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Jung Soo Ah

Jung Soo Ah

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the face

nicknames.

- baby girl / She was considered the baby of the group, she was bright and childish. soo ah isn't sure who first call her that, since she wasn't the youngest, but she thinks that who may have started it was muyeol while trying to take care of her;

- the dreamer / soo ah was always daydreaming or having enthusiastic plans, so her friends started calling her that for teasing her or trying to call her attention when her mind was travelling;

place of birth. tongyeong, south gyeongsang province.

uality. heteroual

languages.
- korean / fluent / native language
- english / semi-fluent / learned during school and studied harder during college

appearance.

She is very similar to her face claim (especially the photos where her hair's lenght is almost around her shoulder).

style.

Soo ah dresses very girly and feminine, mostly lighter colours and when she is in a very good mood or for parties, she likes to wear more colourfull and vivid colours such as red. she usually uses girly shirts with jeans, black trousers, skirts or shorts, but also wears dresses. sometimes she also likes to wear comfortable clothing such as sweatshirts, but it's less common and that only happens if she isn't feeling well or if she feels lazy. Soo Ah wears natural makeup, since she prefers a natural look and she doesn't like to use many accessories, rather she will use earings and her wrist watch, however for parties and special occasions she may also wear a necklace or an accessory for the hair.

the core

personality.

pisces, gryffinpuff, infp/enfj (a mix of both)

positive: optimistic, bubbly, creative, caring, kind, fair, honest, charismatic

neutral: hardworking, bold/straightforward, strong-willed, clever

negative: stubborn, impatient, a bit childish, proud, emotional

past

soo ah had always been cheerful, energetic, creative, bubbly and optimistic. she was the kind of person who was always smiling and her brightness was contagious, making everyone around her happier. not only was she pure joy, but she was also caring, protective and extremely kind, many of her friends would even describe her as innocent and naive most of the times (she trusts and believes in the goodness of people too Much so it's easy to take advantage of her. She also doesn't have a dirty mind and doesn't understand dirty jokes, becoming flustered and blushing madly when she understand what her friends are talking about, about and probably teasing her). due to her creative and dreaming mind, she would spend a lot of time daydreaming, with her head on the clouds, not thinking about her own future, but adventures and travels she would like to do, hoping that one day she would also have her own adventure. since she was a dreamer, she most likely believed that everything would be perfect like in fairy tales, that she would find a good charming man, live a good and happy life and maybe have a lot of stories to one day tell her grandkids.

this girl always managed to make her friends laugh and easily would get along with everyone. she always was one of the first, if not the first to encourage people and cheer them up, always trying to bring the best in people and always being there to listen to them, or even give a hug if they needed. of course, her personality would clash with people who always believed to be right and thought that everyone else was wrong. when that happened, soo ah could be scary and yell at the people with an angry face, trying to prove that not everything was how they wanted it to be and that they should be considered of the others. that only would show not only how bold and straightforward this girl could be (saying exactly what she had in her mind), but also show how honest she was and the fact that she was fair, always defending justice and fight for what was right. Soo is determined and strong-willed, and won't be up until she tried everything for her purpose and for her friends.

however, not everything about soo ah was great, this tiny girl had a big pride, and it would take her a lot to accept that she was wrong or that she made a mistake (especially if that happened due to an argument with someone). soo ah was also quite stubborn, being difficult to make her change her mind after she settled her mind into an idea or opinion. She would try to do everything until exhaustion to achieve her goal/idea, however, Soo Ah being a perfectionist would believe that everything she did was not enough. Her childish attitude would make her be a lot emotional and reactive, which would lead her to get into arguments because her opinion/feeling could clash with someone's own. She would pout and become very expressive,leading her to say blunt things which may hurt people (but, after she acknowledged her fault she would feel a lot guilty and emotional, yet she could take a while to apologise and admit her wrongdoings). She is very impatient, she hates to wait and especially hates to make people wait. Although Soo Ah is childish, she is very selfless so she puts her friends and family's wellbeing and happiness always first than her own. Moreover she is too empathic and would take her loved ones suffering, sadness and worries as her own. Not only people may take advantage of that but she would try to hide her sadness and feelings from her loved ones (although she wasn't ashamed to cry, when she was both sad or happy, she would prefer to hide her sadness not to worry her friends or be a be a burden to them).

