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ปัทมวรรณ จิตต์สว่างดี
shushuhuahua | kenzie | 9/10
I'm doing me regardless
And I don't care what they say about it
And I don't care what they say about it
WhoAmI?
FULL NAME pattamawan chittsawangdee
NICKNAMES
— big mac: it was her main nickname when she was a kid because of her love for food
— pat: general nickname based on her name
— koi: her stage name, she came up with it after seeing koi fish at the aquarium
— dancing genuis: because the fastest choreography she made was in 20 minutes
PRONOUNS she/her
UALITY biual
DATE OF BIRTH (AGE) september 26, 2002 (19)
BIRTHPLACE pattaya, thailand
HOMETOWN pattaya, thailand
ETHNICITY thai
NATIONALITY thai
LANGUAGES
— thai: native - born and raised in thailand
— korean: semi fluent - she can speak and understand it but still at reading and writing. there are still some things she doesn't understand like puns would be hard for her.
— english: conversational - she knew since she was younger and has a thick accent
HowDoILook?
FACECLAIM tu tontawan
BACK-UP prim chanikarn
APPEARANCE
height: 164cm on profile / 163cm for real
weight: 45kg on profile / 47kg for real
koi is very pretty, she lost all the baby fat from when she was younger and is now a slim young lady. her hair is black and long. she doesn't know if she fits korean standards and she doesn't care because she's not korean.
FASHION
koi's fashion is strange, she likes to thrift shop and wear colorful things. she doesn't like tight fitted clothes because she she's used to it since she used to be chubby. she would commit the ultimate sin and wear jeans and flipflops. mostly just comfortable clothes she can dance in at anytime. she has a bunch of sweatsuits and oversized tees and jeans that are way too large. everytime theres a hint of cold she wears a jacket because she's not used to the cold at all.
BehindThatSmile
TRAITS chaotic neutral, entp, 7w8
(+) realistic, creative, curious
(–) clueless, oblivious, blunt
ELABORATION
realistic: koi knows she's not very smart. she isn't the type to lie too herself or others. she sees the world as it is, the good and the bad so she isn't overly optimistic or overly pessimistic. when the girls are arguing she'll take the side of the person that makes sense the most because she doesn't see the point in lying. but when people are upset she'll take the optimistic route to make them feel better even if it doesn't make any sense.
creative: koi often thinks out the box. most people actually don't know what's going on in her head and no one can ever predict it either. binni thinks she's lowkey a genius while heidi thinks she's partially insane because her ideas are so outlandish most of the time yet they somehow work usually, unless it doesn't then it fails terribly. it's either a really good idea or a really bad idea.
curious: usually entp's are sterotyped as argumentative but koi is more curious instead. she asks a lot of questions, sometimes without a care of if it's the right time. she was the kid that would go up to a stranger and ask whats on your face. it got her many whippings when she was younger. she likes to try new things and is down for anything that sounds fun or peeks her interest.
clueless: koi is known for being painfully slow witted. she is the person that doesn't get the joke until everyone stops laughing and she's dying on her own. most of the time she has no idea whats going on, her not speaking korean well makes it even worse. even if she understands some words she still won't understand the whole conversation. it makes her naive and believe others easily.
oblivious: koi doesn't notice the little things in people. she's not observant at all unless something is obvious. she isn't the type to look for hidden meanings in things because she expects it all to be straight forward. her members would be talking about something that happened on stage and she'd be the only one that didn't see it. just like during training she didn't know when people were talking bad about her, even now she doesn't see the hate and her members don't tell her either.
blunt: koi is a little too honest sometimes, subject to many tmi moments. not blunt in a rude way but a random way. she might bring up things that are normal but people just don't say in public.
DigDeeper
koi wasn't good at anything growing up. born as pattamawan but given the nickname big mac for her love of food as a kid, that's all koi was known for. she was the chubby kid in her small community, whenever she saw someone eating she asked if she could have some. nonlocals thought she was homeless sometimes until her mom came and dragged her away by her ear.
in school she was made fun of for her weight and for being dumb. instead of going quiet whenever the teacher called on her, koi would shamelessly blurt out the wrong answer. she just couldn't concentrate because it was all so boring. it's not like the other kids were much smarter but she just didn't hide it like they did. koi's parents didn't have much money so they couldn't afford a tutor, her mom was frustrated with her because she wanted better for her daughter yet she wasn't trying. her dad was passive and didn't see the big deal since she was still young. it wasn't until koi was diagnosed with diabetes when she was 8 her mom take action.
