Just go

Chapter 1

Hanbin and Yunhyeong took a few days to rest since iKON is heading to Macau today for the China Music Awards 2016. Bobby still worried about Hanbins condition, doesn't leave his side. Since it is cold today in Seoul Hanbin wears the same hoddie as Bobby for the W-magazine shoot and their own shoot in Saipan. Jinhwan and June rode in the same car as them but June has no good mood since he was scolded by their manager for coming home later the other day. Jinhwan feeling slightly happy about their manager scolding June since he himself was worried too, clings strangely close to Yunhyuk. June not pleased to see Jinhwan being that close to their manager tries to hold in his anger while Jinhwan enjoys him being jealous. Hanbin doesn't notice any of that since he himself is asleep while they head to the airport and rests his head on Bobby's shoulder. Bobby listens to some music while they ride to the airport. Chanwoo, Donghyuk and Yunhyeong are on the other car and chat about random things and how they feel about attending another Music Award ceremony in China.

When they arrive at the airport Bobby carefully wakes up Hanbin and tells him he has to get out. Hanbin smacks his lips cutely and blinks his eyes before he sits up and stretches his body to get out of the car. Bobby chuckles looking at his boyfriend and gets out of the care when Jinhwan and June got out. Hanbin yawns and gets out too. Yunhyuk heads to the other car and helps Chanwoo and Donghyuk with the luggage while Jinhwan, June as well as Bobby and Hanbin already head ahead with the security guards. Bobby looks at Hanbin when they are in the daylight and whispers into his ear. “Hanbin-ah your cheek is all red from sleeping.” Hanbin immediately lifts his hand and covers his cheek with his palm. “Couldn't you have woken me up sooner?” Bobby chuckles and goes on a head. Hanbin sighs and walks with his hand covering his face. Chanwoo and Donghyuk follow him and Yunhyuk catches up to them with their staff members taking care of their luggage. At the airport their fans are already waiting there for them and take shots of them.

While they walk through the airport Bobby notices that Hanbin is still worried if his cheek is still red and walks beside him putting his arm around his shoulder when they step on the flat escalator and chuckles. “Don't worry, you are no longer red.” Hanbin glares at him through his sunglasses and mutters. “Are you enjoying this?” Bobby laughs and pats his shoulder. “You noticed?” He laughs and smiles at him lowering his white surgery mask. Hanbin sighs and hits him gentle into the side but feels bad right after since Bobby took care of him the past days while Hanbin had a cold. Bobby laughs faintly then frowns when he notices Hanbin looking troubled all of the sudden. “What's with this face now?” Hanbin looks at him and snuggles himself carefully on Bobby for no one to notice and whispers. “Thank you for taking care of me.” Bobby's heart skips a beat when he hears him in his shy yet serious tone. “Don't worry, I am glad you feel better today.” Hanbin nods and turns to the front again. Bobby smiles and looks up, then notices their fans are standing on the other floor waving at them. He taps Hanbins shoulder and points to the second floor. “Look they are waving at us.” Hanbin smiles noticing their fans and waves at them too until they reach the end of the escalator. Chanwoo and Yunhyeong are chatting with Donghyuk a few steps ahead while June and Jinhwan walk together with Yunhyuk beside the escalator. Jinhwan still clingy towards Yunhyuk and joking around with him makes June feel more and more upset. His patience reaches almost the limit when Jinhwan almost hangs on Yunhyuk-Hyung but just then Bobby went to Jinhwan to because Chanwoo and Hanbin talked with each other. Donghyuk and Yunhyeong walk with each other and when they all reach the duty-free area Yunhyuk suggests they should eat something before they get on the plane since there is still more than two hours left until the plane takes off. Donghyuk and Chanwoo say they are not hungry since they want to take care of their weight. June takes the chance to take Jinhwan to pick out food together. Yunhyeong accompanies June and Jinhwan. Yunhyuk looks troubled about his younger boys, sighs and tries to convince Donghyuk and Chanwoo to at least eat a little bit since it isn't necessary for either of them to be on a diet. Chanwoo wants to reject again when his stomach growls and Yunhyuk grins and drags Chanwoo and Donghyuk to the restaurant. Bobby laughs looking at their dongsaengs. Hanbin smiles and turns to Bobby. “I am hungry too Jiwon-Hyung.” Bobby suddenly surprised to hear Hanbin say his real name since it's been a while he heard it from his lips turns to him confused. “Jiwon?...Since when do you address with my real name?” Hanbin blushes slightly and looks away. “Wae? Can't I? If you don't like it then I won't say it.” Bobby shakes his head, steps in front of him to face him properly and smiles. “No, that's not it...it's just unusual. So I was wondering what brought this up.” Hanbin bites his