present

upon finishing highschool this bright girl changed. she wasn't smiling all the time like before, neither was she the bubbly or dreaming girl who was always optimistic. instead, she was more matured, responsible and realistic. her contact with the outside world made her realize that the world wasn't so perfect like she imagined. people would betray each other for money and love, true love wasn't real and that not everyone is there for you or wants you to success, there is too much greed. she had to adapt to everything and since she already had to pause her traveling plans before meeting this 'version of the world', she started to become afraid, afraid of the unknown of the future, of herself. she didn't seem so confident when it was about herself or what she couldn't control, but other than that she became confident into argumenting and talking to audience, explaining her point. she grown up as a beautiful woman, still bold, kind, fair and honest, but who tried to hide her bad moments by making a fake smile. although her spark seemed to disappear, not everything about the dreaming girl has disappeared, such as her hope that everything would somehow be alright.

background.

soo ah was born in tongyeong as the only child of the Jung family. her parents always had huge expectations of her and loved her unconditionally. she had a great childhood as a happy, cheerful and lovely girl.

in her 5th grade, soo ah met junghee. the two of them just clicked and started talking and laughing non stop. junghee introduced soo ah to raon and muyeol and the girl easily befriended them. the girl was a joy and easily made everyone around her happy and bright, like her bubbly personality was indeed contagious.

growing up in the group she was like the soul of the group. she was the person who always managed to lift the mood, make everyone laugh and her optimism even could help support her friends. she was always there for them for listening, give advice or even help. she loved to have fun and play around with them.

Soo ah was a dreamer, always with her head on the clouds daydreaming or looking outside the window, it wasn't unusual for her to be scolded by her teachers who would say that they couldn't understand how she managed to have good grades despite her mind travelling around. she was quite popular in high school, everyone wanted to be around her and feel her optimism and energy and the girl was sometimes too naive to see some intentions of other people, luckily for her, her friends had her back. when she wasn't having fun or daydreaming, she would be writing in her bullet journal/ diary, read a book or even try to write poems, but most of the times she would be planning her own adventures. despite her being the joy of the group, she was also quite proud, stubborn and a bit childish so it wasn't unusual if she got into arguments with people in the group, but she never tried to hurt them, because she always considered them family.

when she was about to finish high school, she had the intention of getting her own adventure and greet the world with a smile, however, her parents had a different idea. They forced her into going to college for a prestigious major, since they didn't approve of her choices, not liking the fact that all she thought was travelling, photography, writting and living adventures. therefore, Soo ah decided to pause her dreams for a while and follow as her parents said. Soo Ah knew that her parents loved her and wanted the best for her, not only she followed their decision because she was a good daughter, but also because she knew that she needed to survive and have a stable work to help her travel and become a writer, since she knows that she needed money to eat, survive and travel and being an author wasn't enough to be sustainable. Soo Ah went to college in Seoul, for the same university as some of her friends, and somehow, even if it wasn't the adventure she was looking for, it gave her the opportunity to get a glimpse of the world without getting out entirely from her bubble.

Her first impact with the outside world wasn't exactly what she was expecting: people betraying each other because of money and love, friends backstabbing each other, they were selfish, mean, liars, cheaters, and so on. The pure girl wasn't so optimistic anymore, instead she tried to adapt to her sorroudings, being more mature, responsible and realistic so people wouldn't get advantage of her. Yet, she was still popular and both men and women tried to befriend her (some men actually tried more, but she wasn't interested due to her heart already belonging to someone else - lover section). Soo ah's major in law had a huge influence on her actual view of people and the world and she decided to take the bar exam after finishing her major and become a prosecutor, hoping that she could somehow try to fight for justice and try to make the world as closest to her view of the perfect world.

she still kept in contact with her friends and whenever she had the time, such as hollidays, she would return to her hometown and reunite with some of them, while visiting her parents. she tried to check on her friends whenever she could, to make sure that they were fine, however, one of the people she actually spoke the most was Junghee, not only because their personalities were quite similar, but because the two of them understood each other very well and even after all those years clicked just like the first day.

Soo ah kept a secret from her family, even though she did as they wanted and pursued a prestigious major in law (and actually didn't disliked it as she thought she would), she didn't give up upon her passion on writting, hoping that one day she would manage to actually write her own book, so she enrolled in a minor in writting. Her closest friends know about it and support her, but somehow, a part of Soo ah isn't the same anymore. The more she got disappointed with the little she saw about the world and the people, the more she would be afraid to actually take a risk and pursuing her dreams, thinking that she wasn't strong and brave enough and she was also afraid not only of the unknown, but also of being betrayed and hurt by the people around her and by her own failure and crushed dreams.

likes.

