"we need to talk.." jeonghan blurted out. joshua nodded and motioned him to his room.   they sat on joshua's bed, knees barely touching. "you were crying?" joshua nodded. "i dont know what to do anymore jeonghan.." jeonghan already knew how this was gonna end. he knew already. even from the start. he smiled softly at josh. "it's ok." joshua looked at jeonghan looking confused.   jeonghan couldn't talk. the lump in his throat stopped him. he felt the tears already slipping out and falling slowly as he took deep breathes. "im sorry joshua...that was really stupid of me wasn't it? i just don't know why i did that..i love you and you love me-" jeonghan stopped when joshua put his hand on jeonghan's. joshua was crying now too.   joshua was about to say something, jeonghan knew. but it never came. joshua just keep looking at their hands.    "joshua?" jeonghan wanted joshua to say it already. joshua didn't look up but began to spoke to him.   "im leaving.." jeonghan froze. he was leaving. joshua was leaving. leaving him. "i wasn't going to tell you...but i just had to."   jeonghan wanted to speak. but he couldn't. he wanted to tell him he was sincerely sorry. he didn't want him to leave. "w-where are...you going?"    "america...."   "are-are you coming back?"    he saw joshua shrugged. and with that he felt his world crash all around him. the only person he ever truly loved is going to leave him.    "you-you know why jeonghan. but maybe in another life, or in an