han river

the place where the people ruined by love, life and humanity go. the place where both healing and breaking of hearts are done.

healing

that's what i need. i need healing from the miseries of life.

as i arrived i sat down by the edge and took a deep breath. this heavy feeling in my chest was surely painful. i reckon that this feeling would be harder to remove. my father's death was not the only reason why i am miserable in life.

the animal shelter i was working in closed down and it means no work. my best friend is no longer my best friend. my older sister, who is a year older than me, got pregnant, which reminds me not to do the deed if not married yet. her being pregnant is not the problem, the responsibility of me providing money for them is the problem.

what a screwed up life.

it is indeed screwed up unless you're optimistic about life then good for you. i'm not pessimistic. it's what i call accepting reality itself. i realized that the longer i live, the more sacrifices i make. i guess i made too much sacrifices i forgot to live for myself also.