- books;
- photography;
- writting;
- bullet journals;

- poetry;
- justice;
- food;

- Cheesecake;
- beach and sea;
- stars and sky;
- movies;
- flowers;
- plushies;

- travelling (even though she never had);

- sweets;

- pastel colours;
- stationary materials for note taking and bullet journaling;
- fantasy, rom/com, action movies;
- romance in general;
- animals and children;

- she loves her friends;
- she likes anime and games;

- ...

dislikes.

- cheaters;
- beer;
- bees and bugs in general;
- dark;
- thunders;

- being ordered/told what to do;
- horror movies;
- seafood and shrimp (allergies);
- liars and bad people;
- gossips and rumours about people she cares about;

- seeing her friends hurt;

- ...

habits.

- She sulks or pouts when she is angry;
- she has the habit of play cupid when she realizes two people may have feelings for each other;
- She has the habbit to speak her mind, sometimes it makes her embarassed;

- She bites her lower lip when nervous;
- After everything that happened to her, she always smiles to her friends to make them happy, even if she is sad or hurt;

- She has the habit of lifting the mood and make people happy;
- She always shares her food or what she has;

- ...

hobbies.

- bullet journalling;
- Read;
- drawing (especially in her bullet journal);

- singing and dancing to entretain her friends;

- Listening to music;

- Taking photos;

- Watching movies;
- plan adventures;

- read about potential travelling places and history;

...

trivia.

- When Soo ah does aegyo, she resembles Aera from the drama fight for my way (here);
- when she is drunk, she is clingy, flirty, talks too much (even says secrets about herself) and sometimes says things that doesn't make any sense;
- Soo ah keeps a bullet journal, which she uses as her diary;
- Soo ah uses glasses when she is reading or studying (when she is forcing her eyes too much);
- Soo ah wants to inspire people and is always the first to help when anyone needs;

- Soo Ah's instagram is @Dreamer.Sooah;
- She is a huge fan of Harry Potter;
- She tried blind dates, but she never had a boyfriend or kissed anyone (she uncounsciously always compares the potential boyfriends to Muyeol);
- Soo ah is a bit innocent so when people talk about dirty things she usually doesn't understand;
- she is a bad cooker, but thinks that she cooks well;

- Her blood type is A+;
- she likes to donate blood at least once a year to help;

- She is afraid of the unknown;

- She wants to be an author and write a book;

- Soo ah is afraid of thunders and the dark;
- ...

the relationships

jung jihoon + Song Hyemi. parents. 45 and 44 (respectively).

Soo ah has a good relationship with her parents, even though they made her get into a prestigious major instead of following her dreams. She understands why her parents did that, they want the best for her and love her unconditionally, only wanting their daughter to have a happy life without suffering like they did during their lives, so they expected a lot from her so she could be the one to decide what to do (if she was succeeded she would have money and the freedom to decide anything in her life). They didn't approve of her idea of wanting to become a writer, not because they didn't believe in her, but mostly because it wasn't stable and Soo ah was so optimistic that she wouldn't understand that she would need that stability, yet secretly they know that she is good in humanistic, being that law, talking and writing, so they are secretly hoping that one day she will manage to write her own book.

Being an only child made her being loved and spoiled (but not in a bad way) by her parents, so even if they are strict with her she knows it is for her own good and she loves them and keeps contact with them, visiting them whenever she has the chance.

Lee Junghee. best friend. 23.

Junghee was the first friend she made in the group. The two of them clicked and their personality was similar so they got along well. Junghee was always there for SOO AH, LIKE sOO AH WAS THERE FOR jUNGHEE. tHE TWO OF THEM WERE VERY CLOSE AND sOO AH WAS CONSIDERED jUNGHEE TO BE HER BEST FRIEND BECAUSE jUNGHEE COULD UNDERSTAND HER LIKE NOBODY ELSE. tHE TWO OF THEM ALWAYS LIGHTENED THE GROUP AND BROUGHT FUNNY AND JOYFUL TIMES. jUNGHEE ALWAYS BELIEVED IN sOO AH'S TALENT AND WAS ONE OF THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO WAS ABLE TO SEE THE CHANGE IN sOO AH'S SMILE AFTER SHE LEFT sEOUL. However, despite the distance, Soo Ah and Junghee kept in touch. Soo ah would try to call her at least twice a month or send her a message to see how she was doing while Junghee would do exactly the same so they were always in contact.

heo raon. Close friend. 22.

