*alarm ringing *

Oh God did I have to wake up? I'm still really tired and I even don't get a properly sleep ‘ I groan and get my clock to turn off the alarm

Thank you ‘ I muttered sarcastically

I hate Monday ‘ I say before enter my bathroom

When I still cleaning my body with the warm water in my lovely bathroom

*phone ringing *

What's again ?! ‘ I groan frustrated while get my annoying phone

C: hallo? *annoyed

B: morning babe *his sweet voice snap me

C: OMG sorry babe, I thought you're Cindy

B: it's okay sweetie, I just want to remind you bout our dinner tonight

C:  don't worry babe I remember that of course * I slap my forehead cause I don't remember our dinner tonight with Brian parents

B: I know honey just to make sure

C: ah.

B: I will come at 7 don't be late babe

C: I got it babe

B: see yaaa

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Oh God, how can I forget  bout this important meeting ??? . Brian parents invite me to talk about our wedding but I forgot that why not ?i have so many jobs to finish last night .

Aish ‘ I get a fast bath and get my simple outfit cause I'm running out of time

Carla ‘ my mom knocking my door

Coming mom ‘ I shout as I wear my last make up

Don't you work today? ‘ my mom ask while she enter my closet

Woah, how can she arrive in no time ? “I thought while wear my mascara

I am mom , just maybe I'll late ‘ I answer while get the paper in my table and put on my bag

Honey, don't push yourself ‘my mom remind me and her face look … worry ?

Well, my mom such a strong mom cause she never show me whatever she feels and her love towards me even I know she love me so much

Don't worry mom, I know my limits ‘ I smile while wear my shoes

I know you still love him and Brian just your second choice Carl but I just want you don't blame yourself to much cause what past is past already  ‘my mom said make me froze

How can she make me flashbacks in the morning ??! What happen to my mom ???

Don't always wear your happy mask honey ‘my mom hug me and I don’t know why but I feel broke (?) when she said that

It's already 6 years since that day just move on ‘ my mom continue and with that I'm tearing but I quickly wiped my tears and smile

Mom don't worry, I'll be fine ‘ I smile and picking my things

I have to go ‘I kiss my mom

Be careful ‘my mom said make me nod

I enter my car and start the engine while go to my office and try to get rid of my thoughts about him , yeah him ….

Well before I continue this story I forget to introduce myself, my name is Carla Caroline Stewart but mostly people call me Carla or lala , I born in Singapore 29 December 1994 and I'm graduated from NTU in 2013 and now working in Vouge magazine international as a editor in chief

Both of my parents are also working and I'm the only child of them . I think that's enough for my personal information , ahh I forgot I'm engaged with Brian my college best friend and his parents also my parents partner

Yeah, that's it

Hmm, or maybe not

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Morning boss ‘ Cindy said mocking me

Sorry I'm late Cin ‘I apologize

Madam waiting you in meeting room ‘Cindy inform me

What happen? ‘ I ask

I don't know , she tell me to inform you ‘ Cindy answer

Do you think I'm in trouble? ‘ I ask her

I think no,  just relax ‘Cindy smile

Cindy is one of my best friends since we're in high school and now we working in the same company but in a different departments and yeah we meet mostly everyday

Wish me luck ‘

You will ‘Cindy shout while I leave her

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When I arrive in meeting room , my secretary already waiting me with her worry face

Thanks God you came ma'am ‘Sasha greet me and smile

Sorry Sha, I don't checking my phone “I apologize make she smile

It's okay ma'am , come ‘she lead me

And like what I'm predicted madam Monica's cold glare already welcoming me while the other participants of the meeting smile

Sorry ‘ I mumble

Madam, ma'am Carla is here ‘Sasha said while I bow to Madam Monica the president of Vouge international in Singapore

Finally you here Carla , the president of Givency sir Mathew already waiting you ‘Madam said sarcastically while glare at me

Sorry make you wait sir ‘ I bow

It's fine miss Carla ‘’ Mathew said make me look at him

Did I know this voice?? Why I feel so familiar with this voice ??

Nice to meet you miss Carla ‘he standing I'm so dumbfounded now

Miss ?’ He smile before I nod and shake hand with him

Mathew ‘ he introduced

Mathew? My Mathew? The boy that make me suffering for 6 years? My first love?

Carla ‘ I awkwardly smile

Just sit first miss ‘he smile

Thank you ‘ I sit in front of him while Sasha give me the proposal

We have a meeting for several hours but honestly I don't know what they talking about cause I don't pay attention to the presentation cause I'm to  busy looking to the classy guy in front of me

Is he really my first love ??? Is he really Mathew my boyfriend?? ‘That's question repeat several time in my mind

Okay,thank you for the presentation sir we will discuss about this first ‘ madam Monica said

Take your time madam ‘Mathew said while he smile

That's smile is make me crazy, did he really Mathew??? Please tell me he not Mathew

Carla, can you guide sir Mathew for several days?? Mario and chin ho have another appointment ‘madam Monica said make me dumbfounded

Me? Why ? ‘ I ask

Cause you're know Singapore more than me ‘madam Monica glare at me

Sasha clear all Carla appointment for several day until sir Mathew back to Paris ‘madam said make Sasha nodding

Take your time to enjoy Singapore sir ‘madam Monica said to Mathew make he smile

Thank you again madam ‘ Mathew said before excuse himself and his secretary

Madam ‘ I call

No excuse Carla , because of your laziness we can lose our opportunity get deal with Givency ‘madam snap me

But we don't lose it madam ‘ I said

Thanks God your lazy arrive at the good time ‘madam continue

Treat him nicely Carla ‘’madam remind me

And I will punish you if you late again ‘madam continue make me keep silence

I have to go , don't make more trouble Carla ‘madam said before he walk of and leave me

Aishhhh ‘ I groan make Sasha pay my shoulder

Why he want me guide him ??? He also grow in Singapore for the God sake ‘ I blurred

How you know him ma'am ?? Did you know him ?? ‘Sasha ask

I don't know ‘ I said while leave her and go to my office

Is he really Mathew? I don't think so But why they so similar? Did Mathew have a twins ?? But how can't I don't know ??

