I'm sure, many of you have heard. This past Monday, Shinee's Jonghyun has passed away. 

I'm devastated... I'm in denial, I'm hurt, I'm still in shock. Due to this story being shinee based, I'll have to go back and re arrange a few aspects, maybe I will even change the characters entirely.

I apologize for never having updating so frequently, and now having to change everything. I looked up to Shinee a lot. They were my first group I ever loved so please, bear with me. If anything, I'll end up moving this entire story to Archive of our own with just a bunch of O/C names rather than being Idol-based. 

I'm sorry again, and if anyone out there is scared, sad, angry, or alone please remember that you have to continue to fight. Jonghyun is resting in peace please do not cry. 

Jonghyun, you did well. Now rest in love. 

Here is a list of hotlines, please call if you need anyone to talk to. 

• Depression Hotline:1-630-482-9696
• Suicide Hotline:1-800-784-8433
• LifeLine:1-800-273-8255
• Trevor Project:1-866-488-7386
• uality Support:1-800-246-7743
• Eating Disorders Hotline:1-847-831-3438
• and ual Assault:1-800-656-4673
• Grief Support:1-650-321-5272
• Runaway:1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
• Exhale:After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253
• Child Abuse:1-800-422-4453
• UK Helplines:
• Samaritans (for any problem):08457909090 e-mail [email protected]
• Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem):08001111
• Mind infoline (mental health information):0300 123 3393 e-mail: [email protected]
• Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice):0300 466 6463 [email protected]
• b-eat eating disorder support:0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: [email protected]
• b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders):08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)
• Cruse Bereavement Care:08444779400 e-mail: [email protected]
• Frank (information and advice on drugs):0800776600
• Drinkline:0800 9178282
• Crisis England & Wales:0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail [email protected]
• Crisis Scotland:08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight
• India Self Harm Hotline:00 08001006614
• India Suicide Helpline:022-27546669
• Kids Help Phone (Canada):1-800-668-6868, Free and available 24/7
• suicide hotlines;
• Argentina:54-0223-493-0430
• Australia:13-11-14
• Austria:01-713-3374
• Barbados:429-9999
• Belgium:106
• Botswana:391-1270
• Brazil:21-233-9191
• China:852-2382-0000
• (Hong Kong:2389-2222)
• Costa Rica:606-253-5439
• Croatia:01-4833-888
• Cyprus:357-77-77-72-67
• Czech Republic:222-580-697, 476-701-908
• Denmark:70-201-201
• Egypt:762-1602
• Estonia:6-558-088
• Finland:040-5032199
• France:01-45-39-4000
• Germany:0800-181-0721
• Greece:1018
• Guatemala:502-234-1239
• Holland:0900-0767
• Honduras:504-237-3623
• Hungary:06-80-820-111
• Iceland:44-0-8457-90-90-90
• India:022 2754 6669
• Israel:09-8892333
• Italy:06-705-4444
• Japan:3-5286-9090
• Latvia:6722-2922, 2772-2292
• Malaysia:03-756-8144
• (Singapore:1-800-221-4444)
• Mexico:525-510-2550
• Netherlands:0900-0767
• New Zealand:4-473-9739
• New Guinea:675-326-0011
• Nicaragua:505-268-6171
• Norway:47-815-33-300
• Philippines:02-896-9191
• Poland:52-70-000
• Portugal:239-72-10-10
• Russia:8-20-222-82-10
• Spain:91-459-00-50
• South Africa:0861-322-322
• South Korea:2-715-8600
• Sweden:031-711-2400
• Switzerland:143
• Taiwan:0800-788-995
• Thailand:02-249-9977
• Trinidad and Tobago:868-645-2800
• Ukraine:0487-327715

I'm here too if u want to talk to me. My tumblr is here. send me messages or anon whatever you want in order to get anything off your chest. Please, remember to be safe and fight on.