Raon has a peculiar personality and it took a while for Soo ah to crack her walls and get to know her. After they got to know each other Soo Ah would always try to bring the funny and smiling side of Raon and was always there for her whenever she needed. Raon told her many of her worries and the problems with her brother and Soo ah tried to help her as much as she could and always tried to lift her mood. As they grow up the both of them matured a lot, but soo ah still brought the funniest and brighter side of Raon to light. Soo ah was afraid that her friend wouldn't approve of her friendship with Ryung, but instead of hiding it from Raon, Soo ah thought that she should be honest with her friend. Surprisingly, Raon was ok with their friendship and asked Soo ah that if something between them happened that she should be honest with Raon, just like now. Soo Ah was confused and explained to Raon that they were just friends. In fact, Soo ah bit her lower lip and confessed to her friend that she Still had feelings for Muyeol (Raon found out that Soo ah liked Muyeol and that she was "rejected" after catching Soo Ah crying, hugging Junghee). The two girls like to hang out together, give advice to one another and have fun together. Soo ah cares a lot for her friend and always checks on her and even if she is hanging out with Ryung, she asked how is his sister.

heo ryung. close friend. 29.

The first time Soo ah heard about Ryung was when Raon opened up to her about her brother. Soo Ah knowing that they weren't close and that it impacted Raon, made her upset. Somehow they ended meeting and Soo ah said a lot that she had in her mind to him. Ryung was confused but impressed with her little explosion and offered her a meal to talk things out. With time Soo Ah realized that Ryung wasn't that bad and hoped that Raon and him would get close. After he moved to Seoul they didn't keep much in touch, but once she moved to Seoul he offered to pay her a meal and catch up. Now that she is older, she was more matured and they became closer and started to talk and hang out more. He noticed that something within her changed but instead of asking her what happened, he tried to show her support and be there for her and try to bring her spark back, listening whenever she was whining or drunk. Their clonesess would sometimes lead to arguments between her and Muyeol, as the latter didn't like how close the two of them were.

min woojin. close friends. 23.

Soo Ah considers Woojin as her twin. They are quite similar in many aspects and when the two of them join forces, it's chaos, complete chaos to the point that they can make Muyeol get angry. Soo Ah and Woojin talked a lot about adventures, travelling and some random thoughts. During highschool times, they were loud, happy and bickered a lot and would be probably seen causing trouble somewhere. Back to those days, many people would think that they dated or had something going on, but neither of them ever realized why. Soo ah still talks to Woojin a lot and likes to about Baram saying that she will steal her from him, but deep inside she just likes to mess with him. She cares a lot about him and makes sure that he is fine. Just like Soo ah knows about Baram, Woojin knows about Muyeol, honestly he knew that her attitude towards him was different and it wasn't hard to realize that she had feelings for him. And like that, Woojin also tried to help Soo ah.

Ong Baram. friends. 21.

Baram is a precious friend to Soo ah. Soo ah treasures her as her cute, lovely and fragile friend. Soo Ah wants to be there for Baram in everything that she needs. She tries to be the stability that she needs and tries to make her smile whenever she can, by taking photos of her or making jokes, even making funny dances to lift her mood. Knowing that Baram and Woojin have feelings for each other, Soo ah tries to play cupid for them, and sometimes asks Baram what she thinks about woojin or if she has talked to him. Soo ah always tries to check on Baram whenever she can and invites her over to her house, but knowing that Baram is more a home person, she tries to do video calls or hang out with her friend.

Wang Eunbyul. close friends. 22.

Eunbyul is a close friend of Soo ah and her housemate. In highschool Soo ah would make a lot of questions to Eunbyul about travelling and her competitions and Soo ah's bubbly personality would be contagious, making the shy Eunbyul happy and more extroverted. Soo ah would go to Eunbyul's competitions and cheer her with banners and yells, hoping to encourage her friend. As they became closer Eunbyul quickly realized Soo ah's feelings for Muyeol, even if the stubborn girl denied it. After Soo ah was "rejected" by Muyeol, Eunbyul comforted her, and seeing how broken her friend was, she also angry at Muyeol and the two girls started sending him dagger stares, but the poor boy never realized why. After what happened to Eunbyul, Soo ah tried to lift her mood, cheer her and help her realize how amazing she is and that she isn't a failure at all. Soo ah would often arrange house parties with eunho to cheer Eunbyul, on the other hand, Muyeol would sometimes come along and the two girls would just glare at him. After realizing about Eunbyul and Eunho, Soo ah decided to play cupid and help her friends getting together, hoping that they can be happy, as the both of them deserve it. Likewise, Eunbyul tries to help Soo ah and Muyeol solve their problems and have "the talk" hoping that it could help them get together.

