Sooyoung wake up from her sleep in the next morning, it’s still early morning, she is looking for him but couldn’t find anyone in this house, so she come out from Sungjae’s manager house,

“Ah…I must be crazy, why I sleep there…,” she said while running to the bus stop nearby, “is there any bus will stop here?, it’s still early..,” she said to herself while waiting for the bus.

She arrived in front of revel house, when she is opening the gate, someone calling her, it’s Seulgi who just come from jug with her boyfriend,

“You didn’t come home last night?, where were you sleep then?,” she asked, Sooyoung greet Eunkwang then smiling to Seulgi,

“Because the filming end in midnight, after that I must prepare something for today, so I end up sleeping in the office,” she told her awkwardly, Eunkwang who noticed that just grinning,

“Why?,” Seulgi asked.

“It’s just, the way Sooyoung said it like she is afraid of something,” he said then open the gate, “let’s go,” he said, Sooyoung run to the second floor while Eunkwang and Seulgi goes to rooftop.

In the Revel house, Joohyun already wake up and greet Sooyoung who just come,

“Where were you sleep last night, Park Sooyoung?,” she asked, she tell her the reason same as what she told Seulgi before, “don’t lie to me, I called Changsub last night, he said the filming end not long ago, I called him at 11 Pm. So, where did you sleep, tell me,” she said while walking toward her,

“Because, I’m looking  for my family now, so…yesterday I goes to someone who have some information about it,” she said then heading to her room, Seunghwan is there, she just wake up,

“You look tired, just continue your sleep, sorry for disturbing you in early morning,” Sooyoung said while change her clothes then goes to the bathroom, ”why he didn’t wake me up?, ah..seriuosly,” she said while looking at the mirror then back to her room after washing her face, then she turn on her laptop, she is sending something to someone who really help her with the notebook, she is smiling after click send,

“So, it did really help you?,” Seunghwan asking while coming down from her bed, “then..did you find your parent?,” she asked.

“It did help me..not that much, but it did. I find her, my mom. For now, I don’t think I can meet her in person, ” she said, then her phone ringing it’s a call from Sungjae, Seunghwan saw that then smiling,

“Are both of you became this close now?, it’s still early morning and he calling you, answer it, I won’t disturb you,” she said and leave the room while grinning. She answer his call,

“Where are you?,” he asked, “why are you suddenly leaving without telling me,” he said.

“I’m in revel’s house. So, where are you right now?, you leave me alone like that after asking me to stay there,” she said.

“It’s just, you look so tired so I couldn’t wake you up, and I couldn’t stay there because I shouldn’t do that,” he said then take a deep breath, “I’m at my manager’s house right now,” he said.

“It’s okay,I know that you shouldn’t there.  Thank you for letting me have nice sleep there,” she said, not long after that she end the call and goes to her bed, when she start closing her eyes she remember something, I think, last night we sleep on the floor but when I wake up in the next morning, why I’m on sofa?. Did he the one who did that?. Ah..it’s really embarrassing.

She then goes to the filming location in the afternoon, there, she is looking for Changsub. She found him in his room talking with someone, because she couldn’t disturb him so she decided to waiting for him. Not long after that, Changsub come to her and say,

“So, you want to ask me,” she is looking at him, confused, “I heard from Joohyun that you didn’t come home last night, you must be with him, right?,” he said, she keep looking at him.

“Hmm..how did you know?,” she asked.

“Just..feeling. so, did he told you about me?,” he asked, “how much did he told you about me?,” he said while walking to his room and giving her sign to follow him,

“He said that your mother took care of me, because my mom asking help through your noona,” she said, he give her a cup of hot tea, “then my childhood, I spent it with you, right?. Could you tell me, what kind of girl was me?,” she asked then smiling.

“What kind of girl?, just…you didn’t talk that much, so I feel lonely even though I have a friend. For that day, sorry for leaving you alone in that playground,” he suddenly said, “that day, my mom is sick, so I couldn’t leave her alone at home,” he said.

“Why you feel sorry?, don’t say that ‘if you were there, I would be remember my childhood story, if you were there, I wouldn’t be get kidnapped with him’, like that?. He feel sorry to me too, because if he didn’t asked me to play with him, I wouldn’t get kidnapped with him. If there are so many persons who feel sorry to me, it’s make me uncomfortable, so don’t ever say that again. If both of you feel sorry to me, I’m curious how would my mother feel?, is she feel sorry too?. She never took care of me, then she even didn’t know that I’m her daughter, would she feel sorry too?,” she asked then drink her tea.

“Do you want to meet her?,” he asked, “do you have courage to meet her and ask her about it?,” he asked.

“That superstar tittle, is it the only reason she abounded me?. Rather than asking such question, I think I really want to know her reason?, and the other thing I really want to know is, who is my dad?, do you know nything about my dad?,” she asked.

“Your dad?, I never heard about him,” he said.

“If she really have me when she was just enter the entertainment industry, and if her reason for throwed me away is because of that, then I guess I was a baby who she wasn’t hoped to exist, ” she suddenly saying something painfull.