she threw out all the junk food in the house and worked a second job to put koi in a local dance school. instead of relying on fast food takeout like usual she made healthy food at home after work. koi hated it at first, she cried and kicked her feet and refused to dance at dance class. everytime she had to check her blood sugar and get a shot for insulin she threw a fit. but when her mom showed no signs of backing down she started to adjust. when koi participated in dance class for the first time instead of just sulking in the back, she actually got the moves really quickly. it was the first time a teacher praised her for doing well and she actually started to enjoy it. everyday after school koi was at dance class and soon enough she started shedding the weight. pricking her finger to check her sugar still though but it was more controlled than before.
unlike her grades, her friendships improved too. she made friends at the dance school and through them did she learn about junior dance competitions. she entered her first competition at 10 and fell in love with competition dancing. her mom made her outfits by hand and took her to competitions all over thailand. by the time she was 16 she had a shelf full of trophies and medals that she won. in 2017 she won first place in thailand's junior dance competition and got invited to compete in the asia junior dance competiton that was taking place in seoul. they flew her out to compete for the three day event, she ultimately came in fifth place but got offered a spot at mmg entertainment after being spotted by a talent scout.
JustSomeTidbits
TRIVIA
— she has type 2 diabetes
— during bouncy era her company tried to put her on a strict diet because she gained weight. her blood sugar went so low that she passed out and had to go to the hospital. that was the first and last time she went on a strict diet and now just eats healthy. her manager carries her insulin pen and snacks for her since then.
— she likes to imitate binni's daegu accent
— she got approached by sorn to be friends and added into the thai groupchat but she didn't have a phone so she couldn't. they only talk if they see each other during broadcasts
— she loves doja cat
— she saw snow for the first time when she was in korea as a trainee and she was excited all on her own because she couldn't film since she didn't have a phone and didn't have friends. she remembers that as her loneliest time because she really felt the void
— her mom sent her a book full of her recipes so she actually learned how to cook while in korea but can't eat it as often since they diet a lot and lack of time
— she knows how to surf and swim
— "i think i'm forgetting my thai but my korean isn't good... i'll speak in dance instead."
— she started to dream in korean and now she doesn't even understand all of whats being said in her dreams
— some people say she looks like the thai version of jisoo but she doesn't see it
— lisa is her bias. she knows all her dances and wants to be friends someday
— she has dry skin
— she slept in the same bed with her parents for a long time because they had a one room house so she's not good at sleeping alone. she sleeps better with someone else. that was one of the hardest parts of training because she didn't sleep well until she became friends with maria and binni. now she sleeps with the manager since she's the only one with a solo bed instead of a bunk bed.
— she secretly dated a member of a rookie group when they debuted because he asked her and she thought he was cute. but they only saw each other during theri promotional periods because neither had a phone and both had dating bans so by the next comeback they broke up.
— her dad used to snore so binni's snoring is like a lullaby
LIKES
— when her members speak thai
— snow
— the rainy season
— going out in the rain without an umbrella because it reminds her of when she used to play in the rain at home
— seeing people dance her choreography
— freestyle dancing
— watching other people dance
— talking to thai people because it feels like home
— cooking with binni
— youngsun's aegyo
DISLIKES
— when people speak korean fast and it's all a big blur
— winter in korea because its too brutal
— singing high notes because it hurts
— going to the gym, she rather dance
— when her hair gets in her face while performing and wardrobe malfuctions because it takes away from her dancing
HABITS
— spacing out
— smiling and nodding even when she has no idea whats going on
— running away from younggi when she needs insulin because she hates shots
— lowkey dancing all the time because her brain always comes up with choreo
— imitating people after they do something
— wandering off
HOBBIES
— choreography
— learning tiktok dances
— watching fans dance covers of their songs because its her choreo and makes her feel proud
— watching kdramas to improve her korean
Relationships
PARENTS / KWAN KHONGKWAN SUJINDHARA AND MHOG THAWIT CHITTSAWANGDEE / 41 AND 44 / WAITRESS AND CUSTODIAN / ESTJ AND INFP
koi can't talk to her parents as much as she wants because the only way she can talk to them is through the group phone that her manager has. the first thing her mom asks her everytime is if she ate because she's constantly worried about koi's diabetes. koi just tells them how great she's doing in korea because she truly is doing fine. both are so proud of koi for debuting, her dad cries everytime he sees their new mvs because he's so proud. when she gets her first paycheck she wants to give it to her parents.
koi can't talk to her parents as much as she wants because the only way she can talk to them is through the group phone that her manager has. the first thing her mom asks her everytime is if she ate because she's constantly worried about koi's diabetes. koi just tells them how great she's doing in korea because she truly is doing fine. both are so proud of koi for debuting, her dad cries everytime he sees their new mvs because he's so proud. when she gets her first paycheck she wants to give it to her parents.