Cha Eunho. close friends. 22.

if anyone told high school Soo ah that she would be close friends with eunho, she would probably laugh and ask if they were joking. Back in high school soo ah and eunho bickered a lot and most of the times couldn't have a serious conversation since their personalities just clashed. After moving to Seoul things just changed. Soo ah and Eunho just clicked and joined forces as crime partners, to help Eunbyul. As time passed by, they became close, something that neither of them were expecting. Soo ah helped Eunho trying to take Eunbyul out of her room and encourage her. Upon hearing about Eunho and Sabin's breakup, Soo ah told him that the past is the past and that he is happy now, he should focus on that. She helps him by playing cupid with eunbyul and him, and give him advice, trying to make them together. On the other hand, as Soo ah got comfortable around Eunho she happened to whine a lot about Muyeol, which lead Eunho to realize Soo ah's feelings for Muyeol. Eunho tried to help Soo ah and Muyeol solve their misunderstanding. Whenever there was a house party, Soo ah would end up warming or get drunk and spit secrets about heself, so Eunho tried to bring Muyeol along and often speak about trigger topics about Soo ah and Muyeol's relationship that could turn into a trap for them. Soo ah likes to provoke Muyeol by asking Eunho how is his brother and often complients him by saying that he is intelligent and handsome. It is quite amusing to eunho see Muyeol caring and clueless regarding Soo Ah, because in eunho's perspective, it's a rare sight.

Kim byungho. friends. 23.

Soo ah and byungho became friends in high chool. She always tried to make him smile and laugh and be more extroverted. After moving to Seoul, Soo Ah tried to keep in touch with him and making sure that he was ok. Knowing that Byungho and Junghee were dating, Soo ah would always trying to tease the both of them. After the incident with Junghee, Soo ah will try to help Byungho with his struggles of losing Junghee and she will try to fill the void of Junghee's absense and help Byungho and the rest of the group to join forces and stray strong together.

name. relation. age.

interactions

the daily life

occupation. Chung-Ang university student majoring in Law and a minor in writing.

daily schedule.

Since Sooah is majoring in law, during the day she is at her university, studying and having classes. She likes to wake up early to prepare breakfast for her and for her roommate Eunbyul and sometimes she even goes for some morning exercice (however not a usual thing). After classes she mostly likely stays at home or meets her friends, and may even make house parties or go to some parties herself and drags her friends. She also carries a book with her everywhere she goes where she writes ideas or feelings that could help her with her future novel that she wants to write. Sooah also tries to get in touch with her friends, sending messages or calling those who aren't in Seoul to check on them and also making plans (and also checking how they are doing) with those who are in Seoul.

struggles.

> Being strong for her friends: Soo ah knows she would never replace Junghee, but she must help her friends through her passing and support them, cheer them, help with their struggles, trying to keep the group together, by assuming the role of Junghee. However, smilling and being optimistic and happy all the time isn't easy, especially if you're dealing with the loss of someone very close to you. Therefore, while Soo ah is helping her friends with their struggles, she herself isn't dealing well with her own. Selfless Soo Ah doesn't want to worry anyone, neither being a burden, so instead she would keep her problems to herself;

> fear of the reality/ future/ unknown: althought Soo ah has always been adventurous and planning to travel and living her own adventures, after moving to Seoul she realized that maybe she wasn't strong enough to deal with the greed of people and living in the uncertainty of not knowing if she will be safe or successful with her plans, because she believes that she dreamed so high that her fall will be big;

> being left alone: Soo ah is afraid that her friends will leave her and part each ways and never care about her again. She cares a lot about them and even though she is always optimistic and smilling, she can't help but to think that one day they could be tired of her. For that same reason, she is afraid of being rejected, since a big part of her still believes in fairy tales and knowing that life isn't perfect, she is afraid that the person she loves won't love her back or worse, will betray her;

> taking risks and be happy: due to her glimpse of not perfect world, she became more prone to live in her comfort bubble instead of taking risks, something that for her friends would be quite strange since all Soo ah always did was taking risks and dream high for her own happiness;

> anxiety/ panic attacks: when she gets too stressed out because she can't deal with all the responsability or her struggles, she may have panic attacks, but knowing the symptoms she most likely would hide it from her friends and only calm herself down or face the attacks when she is alone.