“Why did you said that, just thinking positively, maybe…just maybe she want to meet you when she is succesfull enough,” he trying to comfort her.

“I couldn’t accept it too if her reason like that,” she said then smile to him, “Then..nice to meet you again, my old friend,” she said while extending her hand,

“Unfortunately, I’m your oppa, I’m older than you,” he said then reaching her hand. Sungjae looking both of them from a far, If that day didn’t happened, I’ll be able to smile that bright in front of you.

While working, Sooyoung thinking about what Changsub asked to her while ago, do I have courage to meet her?. Sungjae come closer to her, she smile to him, not like before when they meet in filming set,

“You look different today,” he said, “everytime I get closer to you in filming set before, you always avoiding me, but today..you smile to me,” she is smiling after heard that.

“Because of last night,” she said, but then Sungjae giving her sign to not say anything about it, “Ah..sorry,” she said, “then..work hard for better rating in the next episode,” she said then leave him.

*

Yerim, goes straight to her father hospital after school, she meet that woman again, Sooyoung’s mom just come in to her father work room. She decided to come closer to that room so she will heard what they are talking about,

“So, did you decided to let her know about me?,” she asked to her father.

“I never meet her in person, so I never told her anything about you. Maybe there is someone else who know about your identity,” he said.

“Who?, your son?,” she asked, “then, did you let him know about my identity?,” she asked again.

“Why you dragged my son into this mess?, don’t you think this time is the right time to tell her all about her parent?, she is already over 20. She have the right to know about you and your husband,” he said.

“I never have husband, he never have intention to marry me in the first place, he just make his sister as his reason to leave me like that. At that time, I was still young, my career just start…so, if he leave me like that I didn’t have a reason to be devastated, so I woke up from bad dream. At least I still give her chance to live, although I never took care of her,” she said, after heard that, suddenly Yerim’s eyes watery and the tears start falling down, someone standing behind her give her a tissue, making her startled,

“Take it, you need it,” he said, he is a new psychiatrist in this hospital, her dad partner, Yerim know him, Lee Minhyuk, “it’s seem you close to that woman daughter,” he said, “then I’ll leave first,” he said then leave her.

Yerim continue to listen to their conversation, then she found out about Sooyoung’s father,

“Or should I say that it’s all your fault, because you are the one who start the fire..,” she said, “you are the one who make his only sister commited suicide and he decided to leave me like that so he can get revenge to you, he did the kidnapping your son and his own daughter,” she said, Yerim’s dad look furious after heard that, he is throwing the book to her side, while in the other side Yerim hold her crying by closing with her hands, that man see that so he decided to pull Yerim from there to the hospital’s rooftop, she start crying loudly there,

“What should I do now?,” she said, “she is really pitifull, how can I let her know all about it know..how about my oppa, he’ll really sad after heard this..I know that he start to like her..,” that man still looking at her, “oppa..,” she call him, then he appear in front of her, “I just know that my dad hiding that big secret that make someone suffering for years,” she said.

“The realization of something always making someone like this, just cry now…you need it, I’ll just here, watching you cry,” he said then take a deep sigh, “our Yerim must be really upset now, right?,” he said then patting her head, Yerim looking at him,

“Don’t do that, even our oppa never did that to me,” she said Minhyuk stop patting her head, “Wah..your oppa  never did that, both of you must be not that close,” he said that as joke, Yerim glaring at him, “okay..then do you want something to eat or drink?, I’ll buy it,” he said.

“Buy me bingsu,” she said while wiping of her tears, Minhyuk smile after heard that then tell her to meet him in café next to the hospital.

*

While in revel house, Joohyun still suspicious to Sooyoung who didn’t go home two days ago,

“You have boyfriend, right?,” she suddenly said when Sooyoung starting to eat her dinner,

“Ah..Bae Joohyun, ” Seulgi calling her name because after heard that she spit out her food,

“Why you thought that I have a boyfriend?, I said to you that I meet the informan who know something about my family,” she said, if I have boyfriend I’’ll tell you, don’t worry,“ she said then continue eating.

After dinner, they gathered in living room, Sooyoung come from her room with the notebook that give ny her dongsaeng and sit between Seunghwan and Seulgi,

“Give me strength,” she said, the three of them look confused with her words, “tomorrow, I decided to meet her, my mom,” she said, the three of them aoutomaticly turn their body to her, “so give me strength, ” her roommates looking at her then smiling,

“Of course, do you want us to come with you?, ” Seunghwan asked, Sooyoung just smiling, “but, do you know her house?,” she asked.

“Lee sunbae help me with that, and I’ll come by myself, ” she said.

“Okay, no problem. If there is something, tell us, we’ll help you,” Seulgi said while patting her back.

She decided to come to her mother house after filming, Changsub will drive her there. Before that, she meet with Sungjae. She come with two glass of ice Americano,

“I’ll meet her today,” she said while giving him one of the glass of ice Americano. Sungjae looking at her,

“You’ll be okay, right?,” he said, Sooyoung smiling, “maybe..just maybe, you’ll hate me after that, and avoiding me…let me looking at smily Sooyoung right now,” he said making Sooyoung confused.