Carl??’ Cindy peaking

Come in ‘

Do you meet Mathew??’

Mathew? ‘

Yes, Mathew the president of Givency ‘

Oh that Mathew,Yes I've meet him ‘

So?? ‘

What ??’

Don't you feel something ?? Don't you know who's him ?? ‘

I don't think he's my Mathew ‘

Are you crazy?? ‘

No, is maybe he just have a same face with my Mathew ‘

You must be crazy Carl , how he not Mathew??' cindy glare at me 

He even greet me and hug me , so now tell me how can he's not Mathew?’ Cindy said make me shock

Are you sure ?? ‘

Yes , he's Mathew the boy that you leave ‘

I don't leave him ‘

You're, Carl you move to America cause your parents disagree at your relationship with Mathew , you leave the boy that love you more than he love his own self ‘ Cindy said while rolled her eyes

That's what people know ‘ Cindy continue

Mathew in the edge of crazy cause you leave him Carl ‘Cindy continue

That's not like that ‘ I defend myself

I know Carl , I know the truth but he don't know and no one know ‘

Now if  we talk about Mathew I'll have a little flash back

So let me tell you the story how I know Mathew actually  me and Mathew start dating since we class 2 in high school until our 6 semesters in collage it such s long time right???

Well, it's because we love each other so much and I the truth. But somethings happen in our perfect relationship. AndThe truth is my cousin Anita falling in love with Mathew her cousin’s boyfriend

At honestly I don't care about that and ignore whatever Anita or her mom told me but I never know Anita will do anything to get what she wants cause I'm not really close to her since we were young

Cause she notice that I don't give any response towards her word , she angry and  she try to kill herself plus when know about her Mathew not interesting so Mathew ignore her make she more angry towards me

Everything changes when My devil aunt threatened me saying that she will kill  Mathew if I don't want leave Mathew, at first I don’t take that statement seriously cause I think just for making me scared

But it's changes when Mathew get in to accident because he pick me at my vocal school suddenly random car crash at his body making Mathew have get some surgery in his body and that's making me realize this's serious matter

After thinking what I have to do for saying Mathew’s life I choose to leaving him so  that day I make a scenario to leave him even I know when I leave him, I’ll be dying slowly .

Don't cry again Carl ‘ Cindy said

You already crying for him in the past 6 years ‘Cindy continue

How can I face him Cin ?? I can't ‘ I sobbing

You have to , maybe this the way for make everything better ‘ Cindy said but before I answer Sasha enter my office

Sorry ma'am ‘ Sasha now but I tell her to continue

Sir Mathew already waiting you in lobby ‘Sasha said softly

Don't we start tomorrow?? ‘ I ask while wipe my tears and fix my make up

He want start now ma'am ‘

Don't you say I have a appointment today? ‘ I ask her before retouching my makeup

Madam Monica already clear the meeting ma'am ‘ Sasha said make me groan

Wait a minute, what happen here ??  “Cindy ask

Ma'am Carla have to guide sir Mathew ma'am ‘ Sasha said make Cindy shock

OMG ‘ Cindy said

How can ?? ‘ she ask again

I don't know ‘ I answer

Why he want me do this ?? Why he torturing me like this !!? ‘ I groan make Cindy hug me again

You need to face it Carl ‘

But why ??

Cause you need finish what you started ‘

I hate this ‘ I said frustrated

Don't be ‘ Cindy smile

Ma'am he call again ‘ Sasha said

Bring here ‘ I said

But ma'am ‘ I get the phone from shasa while press the answer button

M: hallo ? Sasha I'm waiting here for 20 minutes already do you think I don't have any appointment beside this ???

C: shut you ing mouth now !!!!!! *i'm so angry right now cause I don’t know how to face him but he still want to meet me

M: that's so polite from you miss Carla *I bet he smirk now

C: you know I'm so polite

M: if you don't come in 15 minutes I will cut the deal

C: what the !??? You bastard

M: I'm babe you know that

I hug up the call and get my bag

Don't bring your problems  sis everything will be all right  ‘ Cindy hug me

Don't forget calm down ‘

See you ‘I said before leave Cindy and Sasha

Why he have torturing me like this ??? Did I hurt him that much ?? Why he hate me ??? I do this cause I love him so much , why can't he see that ???

Finally ‘he said sarcastically  when I arrive

Where you want to go ?? ‘ I ask annoyed

Can we get the car first ?? ‘ he ask back make me walk and leave him to get my car

Where ?? ‘ I ask again when we inside the car

Marina bay ‘ he answer make me nod

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Our ride really silence cause we don't know what to say and honestly I also don’t want to talk

I will parking the car just go first ‘I said

I'll come with you ‘

Whatever ‘I muttered

When we arrive Mathew meet some director of several shop in Marrina while I just walking around and try to enjoy the view here while forget actually i'm here with my ex boyfriend or I have to say with the only guy that I love beside my daddy ?

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