Currently no one truly knows when Soo ah is sad since she hides her worries and sadness behind a fake smile, being always smilling, not to worry them, however, some people who knows her well may realize that something is not right because the dreamer lost her spark.

the lover

kim Muyeol

Jinyoung (got7)

Open (heo ryung, oc or another app)hnicknames.

- mu mu / even though he disliked the nickname, he was ok when Soo ah called him that;

- daddy muyeol / The first time Soo Ah innocently called him that, he became flustered and everyone else bursted into laugher, while she wasn't quite sure why. Muyeol knew that she wasn't aware of the other meaning behind that so he asked her not to call him that, at least in front of people;

date of birth & age. june 10, 1998 |21|

place of birth. seoul, south korea

hometown. tongyeong

nationality. south korean

ethnicity. korean

occupation. senior at yonsei university majoring in law

personality.

Positive: charming, assertive, adaptable, clever, witty;

neutral: strong-willed, ambitious
negative: judgmental, bossy, restless, demanding, impatient

background.

Muyeol's app

current relationship status. friends crushing one another, but who still have issues to solve.

their love story.

first love

Soo ah and Muyeol met through Junghee back in middle school. Soo ah, being the bubbly happy girl she is, tried to befriend him right after. Of course not all the time they would be on good terms, and argued a lot, due to their strong personalities and by how stubborn the both of them are. Yet, no one could deny that they were close and were always hanging out together and talking.

Muyeol would try to bring Soo ah back to Earth, since she really loved to have her head in the clouds and he would even get angry at her when he was talking to her and for some reason she started daydreaming. Soo ah was a dreamer, there was no denial in that and Muyeol, always tried to take care of her since she was like the baby of the group and Soo Ah tried to make Muyeol smile and laugh more often even saying "You know? I love when you laugh. You seem the happiest". While Soo ah lived a careless and happy life, only thinking about travelling around and living her own adventures, Muyeol struggled a lot because of his parents' expectations on him. Soo ah, who really cared about him, always tried to brighten him and show the good side of things, even trying to help him relax, something that the poor boy seemed to lack, honestly. She told him, countless times that no matter what he decided for his future, she would be there for him and would support him, even ceebrating each achievement in his life.

When Soo ah realized, she would beam whenever she was with him, their arguments made her heart skip a beat, even if they were angry, she would forgive him right after (however, of course childish and proud Soo Ah wouldn't admit it), she would daydream not only with her adventures, but mostly adventures with him, muyeol. she believed in fairy tales and that life was perfect, and without knowing she created an image of Muyeol not as her prince, because she was realistic in that (how could someone with his personality be a prince charming?), but instead, he was like her knight. That's when it hit her, she fell for him. Soo ah didn't know how long it has been since she started liking him, or exactly what made her like him, but she couldn't deny it to herself (of course she tried to deny it to herself the longest she could, but who was she trying to fool?). She didn't change her behaviour around him, even if she knew her heart had changed, but she hoped that if life was like in fairy tales, maybe she could have her happy ending.

Whenever boys approached Soo ah, muyeol would appear near her and glare at them, leaving the girl confused looking at him. Muyeol of course would just say that she shouldn't trust people so easily and that he needed to keep an eye on her if he didn't want her to get hurt. Of course, she couldn't help but blush at that and gave him a hug, she knew Muyeol wasn't a person who liked affection, but she didn't care, actually now that she thinks about that, she never 'not gave him a hug' when she felt like it, or 'not held his hand' because she was scared, actually, she just followed her heart all those times, and even if he whined or complained, he never pulled her away.

the turning point

Soo ah started to think about a plan to confess her feelings, she became his secret admirer and started leaving notes on his desk and locker with encouragment words, lovely words, or even poems that she wrote for him, and of course she would leave something with that: milk, a fruit, sweets, anything to lighten his day a bit. Muyeol was confused by why he was recieving such notes and presents from someone and especially who that someone could be. It didn't take long for Junghee to catch Soo ah, Soo ah couldn't hide anything from Junghee and she was already suspicious that Soo ah liked him because Soo ah was an open book, and it was quite obvious. Junghee beamed when Soo ah told her how she truly felt and said that she would support Soo ah, hoping that her friends would actually end up together, even saying that Muyeol was the happiest when he was with Soo ah and even could relax, something that no one was able to help him with.