lips and pulls on his sleeves to hide his hands. “I was just....I just thought...I want to call you....something....like.... only I call you....but...I ...I guess it was an idiotic idea.” He avoids Bobby's eyes when he sees his expression. Bobby eyes are wide open and his mouth stands open. Hanbin is nervous and shakes his head and wants to walk on to the others. “Well whatever...I....” Bobby doesn't let him continue his sentence and grabs his hand then drags him away from the others. Hanbin follows him looking at Yunhyuk and the others until they are out of sight and turns to Bobby. “Bobby-Hyung, where are you going?” Bobby doesn't answer but stops suddenly and looks around then sees the restroom sign and pushes the door open to pull Hanbin inside the single bathroom-stall. Hanbin already aware what Bobby is about to do stops and grabs Bobby with his other hand to make him stop. “No, Hyung! We can't! Not here.” Bobby turns to him his eyes full of desire and Hanbin becomes silent. He let himself be pulled inside the stall, and wants to lock the door, but notices that the lock is damaged. Bobby pulls down his white mask and faces Hanbin. Hanbin frowns. "It won't lock." Bobby sighs but kisses Hanbin passionate instead of answering. Hanbin wants to shove him off but Bobby won't let him succeed,he breaks the kiss and whispers against Hanbins lips. “I want to hear it again.” Hanbin pants and leans on Bobby's chest. “Hear what?” Bobby can hear his nervousness due to the unlocked door and slides his hand to Hanbins hips to lift up his shirt. He caresses his spine while he leans down to kiss and on Hanbins neck. “I want you to say my name...call me Jiwon again.” Hanbin shuts his eyes when he feels Bobby's tongue tickle his neck. “Jiwon-Hyung...Jiwon-Hyung....” Bobby sighs and presses Hanbin closer against him. To think that he could get form hearing him say his name would have been ridiculous a few month ago but a lot of things seem still ridiculous, for example making out in a public toilet that won't lock. Hanbin sighs and wants to keep Bobby on a certain distance since they don't have the chance to do anything here. “Jiwon-Hyung...we....we....can't... Hajima...Haj-...” Hanbin whines when Bobby grabs Hanbins hand and forces him to touch his crotch. “This won't wait ...it is your fault....for calling me by my name.” Hanbins palm becomes hot when he feels Bobby's throb underneath the fabric of his pants. Bobby smirks facing Hanbin. “Lets do it quick...a quickie...I think I will become crazy if I can't have you now.” Hanbin wants to pull away but Bobby doesn't let go of his hand. He starts to rub Hanbins hand on his crotch while he grabs Hanbins neck with his other one and continues their kiss. Hanbins knees become weak and he can't resist his own pleasure. He takes his free hand and slides underneath the fabric to touch Bobby's directly. Bobby gasps but continues to on Hanbins lips while he moves his own hand further into Hanbins pants and starts to jerk him off too. Hanbin moans and turns his face away to gasp for air. When Bobby starts to his , they suddenly hear steps outside the room on the hallway. Bobby grabs Hanbins chin and chokes his breathing with a kiss while he continues to jerk Hanbin off. The steps move away and Hanbin pushes Bobby away then takes a step back to look at Bobby. Bobby pants holding on to Hanbins arm, chewing on his own lips. Hanbin blinks his eyes and opens his mouth before he pulls down Bobby's shirt to kiss his shoulder slowly kneeling down while he unbuckles Bobby's belt. Bobby jerks when Hanbin takes out his and kisses the tip. “Hanbin-ah...you don't have to do that...” He pants and grinds his teeth leaning his head on the wall when Hanbin starts to him. Bobby slides his hands into Hanbins hair and shivers when Hanbin moves up and down his . Hanbin coughs slightly but doesn't stop to caress him since it turns him on himself. Before Bobby won't be able to hold back he pulls away Hanbins head and makes him stand up again. Bobby on Hanbins lips and can taste his salty precum mixed with Hanbins saliva. Hanbin moans but breaks the kiss and puts his hands on Bobby's shoulder to press him down on his knees. Bobby puts his hands on his hips while he pulls up Hanbins hoddie and his pants down. Hanbin moans when he feels Bobby wrap his mouth around his throbbing to him while he holds on to the base. Bobby notices Hanbins precum spread inside his mouth and swallows it as if it would be the most delicious juice in the world. Hanbin moans sweetly and digs his nails into Bobby's shirt while he his hip slightly into Bobby's open mouth. Bobby let go of Hanbin and gets up to press their hips against each other while he wraps his hand around Hanbins and his . Hanbin embraces Bobby with his arms and turns his head to the side to kiss him deeper. Hanbin whines and clings on to Bobby pressing his hips against Bobby. Bobby opens his mouth and sticks his tongue out to return the kiss when Hanbin pants into his ear and reaches for Bobby's finger. Bobby slows down his tempo jerking each other off once Hanbin guides his hand to his bottom. Bobby