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Easy to say that this past week has been crazy. The "War of Hormone"MV came out and the feedback was crazy! I was super nervous about if the A.R.M.Ys would like me and thank goodness they do! I got a lot of comments saying that I was cute, y, and those just made me blush. But when I started seeing comments say that I was a... what do you call it? A boy? A-and also they said things like "daddy af" and that just left me confused. When I asked my hyungs about it they just laughed and called me"too innocent for this world" so I assumed it was not that big a deal and moved on. We've been going from interview to interview and I'm always kind of in the spotlight because I'm the new member. It's kind of nerve wrecking considering I'm going from the shy person I am to talking on live television, but since my hyungs are there, they always save me if I stutter or slip up. Gosh I don't know what I'd do without them. So today is the first of many live performances for War of Hormone promotions and needless to say I'm mildly...no very nervous. I thought that filming the MV would be the scariest part but then I quickly realized that being in front of hundreds of fans who don't know you and may or may not like me. Ottoke~~!

We got into the dressing room and all of a sudden everyone was put somewhere. Some members were getting dressed, some were getting makeup done and some were getting hair done. I was put in a makeup chair next to Jin hyung. The one thing I cannot seem to get used to is the amont of makup they put on us, but I guess I have to get used to it beause it is part of the lifestyle. Luckily my skin has not reacted badly to any of the makeup products. Yes my skin is very sensitive so I use a lot of...some would say womanly facial products, to keep it decent. I used to even get bullied for that...but that's a story for another time. I must've been out of it for way too long because I soon felt someone tap my shoulder. I looked to my left and it was Jin hyung looking at me with his eyebrows furrowed:

"Are you ok angel? You seemed to zone out for a while" he said with a slight pout.

I blinked and slightly nodded: "Ne I-I'm ok hyung, just thinking about...the performance. I'm so nervous! What if I freeze during my part? What if I embarass myself? W-what if I mess up the choreo or fall or -"

I stopped when I felt a finger on my lips - Jin hyung's finger. I widened my eyes and blushed embarassingly when I felt how soft his skin was. Why was Jin hyung so flawless? OMG he's looking at me I should pay attention. Jin hyung smiled at my wide-eyed look and slightly shook his head

"Oh angel. Your hyungs know how hard you've been working to perfect your vocals and dance, not that you weren't nearly perfect at them already"

I slightly giggled and his smile widened "So don't worry angel. This isn't any different than being in the practice room practicing"

I looked up at Jin hyung and gave him a very appreciative smile. From day one Jin hyung has been so caring and sweet to me. It's not that the other hyungs have not been sweet and supportive because they have, sometimes too much so, don't ask me why, but Jin hyung has always been...I don't know how to describe it but he gives me a warm feeling in my chest everytime he's nice to me. Is that normal? I'm not sure but now that I think about it I feel that way with all the hyungs... I'm sure it's just admiration. Anyways I realized that I zoned out once again and realized that my hair and makeup had been done, so I went to change into my outfit which was a sweater but not as ripped as last time thank goodness because it got cold after a while.

I was one of the first one done so I had a little time and decided to go to the bathroom. I started to walk around backstage and was flustered