GROUPMATE / RIA FERNANDEZ MA / 19 / MEMBER OF ULTRAVIOLET / ESFJ
koi feels a connection with maria because she's sea and call each other their sea sister. out of all members she's the best at thai so she's the easiest to talk to. she doesn't realize how much maria protects her from people but she's still really thankful for her for being her first friend as a trainee and helping her feel at home. so many times koi tells maria to chill because she worries so much and she doesn't want her to have a heart attack. she hates when maria says she's fat because she really isn't at all. maria pesters her about her health so koi does the same, she threatens to not eat if maria doesn't eat and for koi thats lethal so it works everytime.
koi feels a connection with maria because she's sea and call each other their sea sister. out of all members she's the best at thai so she's the easiest to talk to. she doesn't realize how much maria protects her from people but she's still really thankful for her for being her first friend as a trainee and helping her feel at home. so many times koi tells maria to chill because she worries so much and she doesn't want her to have a heart attack. she hates when maria says she's fat because she really isn't at all. maria pesters her about her health so koi does the same, she threatens to not eat if maria doesn't eat and for koi thats lethal so it works everytime.
GROUPMATE AND LOVE INTEREST / RYU BINNI / 21 / MEMBER OF ULTRAVIOLET / ISFJ
contrary to many people, koi thinks binni is adorable because she knows the vulnerable side of her. she doesn't fond her scary at all and it might be because binni becomes soft everytime she's around. she's slowly starting to understand her daegu dialect and her little rants that she goes on. she loves to teach binni her choreos and spend extra time teaching her because she's a slow learner. during times of distress for binni koi steps up to be the mature one but every other time koi is like a big baby around her, she hugs her and sits on her lap and plays with her hair, just a bunch of meaningless skinship to koi that means a lot to binni. she really does that to all the members though. koi has no idea that binni is crushing on her, girl is just oblivious in general. but he has openly said in an interview that she'd date binni out of all members.
GROUPMATE / OH YOUNGSUN / 18 / MEMBER OF ULTRAVIOLET / ENFJ
the first word that comes to mind to describe youngsun is loud. but koi loves it because she thinks she's funny. she encourages koi to be even more loud and weird. everything youngsun does she imitates her and likes to poke fun at her with heidi something because it's fun.
contrary to many people, koi thinks binni is adorable because she knows the vulnerable side of her. she doesn't fond her scary at all and it might be because binni becomes soft everytime she's around. she's slowly starting to understand her daegu dialect and her little rants that she goes on. she loves to teach binni her choreos and spend extra time teaching her because she's a slow learner. during times of distress for binni koi steps up to be the mature one but every other time koi is like a big baby around her, she hugs her and sits on her lap and plays with her hair, just a bunch of meaningless skinship to koi that means a lot to binni. she really does that to all the members though. koi has no idea that binni is crushing on her, girl is just oblivious in general. but he has openly said in an interview that she'd date binni out of all members.
GROUPMATE / OH YOUNGSUN / 18 / MEMBER OF ULTRAVIOLET / ENFJ
the first word that comes to mind to describe youngsun is loud. but koi loves it because she thinks she's funny. she encourages koi to be even more loud and weird. everything youngsun does she imitates her and likes to poke fun at her with heidi something because it's fun.
GROUPMATE / HEIDI KIM / 16 / MEMBER OF ULTRAVIOLET / ESTP
koi is heidi's partner in crime. when heidi plays pranks koi is usually there helping or following after her to discover something new. she thinks heidi is fun and daring. she can't pinpoint who shes closest to but heidi is definitely in the top 3. them being the only two non koreans helped them bond and understand each other because they can't see their parents and don't know the culture as well. they got close from exploring seoul together and have many inside jokes.
koi is heidi's partner in crime. when heidi plays pranks koi is usually there helping or following after her to discover something new. she thinks heidi is fun and daring. she can't pinpoint who shes closest to but heidi is definitely in the top 3. them being the only two non koreans helped them bond and understand each other because they can't see their parents and don't know the culture as well. they got close from exploring seoul together and have many inside jokes.
