** Warning: Long Blog Post Ahead**

So here comes the point I've been dreading for so long. I've always feared this day but I've felt it coming, even more in the past months. I've tried my best to wait and just see if it was just a phase of some kind but I guess time just got the best of me and now I am completely sure of this. 

This comes as no surprise to all of you who have been reading my stuff over the years. I've always been a fast writer and I used to update quite a lot. Only, in the recent days, I've been facing many blockages. Not only what we would call a ' writer's blank' but so many other things. 

I guess there is no use to mess around, I'll go straight to the point. I am not an Exo-L anymore. I've been feeling like this for a while. At first, I was so into them it was crazy. But then all the member's departures happened and I got shook a lot. Luhan was my initial bias in Exo and when he left I thought about it twice before continuing with the fandom. That was even before I started writing here. Then I concentrated on the other members and ended up falling  in this mesmerizing trap that is Byun Baekhyun. I happened to fall even harder for him than I initially did for Luhan, finding many commune traits we had in common. 

That's around that time that I started writing. I started because I was so inspired by him. He got me running for a long time. Then the Taeyeon thing happened and I got a bit of a shock. I won't lie, I was heartbroken and I even thought about, once again, just leaving. Although, at that time, it was too late and I grew fond of the other members and too attached to just leave. 

My love for Exo didn't restrain me from watching and enjoying other group and everything felt pretty normal. I was writing a lot back then, mostly about Exo still and that was what I consider my ' golden age' here on the site. But then I came face to face with another group that, for a first time in forever, threatened to take the spotlight from my babes ; BTS. 

At first, it was just musically. But then I grew so much into the boys themselves. To my perspective, they were even more lovable, more unique and so hard working. I found myself rooting for them. The little boys who came from an almost unknown company and who grew up to become so big. Just like Exo did with me previously, the BTS boys totally screwed up my mind. They are all so unique and I was fine with loving both groups up until I met (well got to know about would be a better term) Kim Taehyung aka V. 

If I ever thought that Baekhyun was similar to me, I was better to hold on to my seat because, hell I was in for a ride with this guy. I found myself changing UB (ultimate bias) before I even got the chance to realize it. Kim Taehyung grew on me so deeply, I found myself being inspired by him instead. 

Changing from a fandom to another isn't a process that happens overnight and I waited over various comebacks to see if my mind was set up straight and that I wasn't going to just change my mind. Even though I really enjoy Monster and Lucky One, I, unfortunately, have to admit that I wasn't all that impress with Lotto. Well not as much as the fan in me wanted to be. I was a bit deceived. The more I was getting into BTS and the more I compared the both, the more I realized how Exo seemed fake to me. No offense to all the fans there, they are all awesome and talented, but we cannot deny the fact they were build up. Even if all groups were at some point, some grew to become a real family and others don't. I had two examples in front of my eyes. One of a group built up straightly for money, who didn't get all that along with each other, where members were fading away like petals of a flower and another group only getting stronger where they almost all grew up together. My choice was becoming to be a lot easier. 

But when BTS came back with Wings, I realized how into them I was. There is not even a doubt. I am not an Army. But I thought; hey why can't I just be both? The reason was simple... I only stood up in the Exo fandom for Baekhyun that I still had highly in my bias list and all. 

My final decision came last night. One of my friends sent me a video of Baekhyun's kiss in his latest drama. Don't get me wrong there, usually, I cheer for them idols but my biases are like a ' do not touch' case that I get really protective over. Not in the sasaeng mode but more in an' I love him so much omg I will always cheer for him ' kind of way. I first thought I would scream inwardly, almost cry because I've been into that man for so long... but no. 

Nothing. 

I only stared at the screen and I felt this big feeling of deception and nostalgy because right there I knew it. Exo, for me, was in the past. 

Maybe some of you will found me superficial for stopping it all and leaving a fandom after such stupid reasons but I have my rights. I've been afraid to update this blog because I feared that you guys would become angry. I respect all fandoms but I simply do not identify as an Exo-L anymore. My heart has been with BTS for a long time without me knowing it and it's about time I accept it and act in consequences. 

So, from now on, I won't be writing about Exo anymore. I am sorry but it came out as a burden most often than not. 

This will be follow up by a little cleaning of my stories. Not all of them will remain but those completed will remain. Those previously completed and in editing also will remain active. The only Exo story I will continue will be Uncovered, out of hard work and respect for my friend and coworker, Unicorngirl7. 

From now on, I will only focus on BTS. Also, I will be a lot more active on other social media such as Tumblr. 

Maybe you can take a look. I also do BTS reactions over there. 

I am really sorry. 

Lots of love xxx

Laulau95