It really happened. I moved into "Fox Den Assisted Living" earlier this week... Honestly, the name kinda makes me want to gag. Whoever came up with it had some serious delusions. For the most part, it's a home for old people with memory problems. There are some other young people here, a group of teens all getting over various drug problems, and a few guys who wouldn't tell me why they were here. Aside from staff, I haven't had much of an opportunity to interact with many of the others. There was a kind of group therapy thing I went to when I first got here, and that's where I learned about the other's my age. But I didn't have anything in common with them (treatment wise) so I haven't gone back.

Yesterday, I was allowed to go on a walk. Outside! There's a very large garden area, fenced in, in the back of the home. It felt so great to be outside in the sun, stretching my legs. I'm so pale, from spending all that time stuck in the hospital room. I did get pretty tired after only a few minutes of walking, but I sat down under a tree and... This sounds silly, but I just enjoyed being outside. I felt more human than I have in a long time.

-Key

This morning, the first thing I did was roll on my side and started rambling about the dream I'd had. When I opened my eyes, for some reason I was expecting Jonghyun to be there. I was confused, and I still am. I don't know why I wanted him to be there.... But I miss him. It's strange, I know. But... It's true.

I went on another walk today, exploring the garden again. I took my time, wandering and sitting down in a patch of grass by some rose bushes. The flowers reminded me of Jonghyun. I wonder what he's doing, where he went. Maybe he went to visit that person he told me he couldn't last time. I don't have a right to, but thinking about him being with someone else make me... Jealous. I don't like it.

One of the staff told me that they're going to help me get a job. There are some small shops around here that sound interesting, and I'm looking forward to checking them out. Maybe... Maybe I'm getting my life together, finally.

-Key