MIA on AFF

I just want to say sorry to all my Chingus on AFF.

I feel like I've been mia for the last couple of weeks. I haven't been making or reading as many blogs. I'm behind on all my blog comment replies. When I do make a blog I feel like I am ranting about life and personal stuff. I haven't been writing for my stories either.

The truth is I've been kinda stressed out and tired lately.

I'm not understanding any of the my precalc teacher is teaching. I failed a test last Friday T_T I was busy studying for the ACT which took up a lot of time. I took it on Saturday the 24th and I was worried about it all week. I've also been applying to colleges as well and trying to get all that done before the deadline.

Aside from academics I've been feeling socially stressed out. I feel like I am growing distant from my school friends. (I only have 1 friend that I will most likely still talk to after high school.) I was left out of a group chat on Kik so when they talk about it at lunch I am clueless. I also have to sit through the repetitive conversations of my friend's boy drama -_- And the thing is she barely listens to my problems.

I know my senior year of high school should be fun, but I can't shake the uneasiness I feel. I feel lonely, stupid, and unprepared for the real world. It's causing some major anxiety.

WOW. This was supposed to be a simple apology and it turned into a sob story XP

Anyways, in a few weeks after all this college stuff dies down I'll hopefully feel better :)

Fighting!! ^^

SapphireKpop <3

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CosmoQueen #1 Oct 30, 2015 10:34:30

Aww I hope things get better for you soon. And maybe you should just sit her down and really tell her how you feel, if she's a real friend she'll care! FIGHTING!

mischievous_akmood #2 Oct 26, 2015 12:55:05

don't worry this is literally me on aff O.o I used to be so active on here and I updated at least once a week and I read pretty often too and now ._. welp
I don't really know how to help because this is something you can only do by yourself, but you're not alone in struggling... I know I probably don't have it as hard as you do because you have college apps and stuff and I don't, but last Tuesday I failed my second calc quiz in a row... literally failed... ayyyy it's a new record because I've never gotten a 38% on a quiz before XD AND TODAY I JUST FAILED MY CALC TEST I THOUGHT I KNEW THE MATERIAL AND I WENT THROUGH ALL THE PRACTICE TESTS AND I KNEW EVERYTHING AND THEN I GET THE REAL TEST AND I WAS JUST LIKE O.O WELL O.O I'M LUCKY IF I GET A D ON THAT QUIZ HOLY ING CHEEZITS I WILL LITERALLY DIE IN CALC and I have 3 other tests today... I've already taken my myth reading quiz and my calc quiz and my myth quiz turned out okay I guess? don't even get me started on calc ._. and I have Spanish and bio afterwards and just watch me fail all of them XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
so you're not alone in academic stress... as for social stress, I can't really help with that either because I don't know all the details, but have you tried having a conversation with them to try and clear things up? maybe it'll help... but if it doesn't, then don't worry about it because if they're making the choice to get more distant from you, then that's their problem... if they choose not to include you and you try to get back in but fail, then there's nothing more you can do and you shouldn't let that bother you too much
to be honest all of us are unprepared for life in general even though other people might not show it LOL I honestly have no idea how I'm gonna survive once I graduate from high school... you're not alone so please don't feel don't feel stupid...
good luck though ^^ please talk to me if you need anything else and I hope things work out for you...

Insane-sabe #3 Oct 26, 2015 01:27:17

Senior year....fun? Wut?
that's the most stressful year!!!
But after it you'll feel so relieved. Then you'll start college/University and CRY TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT.

(From experience,)
but now I'm in 2nd year of university and I'm here like....limme graduate quickly please *weeping*

informantxgirl #4 Oct 25, 2015 23:27:18

I...have never heard that senior year should be fun, omo, omo, I missed that memo. I was stressed out all junior and senior year (taking the IB will do that to you), but it all worked out for the best once I decided to sit down and just go through item by item everything I needed to do. I don't know, that might not work for everyone. Your positive attitude is great, though. Fighting! :D