Thank you. Every single one of you. Every delicate soul who left me a meaningful comment or encouraging message yesterday for my blog post "Deleting Account(?)"

I have made up my mind after reading and replying to all your kind words. The poll was never even supposed to be a question - because what did I expect from it? Negative replies and everyone telling me to go and die if I wanted to quit? 100% support and everyone begging me to stay?

*pfft, please who do you think you are*

But honestly, thank you so so much. Every reader. Every passing by voter who simply wanted to give hope and courage to someone like me. Someone so selfish and immature and emotional and easily affected by something that shouldn't even be worthy of my tears.

8% of the votes yesterday told me that I should just leave - presumably people who were fed up with my attention-seeking and just wanted to say "do what you want because I'm not going to beg you."

To those 4 voters, I thank you too. You reflected the darker side of myself - the ugly side that made me doubt myself in the beginning. I was brave and calm and happy for Baekhyun after I saw the news but there was this small part of me that questioned whether I was genuinely okay; whether I was jealous of Taeyeon.

And I was. I realise I can't deny that now. I'm used to acting okay around other people and trying to hold onto a mature and collected image that makes others around me laugh instead of cry. But through all the problems with Kris and now with Baekhyun too I find that it's okay to not be mature sometimes. It's okay to be emotional and want to cry and seek attention from people who you know will want and support you.

So thank you. Thank you all so so much for being the shoulders that I could cry on and whisper "am I not good enough" to in a fit of sadness. Thank you.

I've decided to stay. I've decided to continue updating. I think I will update more and more and faster than ever because now I know how much I'm appreciated and wanted. I will fight harder and flip through dictionaries and thesauruses to improve myself. I will not look away when I see Baekhyun and Taeyeon's fan edits on Twitter or Tumblr.

I will face all future problems head on; because I have you guys.

Because I'm not alone.