sounds confused yet aroused. "What...what...is it?" Hanbin whispers into Bobby's ear, with impatience. "Finger me...there...." Hanbin on Bobby's ear and let go of his hand to hold on to him again. Bobby sighs surprised and moves his fingers down to Hanbins backside. He caresses and his crack then moves deeper and slowly puts his finger into Hanbins hole. Hanbin shivers but cries in pleasure when Bobby starts to fondle his backside. Bobby moves his finger inside Hanbin while grinds their together. Hanbin stands on his toes and clings on to Bobby more when he inserts another finger. Bobby's throbs from his excitement and he can almost feel his blood rush into it to make him even harder. He can't take it, no matter what but he wants to be inside him. Bobby stops and rests his hand on the wall next to Hanbin. "Hanbin-ah can I put it in?" His voice sounds husky and hot. Hanbin gulps while he leans his head back and pants just as as Bobby. "Yes....it's fine...put it in." Bobby kisses Hanbin while he starts to pull on his pants. Hanbin let go of Bobby's lips and whispers. "Wait, I ...turn around." He just wants to when Bobby stops him and lifts his thigh. "No, I want to see you face when I enter you." Hanbin frowns confused when Bobby only undresses one of Hanbins legs and presses Hanbin against the wall. He bends his knees to lift up one of Hanbins legs and let it rest on his crook of an arm and pulls up his shirt in case Hanbin comes their clothes won't get stained. Hanbin moans when Bobby puts his in place and sighs excited. Bobby holds on to Hanbibs thigh and whispers into Hanbins ear. "I put it in...try to relax." Hanbin nods his head and at the same time Bobby forces his inside him, they hear footsteps from outside. Hanbin bites into Bobby's shoulder to suppress his moans while Bobby grinds his teeth together. Hanbin tightening up around Bobby as soon as he is inside him and the sudden pressure stimulates Bobby so much, that he comes immediately. Feeling Bobby's throb inside him and his forcing its way into his insides makes Hanbin shiver in pleasure, while he reaches his too. Bobby presses their bodies against each other and grins when Hanbins spurts on his abs. The thrill and uncertainty if they might get caught only ads to their already strong excitement towards each other. The footsteps pass by and the only sound they can hear are their suppressing pants against each other's skin. Bobby let go of Hanbins thigh and gasps for air. Hanbins throbs and he feels Bobby's slowly become limp and his flowing out. Bobby wants to pull out his when Hanbin tightens up around him. “Hyung....wait...it's...it's coming out...” Hanbin clings on to Bobby and blushes. Bobby stops and feels somewhat sorry then looks for the toilet tissues. Hanbin frowns when Bobby suddenly moves when he reaches for the tissues. Bobby turns to Hanbin and kisses his forehead gentle. “Sorry, you can relax...I will wipe it for you.” Hanbin nods then leans against Bobby's chest. Bobby takes out his at the same time he puts the tissues to Hanbins entrance to soak up his . Hanbin sighs and feels a strange tickling feeling inside his stomach when Bobby takes care of him like this. It a mixed feeling between embarrassment and relieve. Bobby wipes him to make sure again then throws away the tissues and faces Hanbin. “Done.” Hanbin nods, his ears are bright red just as his sweater and Bobby chuckles amused. “When I think you are already used to all that stuff, you still manage to get shy when I do that to you.” Hanbin glares at him and pouts. “Whatever...we have to get back. I you can make fun of me later.” Hanbin takes on his jeans and fixes his clothes. Bobby looks at him and lifts up his chin and kisses him gentle then smiles. “I wasn't making fun of you. I just think that you are really cute.” Hanbin his lips and turn to the sink to wash his hands to avoid looking at Bobby's face. Bobby sighs and doesn't take his eyes off of him and fixes his clothes too then stands next to Hanbin and kisses his neck faintly and washes his hands too. Hanbin jolts and looks at Bobby when he kisses his neck. Bobby smiles satisfied and shakes off the water from his hands. “You looked at me.” He sticks out his tongue and Hanbin glares at him cutely and wipes his hands on the tissues. Bobby wipes his abs from Hanbins and grins naughty. “You came a lot...my skin is all sticky.” Hanbin bites his lips and counters. “It's not like you didn't came a lot yourself.” Bobby pulls down his shirt and throws away the wet paper towels then walks to Hanbin and touches Hanbins stomach. “I know...if you were a girl you would be pregnant by now with my child.” Hanbin mouth drops open and he looks at Bobby. Bobby grins and lowers his eyes to Hanbins stomach. Hanbin shakes his head and sighs. “Stop fooling around we have to get back.” He opens the door and heads back on the hallway. Bobby chuckles and goes after him to the others. Since Chanwoo notices Bobby and Hanbin head to the restrooms he told their manager and when they come back Hanbin buys himself some bread and shares it with Bobby while they walk to their gate.