After gathering some courage, Soo ah prepared a love letter to him, where she poured all her heart. She was afraid to be rejected but she felt that it was only fair that he knew, he deserved to know. In the last day of high school, Soo ah placed the letter at the last pages inside a book muyeol was reading for the past few days. She knew that they would be meeting the next day so she was nervous to hear his answer, however, that answer never came. Soo ah felt not only rejected, but even worse, she felt that he was acting normal like nothing ever happened like she wasn't worth the time and to know the truth. However, little did she know that Muyeol never saw the letter, because that day, after high school finished he just placed the book on his bookshelf and never touched it again. Heartbroken, Soo ah cried in Junghee's shoulder and told her everything, making her friend worried about her, especially because it wasn't normal for SOO aH TO CRY, WHICH MEANT THAT SHE WAS TRULY HURT.

Soo Ah told Junghee that she would be leaving to Seoul soon and that she decided to follow her parents idea to pursue law. Muyeol tried to call her, message her and he even waited at her house, because she had been giving him the cold shoulder and he didn't know why, so the day he was going to leave he sent a message to Soo Ah saying "let's talk, please I need you". Soo ah, who was still angry at him didn't want to meet him, but she felt that he really needed her so she went to meet him. When he saw her, he smiled, not expecting that she would actually appear and gave her a hug, which surprised her, but Soo Ah being the proud girl she is, didn't relax in his embrace. He asked her why she was acting like that towards him, but she didn't reply. He told her that he would be leaving soon and that it was going to be hell living like that, especially since he followed what his parents decided for him, and that she was being too stubborn now. Soo ah said that by not saying anything he gave her an answer and that was all she neede. Right after, her parents appeared ready to send her off, leaving Muyeol confused 'where is she going?', Soo ah looked at him coldly once more and said goodbye, her parents took her to said goodbye to her friends before leaving for Seoul, because everyone except Muyeol knew that Soo ah was also leaving that day to Seoul.

why i can't stay away from you

In Seoul, Soo Ah started to live with one of her closest friends, Eunbyul, who Soo ah didn't need to update for her friend to guess what happened. Angry about Muyeol's actions, Eunbyul said that she would be helping her getting over him. Muyeol tried to contact her, but she never spoke to him and in their group chats, who would never reply to him directly.

Soo ah was still popular in Seoul and her friends in university decided to introduce her to some men, hoping to find a boyfriend to her, so they organized different blind dates. In one of those dates, her friends said that she was going to meet a Med student who was handsome and single and that they would make a good couple. Soo Ah, who was always comparing the men she met in those blind dates with her first love, just shrugged thinking 'it's just another date, who cares'. But destiny decided to play a trick, and her date was no one other than Muyeol, who actually was shocked the moment he saw Soo Ah, asking what she was doing in Seoul and why she was there. Soo ah ignoring him, called her friend and asked what was the name of her date. Her friend told her that he was a friend of a friend and that she didn't know his name but she would guess that he was from Yonsei. Getting the confirmation that her date was indeed Muyeol, was enough to make Soo ah angry and after ending tha call she yelled at Muyeol "Why are you everywhere?". Muyeol looked at her, glamorous, girly, beautiful, he shook his head, no, those guys were only going to hurt her if she kept meeting them. "Soo Ah, are you majoring in law? I'd never guess, Why didn't you tell me you were in Seoul?". Soo ah, who was still hurt didn't want to talk to him and was about to leave when he held her hand and asked her to stay "I missed you Soo Ah, please let's talk". And before they knew, the both of them started arguing and each went their way.

i still love you

Even if Soo ah tried to be away from him, it looked like something was always pulling them together. When she had house parties they would meet (even in other parties), it was as there was a magnet that wanted to make them solve their problems. Whenever Soo Ah was drunk, Muyeol would take care of her, even if the childish girl yelled at him. Sometimes, when Soo Ah was drunk or vulnerable (Muyeol was probably one of the few that Soo Ah uncounsciously let him see her vulnerable side), she would cling to him and cry in his shoulder, or even yell at him asking why he hurt her so much, making him guilty, even if he didn't know what exactly he had done to her, but at least he now knew that it was something he did. They both were a mess, he, better than anyone, knew that this girl changed after coming to Seoul, she wasn't happy all the time, she wasn't bubbly, or that spark that made her so special seemed to have less light, and he couldn't help but be worried about her. And Soo Ah, who was still angry at him, couldn't help but be there for him whenever she felt that he needed her. They still didn't solve things and it seemed that Muyeol was trying to find a way to understand what he has done to her, but somehow things weren't as bad as before.

