Every day is dull and it feels like I’m becoming duller day by day. Everything that I have is unsaid words and a broken heart…

I miss you Mingyu…

“Hi” Byul smiled walking into Winner’s waiting room in Music Bank

“I’ve noticed how busy you guys have been so I brought some things” she smiled

“BYUL IS HEREEEE!!!!” Taehyun shouted running towards her and hugged her

“We missed you” he said when Mino pulled him away

“My Byul is here” Mino smiled

“Aigoo, what’s going on here?” Seunghoon said in a wicked woman’s voice

“Omona, who’s that?” Byul muttered and burst out laughing on seeing Seunghoon

“Come in Byul!” Jinwoo said

“Where’s Seungyoon oppa?” Byul asked not seeing the leader anywhere

“He went to the restroom” Taehyun said as Byul nodded

“You want to have the rice cakes before it gets cold?” Byul asked

“Sure!!” the boys shouted happily

*They really do remind me of Seventeen* Byul smiled

“My kids” she chuckled laying down the food

“Are you guys done performing?” Byul asked as the boys nodded gobbling the food

“We are waiting for the results, between the sunbaes” Jinwoo said as Byul gave an ‘ah~’ reaction

“And we’ll be headed to Mnet next” Mino said as Byul ruffled his hair

“Arasso my Mino oppa~” she smiled

“Yah if you two are dating, then just tell us” Seunghoon said as Byul and Mino looked at each other

“Why would we hide if we were dating? There’s nothing to hide in there” Mino said innocently as Byul nodded

“See how innocent our Byul is” Seungyoon said pinching her cheek

“I still doubt” Seunghoon muttered.

LATER:

“Boys we’ll be heading to the next location in 5 minutes~” the manager said

“Neh hyung~” they answered together

“I’ll be going home too…I’ll see you soon” Byul smiled taking the lunch box

“Byul! I am not done yet!” Taehyun pouted as he put his chopsticks and grabbed a rice cake from the lunch box

“I thought you said you were full~” Byul asked laughing a bit

“Yeah but…I’ll send it through Mino hyung, promise!” Taehyun said making Byul laugh

“Okay~ hwaiting all of you then. Be good and take care oh?” she smiled

“Arasoo jagiya~” Seunghoon said earning a glare from Mino

“See I told you they are dating! Or he won’t just glare at me like that!” Seunghoon said making Byul face palm herself

“Seunghoon pabo” she muttered flicking his forehead

“yaaaah~ I am still your oppa” Seunghoon said when Mino pulled him away and gave Byul a quick hug

“Go home straight, don’t talk or look at other boys oh?” Mino said as Byul playfully rolled her eyes
“And wear a cap” Seungyoon said as Byul sighed looking at the boys acting all childish

“Okay okay I will” she smiled and waved at the boys before walking out. She remembered Mingyu and the way he used to tell her…

“Don’t look at other guys, if they look at you tell them that you have a boyfriend…don’t wear provocative clothes and don’t go out late at night. Don’t smile at other guys, don’t return their calls. Don’t accept things from them, wear glasses and caps when you go out…if anyone bothers you then let me know”

We used to be so love, I am... even now, like a pabo.

Mino reminds me of Mingyu, maybe that’s why we get along pretty well. He tells me those things Mingyu used to tell me. But that doesn’t mean I like Mino.

Receiving love doesn’t mean you have it.

If I could really turn back time, this time, just this once, I wish Mingyu would come back and tell me everything’s alright. That’s he wants me back but I know he doesn’t anymore…not anymore.

That day at the funeral and in the rain when I said I didn’t want you, I lied.

That was the biggest lie of my life – that I could live without you

Of course he probably hates me now. I was selfish, I didn’t think twice.

I remember the sadness in his eyes, pleading me to stay.

I remember it all too well…