Their plane takes off in time and during the flight most of them take the chance to sleep and rest. Hanbin plays absent minded with Bobby's wrist bands while he is asleep and Bobby has to hold back not to kiss him since his heart is overwhelmed with love towards Hanbin. When they arrive in Macau they head to their hotel and check into their rooms. Hanbin and Bobby wanted to share a room but Donghyuk and Jinhwan stay in the room with Hanbin while June and Yunhyeong share a room and Bobby stays with Chanwoo. Yunhyuk tells them to go to bed early since they need to stay up late for tomorrow's performance. Chanwoo already asleep when Hanbin knocks on their room. Bobby just wanted to go to bed too but heads to the door to open up. Hanbin leans on the wall next to the door and smiles at him. Bobby smiles as soon as he sees Hanbin. Hanbin leans towards Bobby and puts his hands on Bobby's bare chest and touches him only with his fingertips. “I wanted to sleep with you.” Hanbin stares at Bobby's chest and moves his hand slowly to his bust point. Bobby chuckles since it tickles and grabs Hanbins hand. “You should go to sleep. Tomorrow will be a long day.” Hanbin still staring at Bobby's upper body sighs. “Then give me a good night kiss.” Bobby grins pleased and pulls Hanbins half inside his room to kiss him. Hanbin moans and sticks out his tongue to slide it into Bobby's mouth and wraps his arms around Bobby's shoulders. Bobby on Hanbins tongue and leads the kiss once again. Hanbin moans and pants digging his hands into Bobby's hair.

Yunhyuk just left his room to ask for the WIFI-code when he sees that Bobby's door is open and Hanbin stands in front of it. He at first he doesn't see it but when he is close enough, he notices them kissing. Yunhyuk stops walking and stares at them. He shakes his head not believing his eyes then turns away and back to make sure he doesn't misunderstand, but this can't be misunderstood. This is to obvious. Hanbin and Bobby totally out of it doesn't notice him staring at them. Bobby let go of Hanbin when they hear Yunhyuk shocked voice. “What are two doing?” Hanbin jerks back and turns to the way too familiar voice. Bobby sticks out his head and sees their manager. His face is pale and his eyes are wide open as well as his mouth. Hanbin stares at him and puts his hand on his mouth as if he could hide what they just did. Bobby eyes wander flustered between Hanbin and Yunhyuk. Yunhyuk gulps and just need to find the right words to understand what this means. “What are you two doing?” Hanbin and Bobby stay quiet, unable to say anything. Yunhyuk ruffles his own hair and sighs. His voice sounds confused and upset. Not in his wildest dreams would he have imagined something like this. “I asked what do you think you are doing? Answer me!” Hanbin and Bobby jerk back and Chanwoo wakes up hearing Yunhyuk on the hallway. Chanwoo sits up and turns to the door. Hanbin shuts his eyes and wants to open his mouth when Bobby already starts to talk. “We...we...we are....going...ou-” Yunhyuk interrupts Bobby, just thinking what he is going to say makes him upset and nervous. He turns to Hanbin and Bobby then shakes his head and points at them. “I changed my mind. I don't want to hear your explanation. It was way too obvious to me to misinterpret this.” He frowns and turns away to think for an moment then faces them and looks disappointed. “What the hell are you thinking?...This...you can't be serious!” Hanbins mind is blank. His whole body feels as if he isn't even present. He just wants to sink into the ground. Bobby looks at Yunhyuk and thinks of a way to explain it to him after all. Chanwoo stays quiet but is just as nervous as the other two. Yunhyuk glares at them then points his finger at them and sounds commanding. “I don't know what this is you are doing, but this ends here! You stop whatever you have started.” Hanbin chest hurts and he looks at Yunhyuk. Bobby frowns and glares at Yunhyuk for the first time ever. “No! I know you must be shocked to see this but I ...” Yunhyuk stares at Bobby in disbelieve and sounds stern. “I am indeed shocked! Shocked and disappointed! Do you have any idea what this means? If this gets public....” He interrupts himself and shakes his head. Yunhyuk turns to Hanbin and stares at him. Hanbin lifts his head and sees his face. Before he could even think the words already left his mouth. “Yunhyuk-Hyungnim, we were just fooling around. There is nothing between us.” Bobby looks to Hanbin confused and grabs his arm but Hanbin pulls away. Hanbins voice sounds as if he is a robot with no emotions. So cold and empty. “I understand you are worried but this won't happen again. It was just out of curiosity.” Bobby looks at Hanbin and turns his face to him. “What the...?” Hanbin shuts his eyes. Now looking at Bobby's face would only make it worse. Yunhyuk sighs and turns away but warns them again. “I hope it was just fooling around...” he turns away to go since staying would only make his anger and shock worse and mutters to himself. “...fooling around...stop kidding me.” He heads back to his room and tries to calm down.

