but everything is shattering & it's my mistake

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And as time passed by they still met. Each week Hoseok would visit Namjoon several times, but neither of them dared to talk about what had happened. Their friends often asked them about why Hoseok had left in a hurry and assumed that had had a fight, but both refused to tell them. They knew their friends were worried, but there was nothing to worry about in the end. They still spent time together, a lot of time, but that was it. There were still those moments when Hoseok would feel himself falling back into old behaviors of a time when he still had been able to call Namjoon ‘his’. But that time was gone, no matter how hard it was to accept it. Hoseok knew he was the problem why both of them even had to face those circumstances. But each time he started to regret his decision he started to remember himself of the reason why he had broken up with Namjoon.

He had decided to do so in behalf of Namjoon and it was probably the best thing he could have done. At least that’s what he kept on telling himself. However, sometimes he and Namjoon found themselves in situations they both didn’t really know how to handle or how to act. And with each of those situations it grew harder for Hoseok to keep on living his life. No, he definitely wasn’t going to end his life. He may was desperate for Namjoon, for everything he was and everything he did, but he wasn’t yet broken enough to change his decision of living in