after jeonghan left last night both joshua and jeonghan couldn't stop crying.    jeonghan went home really late after walking around the a random park. he really wanted to get drunk. but he learned that it was bad to get drunk really later at night with no company. nothing could explain the pain he felt.    if only he wasn't soooo stupid. this wouldn't have happened to both him and joshua. cause of him joshua is having a hard time. jeonghan did this to joshua. joshua didn't deserve this.   after thinking about his life and mistakes, he crashed into bed not even caring if he should clean up or anything.      he was woken up about 2 hours later by light knocking.       "joshua..?"     "jeonghan. i'll be leaving and i just wanted to say goodbye again."   jeonghan admired joshua's appearance right now.   wonderful fashion. great hair. great everything. perfect to be in fact.   he could of spent the rest of his life with this perfect human being. but no. he had to screw everything up with him.   "oh. uh, goodbye joshua..sorry for all the bad thi-"    "we're past that jeonghan. quit apologizing."   jeonghan sighed and nodded, "yeah ok, we're over that."   he looked at joshua. the joshua that used to be his. "i'll miss you joshua. i really hope you'll be happy over there in america."   "let's not make this sad jeonghan..lets be happy." joshua said, on the verge of tears himself.   "how can i be joshua!? you're leaving because of me...of course im