Chanwoo wants to get up to look for his Hyungs when he hears Bobby's voice. Bobby turns to Hanbin and sounds as if he just heard a good joke. His sentence sounds as if he is chuckling. “You know, it amazing how fast you can deny our love, if the moment forces you to.” Hanbins chest feels tight, his shoulders heavy and his knees weak. He didn't mean to say that but he was just too surprised to think of the right words to say. Bobby stares at Hanbin and pulls him into this room. Chanwoo hides underneath the blanket and acts as if he sleeping. Hanbin stumbles into the room and still avoids Bobby's eyes. Bobby shakes Hanbin. “Why didn't you tell him the truth? If we explained it to him I am sure he...” Hanbin finally lifts his head and looks at Bobby. His lips tremble just as his whole body and his voice sounds shaky. “Didn't you see his face? Didn't you hear him...It's not like he was entirely wrong! I...we ….we were too careless just now....What if not Yunhuyk but someone else saw us? We are so comfortable with each other already, we stop caring about our surroundings!” Bobby grabs Hanbins arms and holds on to him. “...Alright...this was careless of us, but we could have still explained it to him...our members were shocked too at first but they came to understand. Maybe Yunhyuk needs just more time....Maybe....” Hanbin looks at Bobby and his whole body starts to feel terrible. “Maybe we were too happy that we forgot what is important. Maybe this is the right time to stop it.” Bobby let go of Hanbin and Hanbin lowers his voice. “This might have happened for a reason...to warn us that this relationship won't last as long as we thought.” Bobby frowns and grabs Hanbins arm tighter. “What the hell are you saying? Just because of this? The world isn't just black or white! Sure there will be people who won't agree with us but this has nothing to do with us!” Hanbin shoves Bobby's arms away and glares at him. “It does! It's not only us. It's our team. Our company. Our reputation.” Bobby stares at him speechless from his words. They had fights before but Hanbin never sounded so serious as now. For the next few seconds no one says anything. Hanbin faces the floor and in his heart he just wants to run away with Bobby but his head ties him to his duties. Bobby looks at Hanbin and sighs. His voice sounds cold. “Then this is it.” Hanbin shuts his eyes and feels a sharp pain in his heart when he hears Bobby. Bobby suddenly chuckles and Hanbin looks at him since his laughing confuses him. Chanwoo almost stopped breathing from the tension, he wishes he could just leave the room but there is no way he could. Bobby stops laughing and looks at Hanbins eyes. “You once asked me when you wrote “Just go” what it feels like to lose the one you love. And to force your feeling onto someone...” He stops and looks at him. “Back then I could only answer you half-heartedly, but now I think I know what it feels like.” Hanbin clenches his fist and bites his lips. He doesn't want to hear him say it. He started it but he doesn't want to hear Bobby say it. Bobby sighs and gets closer to kiss Hanbins forehead and his cheek. “I think your good night kiss turned into a goodbye kiss.” Hanbin trembles when Bobby touches him and can't face him. Bobby let go of Hanbin and steps back. Hanbin suddenly feels upset himself and leaves the room without saying anything. He only slams the door into the lock and heads to his room. Bobby leans on the wall and slides down to the floor. Chanwoo gets up slowly and walks to Bobby and kneels next to him. “Bobby-Hyung?” Bobby shakes his head and shows Chanwoo not to say anything and just leave him be. Chanwoo sighs and goes back to his bed feeling useless and worried. Hanbin returns to his room but locks himself up inside the bathroom and tries to calm down.