When Muyeol told her about what happened to his father, he was vulnerable and looked like he was about to break any minute. Even if Soo ah somehow didn't forgive him completly, she opened her arms and comforted him, listening to him and being there for whatever he needed. Soo ah took him to her room and layed down with him there as they used to, knowing that he probably haven't sleep for days. He finally relaxed and she went to the kitchen to prepare something for him. She blinked surprised when she was caught by Eunbyul and Eunho who were smiling at her asking if they made up, but Soo ah, with a sad smile said that she would be there for him but she was still hurt and even if she was still angry, she just couldn't leave him when he needed her.

And that's mostly how they've been for the past few years, Soo ah's feelings for him never changed and probably were strenghtened, while Muyeol seemed to become more considerate towards her and actually try to not let her be cold towards him, even if he needs to keep trying to win her back. Muyeol doesn't like when she is with other men or when she speaks about other men in front of him, but he never really realized why. They argue a lot and Soo Ah has brought the Letter topic a couple of times and even yelled at him many times when drunk saying that he rejected her, but he never really understood what she meant by that.

ending. I think they need to talk things out, and Muyeol needs to read about the letter and tell her that he never knew about its existance. If possible it would be amazing if they ended up together, and maybe moving in and travel together.

trivia.

- even if Soo ah doesn't admit it, she was proud of Muyeol after he decided to change his major to law and follow his morals;
- Muyeol laughs more when he is with Soo ah, but also acts more childish because of her own attitudes;

- they once almost kissed, but until today they haven't touch that issue;

- muyeol may be stubborn, but he makes sure that Soo ah always returns home safely and takes her home whenever he can;

- the both of them talked to Junghee about the other and she tried to say that they really should talk and solve their problems;

- When Soo ah talks about marriage and her future, Muyeol becomes bitter;

- one time, when Soo ah was drunk she confessed to him but he thought that she was just being funny;

- ...

the interview

are you ready to return to tongyeong? why or why not?

honestly, i love to return to my hometown, but this time it will be different without Junghee around. I shall not think for myself now, I need to be there for my friends, we need to get through this together.

did you keep in contact with any of your friends in the group? if yes, who did you keep in contact with? if no, why didn't you keep in contact with your friends?

I do keep in touch with them, some more than others. For my friends in Seoul I usually try to talk to them and meet them whenever I have the chance. Junghee is the one I used to call every week and we spent a lot talking to one another, but whenever it wasn't possible, we just sent a message one another to make sure that everything was alright. For those who are elsewhere or stayed in my hometown, at least once a month I send them a text asking how they are.

what were you doing when you received the news that junghee passed?

It was a hard day. I had been preparing for a trial for a whole week, we had to present evidence to prove that the person was either an innocent or culpit. I happened to win the trial in class and showing that the person was a crimminal, but as soon as I went home to celebrate the victory, I saw Muyeol with a dark expression. I was still upset with him but asked what was wrong, but he didn't say a thing until I received a call from Raon who told me what happened to Junghee. I was in shock and I think if Muyeol wasn't there to keep me balance, I would have fallen since my legs couldn't hold me. Muyeol was the one who was with me and comforted me until I calmed myself down.

is there anything you wish you would have told junghee before she died?

of course. i do usually tend to say what I feel or think and I usually used to tell her that she is a precious person to me and that I loved her like a sister, but I think maybe I could have done anything else? maybe said more things? I don't know, I thnk nothing would ever be enough to say to her, I should have done better.

what is your favorite memory with junghee?

We were doing a pajama party and junghee was smiling bright. we had a lot of fun and we shared a lot of things that we were feeling or that we were afraid of. That's how Junghee was, easy to talk to, open to and be happy with.

what would you say is your way of coping with stressful and emotional situations?

I'm very sensitive towards my own emotions, but I think it would depend. If it affected my friends too, I'd have to endure it by my own and be there for them.

is there anything you'd like to tell your friends?

yes, I want them to know that I love them and that life without them isn't bearable. That we shall be strong together and that every single one of them is important, beautiful and precious and that they should never doubt themselves. They are incredible people and deserve all the happiness in this world.

if you were asked to stay a few more days, maybe even a week for your friends, would you be willing to stay?

of course. i'd do anything for them.

final goodbyes

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comments/questions/suggestions. I had a lot of fun creating this bubbly girl, I hope you like her!

scene requests. not at the moment. If I get any I'll tell you!

password. "Remember when Junghee had the idea of watching the sun rising together at the beach? That night the stars were brighter than usual and she said that it represented our bright future. And when the sun started to rise, we held hands and promised to do this again when we got older".

name

Jung soo ah

d.o.b

march 15, 1998

age

ethnicity

Korean

height

165 cms

weight

50 kgs

Shin ye eun ↪

star x crossed

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