I am getting married today! I should feel happy today, right?

But why does it feel like it's going to be the end of my life?

As I look at myself in the mirror, I noticed that my eyes are getting teary again.

           "Oh! Wedding tears! Don't worry honey. You're going to be fine. I bet Seung Hyun's eyes would be mesmerized again..."

I smiled as Bom unnie said those words.

I should really feel happy today! Damn! How did I ever get into this situation. I love Seung Hyun... but not as much as how I loved Ji Yong. 

Kwon Ji Yong. Remembering his name brought tears into my eyes again. 

            "Bom unnie, can I have some time alone?"

            "Of course dear. Just don't run away. Haha... Nah. I'm joking. I'll go ahead."

I watched Bom unnie as she closed the door. Run away. Yes! I am always running away from everything. I thought that this marriage with Seung hyun would be the easy way out. Turns out I am only wounding my heart some more.

I cried... and cried as I watched myself in the mirror. I saw my make-up getting washed up again. Jun Hee's going to scold me again. But what can i do? I can't help myself!

My heart is really broken today. My energy... it's all gone since I last saw him pleading for me not to leave him. 

Tears broke out into my eyes again. I covered my mouth not wanting anyone to hear me crying.

The door opened and I am surprised. It's Seung Hyun Oppa.

I wiped my tears away. I smiled at him trying to hide the pain from my eyes.
           "Seung Hyun Oppa, it's bad to see each other before we get married."

He's just there standing beside the half-opened door. He looked at me with admiration... and awe.

           "You're beautiful, Soo Jin."

I smiled at the thought that I'm still beautiful in his eyes even though my face is drenched with tears.

           "I'm glad that I'm gonna marry the prettiest girl I've known and loved."

I looked down trying to hide the tears that are starting to fall again.

           "I'll be waiting for you at the altar."

I took a glance at his face as he went out. Did I just see him weep for a moment there? Maybe just my imagination. He said he was glad to get married with me.

Is this really what I should do?

           "Soo Jin, it's the right thing to do!"