“Why?, is there something you didn’t tell me?, ” she asked.

“Just smile to me right now, so I can keep it in my memory,” he said then walking closer to her, she is still smiling to him, suddenly he rubbing her head and smiling back to her, “sorry,” he said then kiss her on her lips. Although it’s not that long, that kiss make her frozen and looking straight at him, “good luck,” he said, then leave her after that, but she stop him,

“Why you did that?,” she asked, the turn her body, “was that your way to give me strength?.”

“If that really give you strength, then you’ll be gratefull to me, right?,” Sooyoung still looking straight at him, “I did what I want to do, that kiss..I did that because I really want to do it,” he said.

“Why you want to do it?, ”  she asked again.

“Do you expect me to say because I like you?,” he said, she look nervous, he walking closer to her, “I wpn’t tell you the detail..just think as my way to give you strength,” he said then really leave her.

“What do you mean giving me strength, it’s make my body weak, what was that, really..,” she said then touching her lips.

*

And now, here she is, in front of her mom house, Changsub is the one who rang the bell and let her enter the house when the door opening,

“Whatever she is going to say to you, you’ll be alright, right?,” he said, Sooyoung nodding, “I’ll pick you up an hour later, call me,” he said then leave her.  Before entering the hiusem she take a deep breath and close her eyes, she is there sitting while crossing her leg, Sooyoung walking closer to her and bowing,

“Hello,” she said then bowing, she look shocked because the one who come not Changsub’s noona but her, “I’m Sooyoung, Park Sooyoung,” she said.

“Why are you here?, where is Lee Changmi?,” she asked then standing.

“The one who want to meet you is me, not Lee Changmi-ssi, Mom,” she said, “don’t you recognized me as your daughter, we haven’t meet for long time,” she said while walking to the sofa, the maid come with a glass of tea and put it on the table,

“Go to the mart and buy some seafood for dinner,” she said to the maid while giving her money, the maid nodding and leave not long after that and their conversation begin, “so, the one who told you about me is Changsub?, that Lee Changmi’s dongsaeng?,” Sooyoung keep silent, “then, do you want to confirm it by coming here?,” she asked,  there is no answer from her, “you won’t get the answer that you want, so get out from here,” she said, Sooyoung smiling after heard that.

“Wah..who is the older one here?, why are you so childish mom. I don’t need any confirmation from you, because it’s already confirmed by someone. And I think I already know why you throw me away years ago, it’s because you are such coward, right?,” she said, she really nail her anger,

“Coward?, shouldn’t you be gratefull that me still give you chance to live?, I had reason to throw the baby away after the birth, ” her answer make Sooyoung angry to her,

“You are not the one who gave me chance to live, because you are not the one who created me. I’m really gratefull because you throw me away, I meet such a good people, if I stuck near you , I wonder how would I became. Then mom, keep living like that..after knowing you are such a person, I wonder how about my dad? Is he the same as you?, if he is like you, I think for the rest of my life I couldn’t have a good parent, ” she said, then decided to leave before her tears fall down, but then her mom say,

“And, don’t call me mom, because I hate it. And, if you know your real dad, I think you’ll think that I’m better than him, ” she said confidently, Sooyoung tears already fall down, so she wiping it and turn her body to face her coward mom,

“Why you think like that?, if he is worst than you, then I won’t thinking that you are better than him, because you have done something bad too. And, if you hate if your daughter calling you ‘mom’, then me as your daughter will hate myself if I calling you by that name once again. Why?, because you didn’t deserve it, that word only for a woman who really took care of her children and won’t throw her away for any reasons. Was it because you just a rookie back then, was it because your lover who made you pregnant in such a young age run away from you, were it because both of you such coward persons, I wouldn’t know the exact reason, and I don’t want to know. You said that I must be gratefull because you give me chance to live, right?. Then, thanks for your decision to not killed me while I’m still in your womb, I’ll thanks for that..,” she said then really leave her mom. She come out earlier than she planed because she didn’t know that it’ll finished this fast, she couldn’t reach Changsub because he’s still busy with his business so she decided to walk to the revel house but in her half way, she stop and and start crying again, she is walking slowly to the bench nearby and calling someone,

“Unnie, could you pick me up?, I feel weak right now, I can’t breath,” she said while keep crying, she is calling Joohyun.

“Okay..where are you right now?, tell me we’ll be right there, don’t cry,” she said, Sooyoung tell her where she is, Joohyun told Seunghwan and Seulgi,

“We can use oppa’s car, so we can reach there faster,” Seulgi said and she is running to Eunkwang house after Joohyun and Seunghwan agreed, “oppa, could you drive us to somewhere?, Sooyoung need us right now,” she said, Eunkwang pick the key and drive them there,

“She’ll be alright, right?,” Seunghwan asked, but there is no one who answer, Joohyun keep calling someone but that someone not pick up her call,

“Where are you Lee Changsub?,” she said angrily.