Life Update

So….. Let’s not beat around the bush on this update. I haven’t been 100% honest with everyone. There have been problems at work lately and life in general. My last update about views and comments was a half-truth and I thought that motivation was a way to get me through things with writing. The problem now is, I have now added stress at work.

Starting with the most recent, I have recently gone through an incident a few days ago where my job may be on the line. Not going into detail, I had raised my voice to a coworker, after not heeding my pleas in avoiding food wastage for that day, and she in turn reported me to the manger. Although it was solved, she may file a case against me regardless if I was in the right or not. She also is making a big ruckus at work the day after, making it a negative environment for everyone. Her actions and attitudes have been like this for a while, hence my piled up negativity that lead to my outburst that day.


Before that, work itself has become strange and hard to keep up with. My schedule had been changed several times over the past few months and there were weeks where I’d have to go in for 6 days then suddenly for 4 days without prior notice. The weeks range from high pressure due to certain stocks being empty because of the delivery being late for 3 days, to so slow it drains your energy passively. People have noticed as well that my chapters now range around 10,000 words rather than the former 6,000 words, giving more character and creative situations. Another reason why my sudden shock and sadness came is when my longer and hard effort on longer chapters look to be unnoticed added to my discontentment with writing.
 

The weekends also included a lot of family time and general life things. A couple weeks back, my car needed to get repaired and took half a week to fix. Last week my aunt and uncle visited our city so we spent over 5 hours catching up. This weekend, my brother returned back from his job as a professional dancer on cruise lines so I picked him up. Everything happening in my laugh has really drained my energy and even affected my health in a way. I wake up tired because the night before I’m editing my work. I come home tired, worrying about the stress at work, coworkers, or how to finish my chapter before the upcoming weekend. I’ve gained weight because of the lack of exercise while sitting to write and over eating because of stress.
 

I didn’t want to share things in my personal life to my readers because, ultimately, I write my work because I like to do it. When I voice that I might be changing schedules with posting, I get flack instead. Readers I chat with understand my plight however, the silence of others makes it feel like they don’t care. If makes me lost and confused on whether my writing is appreciated. I of course thank everyone who takes the time to comment on my chapters and also understand that, just like my problems, they may have work or life related issues that make it difficult to read or comment recently.

Concluding….. After chapter 38, I’ll be taking a month away from writing to recover from everything. The proceeding postings after the break will be a new chapter every 2 weeks and Chev Reviews every week between.

I hadn’t noticed but ever since my ‘SEASON 1’ break of my fanfic, the word count from chapter 20 to chapter 38 is equivalent to 2 whole novels. I have actually written 3 novels altogether by word count alone(1 from Prologue-Chapter 19 and 2 from Chapter 20-Chapter 38), excluding music lyrics, links, and Writer’s Notes. I know some will be disappointed, others understanding, a few criticizing, and most….. just staying silent rather than commenting. I love my readers and the encouragement they have given me and may or may not continue to give me but right now, in my life, I need at least a month’s break from writing/posting. I doesn’t mean I’ll stop and not continue the story. I still have 20ish chapters and the SPECIAL CHAPTERS series to finish. I’m giving this update as a heads up to my readers and to explain myself more thoroughly.

 

Thanks for reading and hope you’ll understand my situation, Bamburn04