing Key in such a mood.. why did it hurt so much? More than it should. Why was he caring about Key, his dongsaeng, more than a leader should? There was an answer to all his questions but he didn't want to admit it. Onew walked up to the rapper and sat down beside him, carefully wrapping his arms around his shoulders as he pulled him close into a hug, sighing a bit. Key bit his lip and quickly wiped the corner of his eye to avoid letting a tear roll down his cheek, his arms slowly wrapping around the older male. The hug was comforting, and Key couldn't help but to smile lightly before he rested the side of his head on Onew shoulder, causing Onew's heart to skip a beat or two. Having Key this close, it only happened when they won an award. Hugging each other after winning was a must. But this hug was.. way different.

"Onew hyung..."

Key mumbled quietly and glanced up at the leader, shoving his lower lip forward into a pout. Onew gazed down at him, tilting his head a bit to be able to look clearer at the younger one, raising an eyebrow with a simple "Hm?", before Key continued to speak, a little bit louder than before.

"Onew hyung.. what's so special about this woman? What does she have.. what I don't have? What did she do for Jonghyun to make him like her so much? Nothing. I was the one who always made him food. I was the one who always did his laundry. I AM the one with whom he has so many precious memories, beside you guys of course. Why doesn't he like me, hyung? Why..? What can I do to make him like me more than a friend?"

Key's voice trailed off at the last words and he turned his head to hide his face in the fabric of Onew's shirt. Onew himself felt like he just got paralized. Not being able to move or say anything. He was used to having the four younger members coming to him, complaining about things and asking for advice, and this situation wasn't different. Key was asking for advice and for what to do -- and usually Onew would have an aswer, he always did, but not this time. He felt like bursting out and scold Key about liking someone who had eyes for someone else, but that'd be very unfriendly and definitely not the right thing to do. Plus, it would only make Key hate him probably for the rest of his life. Key didn't look up, he stayed in the position he was, his face buried in the fabric of Onew's shirt and his arms wrapped around his waist, still hugging him close. What should he do now? Having Key this close made him feel uncomfortable, and Key talking about Jonghyun to him made him feel even more uncomfortable than he already was. He didn't have an answer to Key's questions, and honestly, he didn't even want to have an answer. Why was Key only mentioning the things he did for Jonghyun? He never once thought about what Onew had done for Key, all the fun moments they had spent together. No, it was always only Jonghyun, Jonghyun, Jonghyun. Feeling sadness starting rise inside of him, the older quickly pulled back from the hug and got back up on his feet, leaving an indeed confused Key on the floor.

"I'm sorry. Uhh, I got something to do. Leader tasks, you know."

Onew gave a weak laugh and hurried out of the living room back to the hall, slipping on his shoes and jacket before leaving the house, having a puzzled Key still sitting on floor, wondering what was wrong all of the sudden.

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DBSSJr
#1
Chapter 9: CHAPTER 9: OMO!!! ARE YOU STILL ALIVE!!! Author-nim PLEASE! UPDATE!!! This story is GOLD!!!
magnaeline
#2
Please continue, this is awesome!
CutieWay #3
I don't know how to explain this, but there is a move in which you move your chest while your fingers are going down. Also the move in which your body is following your body isn't easy for someone who wants to start dancing.
HaeMyBananaHyukie #4
Chapter 9: Okay I literally felt like the annoying person at the movies that be like "NO DON'T GO THERE NO NO NO... wtf you cheap .....jinki don't look...don't look......" hahahaha
I kinda want more angst and jealousy though I would really hope that Jinki gets some kind of compensation and actually goes through with his resolve and throw a little joonew or lunew that would be so epic but anyways I seriously can't wait for an update
Hanna19 #5
Chapter 9: everything., jjong, kibum. Aaaaa my poor babe :( this is going to be so ing difficult to him I just cant t.t I hope they suffer like my babe :(. I hope you continue this ^^ I was expecting some more onkey but key ruin all x.x just bc jjjong went to him a last minuteeee x.x I wanna kill them, well at least onsw had 2min.. maybe onew can get another boy more jealous for key... aa I want to kill jongkey (I know jinki decide ignore key in the dorm aww but still hes gonna be so hurt just by himself and thats so bad) hey i like a lot jongkey but not here no no no... thumbs up for you
miochan #6
Chapter 9: update please :)
miochan #7
Chapter 3: wow it's updated :) after so many years? lol joke :)uwaaah happy :)
have to re-read it
whatisyixing
#8
Chapter 9: Onewwww :'(
vampireme12
#9
Chapter 9: I really feel bad for Onew. I am a JongKey shipper but this time I'm on OnKey's side since this the right couple. I just wished Onew wouldn't go to Taemin, fall in love with him and completely forget about Key. I wish he would still fight for Key though it might be impossible now since he was deeply hurt and already gave up, the sight of the two f-ucking not helping him either -sighs- I wished OnKey would be together now because I know despite that Jonghyun will come back to Sekyung.