i still want it all

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When Hoseok opened his eyes he had absolutely no idea where he was, at least not for some time. He yawned and sat up in his bed, rubbing his eyes as his vision was blurry and he wanted it gone. When he was finally able to see probably he took a closer look at the room's interior and realized that it wasn't his own room, but he knew the room too well. In fact it was Namjoon's bedroom, and suddenly it made sense to him to wake up at the younger's place as he never went bacjk home. In fact he didn't only stay over, but he had had with the younger. Well, Hoseok preferred to call it 'making love' instead of . was something for people who didn't have feelings involved in the act, but the both of them shared a whole lot of emotions. No, it hadn't been , they had made love and Hoseok was so full of it and he felt warm. He had loved every single second of it, because during those times he always knew he belonged to Namjoon, because Namjoon would show him all of him, and give him all of himself. Hoseok belonged to Namjoon, he knew he did, and Namjoon belonged to him just as much.

Hoseok took a look at the still sleeping Namjoon lying beside him. Hoseok lay back down beside him, a hand now caressing the younger's cheek. He didn't want to wake him up, but he couldn't restrain himself from touching the younger. It felt like a dream to Hoseok, and he never wanted to wake up again. Hoseok smiled softly as Namjoon mumbled some uncoherent words in his sleep. Hoseok's hand moved up to the younger's hair and he through it, feeling the softness of the strands. He scooted closer to the younger, cuddling up against the younger's chest. Namjoon brought him closer in his sleep and mumbled something again. Hoseok didn't understand, but there was no need to as long as he could stay in Namjoon's arms. He enjoyed every second of it and he didn'T even notice when he fell back asleep.

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The next time he opened his eyes he was faster to realize that he wasn't in his own bed. He blinked a few times, and when he finally turned to lay on his back he found Namjoon in a sitting position, watching him. Hoseok dared to smile a little, and his smile only grew as the younger smiled back at him. However, Hoseok's smile faded as fast as it had appeared as he looked into the younger's eyes. There were so many emotions displayed in the depths of the younger's dark eyes, but the emotions that overshadowed all the others was regret. Hoseok frowned slightly, questioning himself what the younger might regret, but to be honest it didn't take him long to understand what he was regretting. The last night, in the younger's eyes it had been a mistake, something