GROUPMATE / HONG SOOJOO / 15 / MEMBER OF ULTRAVIOLET / ISTP
koi and soojoo's love of dance helped them get close, oh and also Youngsun and Heidi's arguing. soojoo helps koi choreograph sometimes and she never fails to get impressed by the 15 year old. she's her main tiktok buddy, they always do the latest trends together. since she shares a room with soojoo, heidi and youngsun, koi and soojoo now find heidi and youngsun's arguing amusing. sometimes they instigate it on purpose because its funny to see and they sit back and watch them giggling together.
koi and soojoo's love of dance helped them get close, oh and also Youngsun and Heidi's arguing. soojoo helps koi choreograph sometimes and she never fails to get impressed by the 15 year old. she's her main tiktok buddy, they always do the latest trends together. since she shares a room with soojoo, heidi and youngsun, koi and soojoo now find heidi and youngsun's arguing amusing. sometimes they instigate it on purpose because its funny to see and they sit back and watch them giggling together.
TheKpopIndustryStory
CONECTION TO THE KPOP INDUSTRY
koi trained for a year under mmg. she was excited to start training because she was a huge fan of thai kpop idols and wanted to be like them, especially lisa from blackpink. training wasn't easy for her though, mmg is a small company so she was the only foreigner that was a non-korean. she saw it as a good thing because she stood out but it was hard for her to make friends from the language barrier, her limited english wasn't as helpful as you'd think since americans weren't common either. she didn't know what anyone was saying 98% of the time and she at learning so it took her a while to understand korean. but once she became friends with maria and binni it was a lot better
out of all the dancers at the company she was one of the best so many people were jealous of her and talked bad about her behind her back and she was absolutely oblivious. she still sat with people she thought were friendly even if they weren't. she was weighed three times a day in the beginning and put on a diet until they found out she was diabetic so she was allowed to be slightly bigger and eat more than the rest.
it was really lonely because she couldn't have a phone either, all she could do all day was distract herself with dancing and studying. when she got selected to be on the final lineup for ultraviolet she was more surprised than everyone because her korean was so bad but her dancing proved to be good enough to bypass that.
PLOTLINE the outsider
TALENT TWIN momo
BACKUP hikaru
TRAINEE YEARS 1 year (mmg)
PAST EXPERIENCE
— ultraviolet (2019-now)
ELABORATION
koi was so happy to make her debut with ultraviolet. on their debut stage she couldn't stop smiling from ear to ear even after they were done. she wasn't nervous at all, just pure happiness. she had so many fangirl moments of being around idols that she used to watch back home and still does. the hardest part for her was being away from her parents, the company won't let them have phones and she hasn't been to thailand since before she was a trainee. but her members really became like her new family. out of all the members koi is the mosts oblivious because she doesn't understand much, she can't read the comments unless its in english or thai so what knetz say don't bother her. she just wants to dance and is happy on stage. she actually thought ultraviolet was doing well because their sales kept increasing and they have almost 200k on instagram. groups like bts and brave girls blew up later on so she thinks theres still a chance for them too.
Let'sHearFromYou?
THE INTERVIEW
Please answer these questions from your character's, if they're lying or delusional please put the reality in brackets.
IF YOU WERE A MEMBER OF A K-POP GROUP, WHAT WOULD YOUR POSITION BE? anything with dancing, that's all i'm good at. i still can't tell the difference between the main dancer and lead dancer though
OUT OF 10 HOW TALENTED WOULD YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF? i want to say 10 but my singing isn't a 10 so an 8. 8.7... yeah. 10 without singing!
WHY DO YOU WANT TO BE A KPOP IDOL? because i like it, it's fun. tiring but fun. but if you enjoy something it isn't really tiring, just your body is tired. so then i'm sleepy not tired. you get it right?
DO YOU HAVE GOOD STAGE PRESENCE AND CHARISMA? WHAT ABOUT STAR QUALITY? my members say when i dance i seem really different so i guess. i just try to match the music style though. music and dance are like ... a monkey and a banana, they just go together. it's not just about dancing but feeling the music too. wait... monkeys actually eat bananas right?
WOULD YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF A TEAM PLAYER? yes. without my members i think i would be back in thailand by now, they're really my family.
It don't matter if you like it or not
I'm having all this fun so why would I ever stop
I'm having all this fun so why would I ever stop
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SCENE SUGGESTIONS
— koi doing weird things in the back of scenes
— she practices all day without eating, theres no members or her manager there to remind her so she passes out
— confused koi moments
— her saying weird things during the solo interviews
PASSWORD lifes too short by aespa
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