(and its alternative title: Cold Ridden Paradise)

oddly enough, i don't feel as ashamed some writers do with their first fic as i probably should. i mean, of course there are some things that could've gone better, or a less ambiguous way to describe it. but i liked the outcome; i wouldn't have 'published' if i didn't.

i don't know what made me want to share it. maybe i could blame the lack of interaction between my otp, but the truth is it just came on a spur of the moment. i was actually working on another fic, which it was meant to be a chaptered one but i just at those because time skips (and eventually will end up adding it to star collector), when i stumbled across one of my folders of 'mildly finished short stories' in spanish. the story itself was even more ambiguous than h-bw, so much i only referred to the main characters as 'she' (which later came to be sunggyu) and 'he' (my forever-tortured namu). the personalities somehow fitted, and after some editing, h-bw resulted.

and talking about personalities. it was a moment when i felt like the main characters should be switched. i even used that microsoft word feature of find & replace (or smth like that, i don't use word anymore), but i came as odd. the older/younger relationship i tried––and probably failed––to imply didn't fit. so i left it like that, even though it didn't convince me at first.

moving on...

the response i got from this fic was better than i expected it to be. i've seen authors get over-dramatic because they don't reach an auto-imposed limit of subscribers, but for me, the fact that one person subscribed was enough to make me happy. and people let me comments. that alone was enough for me to do weird noises in front of the laptop.

the comments were all so lovely, and there are some random ones that appear even now. i appreciate every one of them (even the ones where readers only expressed their confusion). what i found interesting, though, were all the theories they made. ranging from the 'i'm confused' mentioned, to intrincated symbolisms didn't occur even to me, i found them all interesting. the truth is i had a clear story line for that, as a background, and i thought it was somewhat clear but the readers had a different perspective. it's kind of how you know some facts about your idols and yet you create your headcanon that is ~obviously~ what others should know, too.

i guess that is all i want to say, at least for this one-shot in particular. i'll be making more for my other stories, seeing that it looks like i have a lot to say about my stories ^^U