A few months passed by..... me ... my new school... new friends..... and most importantly.... new feeling.... D.O what are u thinking right now? i m asking myself... at the beginning this place is a scary place to me... learning that people here come from a good background and the idea of living far away from my home make me scared.... but that person make my world shine..... Kai... he make me a new person... i become brave than before ... and following him around make me popular.... they said that he never had a friend before... that he is so scary even the principal is afraid of his family.... but to me he is a knight in a shinning amour.... be a friend with him make me special... what s more important.... it seem that i am the only person in this whole school know that he also into men.... hehehehe.....  i felt that i m really close to him... that i know his secret....

"kai!!.."

"what?!"

"have u finish ur classes for today?"

"yea"

"me too... i m hungry"

"i m not"

"come and eat with me"

"dont want"

"just one more time..."

"go and eat yourself"

"but im hungry "

"i dont want to eat with u"

"why, yesterday u did"

"today i dont want"

"it s lonely eating alone"

"u can eat with that dog over there"

"but i  not a dog"

"when u are following me u are like one"

"are u saying that i am a dog!!?"

"no"

"yes you are"

"no, i am saying u are worst than that, keep tailing me"

"Kai........ i dont care u eat with me"

i just grab his hand and make him come with me to the cafe, eventhough he said that he didnt want to, but he still eat when i push food in front of him... sometimes i think he just acting like he dont want..... he just want to see me begging him.... it make me smile.... is he really cute.....

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kai is eating the food D.O put in front of him.... he never eat with anyone before.... and never been forced by anyone to eat with them... but this person in front of him always make him do what he didnt want to do.... he know he feel suffocate sometimes... he tried to be really mean, but sometimes when this guy is not around his day life become less wonderful...

"Kai, you are going out tomorrow?"

"yes"

"can i follow?"

"no"

"i never go around here with car before"

"take taxi"

"it expensive"

"than walk"

"just show me around, next time i can go out by myself"

"dont want"

"just once..."

"u are really shameless"

"i can follow? yess!!"

"never said u can"

"dont care, i follow u tomorrow"

this person..... ah.... Kai is getting headache.... tomorrow he will go out early in the morning so that this person cannot follow him... ehehehe... he is smiling ...

and the next morning, at 6 am he found something beside his car.... someone put chain on his tires.... and a note saying that - Kai i have the key - ur friend D.O

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day after day... i think i m really Kai best friend.... ah.... at last best friend..... but everytime that some girl trying to approach him i felt that my heat is hurt.... and i really dont know why.... i never had a real best friend before.... except for chanyeol.... may be i m afraid that if Kai is having a girlfriend he will not give me more attention like now.... hurm... may be..... i dont want him to have girlfriend... hurm... or may be i dont want him to ve another best friend... i just want him to become my best friend.... i really dont like sharing

today he allow me to follow him out... i ask him to pay for my lunch, but he just left me there... that cold blooded friend... at last i have to go back to the school by bus. i cursed him ... but when i come back to my room and say that he didnt come back at night i become worry... where did he go? with who? where? doing what? what if he did that one night stand again , and he will dump me... i m sleeping with sadness that night...

the next morning he didnt come back again.... i want to call him, but he never gave me his phone no.... did he meet an accident.... because i cursed him??!!! argh... this is really making me crazy... i m really worried about him.... i want to see him..... did he even go to class????.....

"Chanyeol...... "

"what..."

"do you know where is Kai?"

"u are his friend not me"

"i m really worried"

"then,call him "

"i dont have his number..."

"what???!! u dont?"

"he said i m annoying, so he didnt want to give me his number"

"hurm.... may be he is out of town"

"how did u know?"

"i said may be"

"i just want to make sure he is ok"

"mmmm...... "

"how.... chanyeol.... "

"just wait he will come back"

like chanyeol said...... i can only wait.... i ask around no one have his number.... or may be they didnt want to give it to me..... after a week.. i just can sleep anymore..... i keep thinking of him.... where is that cold blooded friend...... why he just left me like this...... i started to curse again.... then i heard someone opening his door room. i stand up and went to his room.... knocking the door..

"Kai!!..."

after a few knocks he opened his door

"what!!?"

"where have u go??? a week i didnt see u"

"nowhere"

"liar!!!!... "

"i wanna sleep" he tried to slam the door again and i just came into his room by force

"why you are  treating me like this?"

"like what?"

"like this, why u ignoring me?"

"why cant i?
"but we are friends"

"so?"

"i m worried about you"

"i still alive"

"at least tell me where u gone for the past few days"

"i dont want to"

"really???"

"yes"

"then... them i will not be ur friend anymore!!"

"i m honoured"

"u are really mean"

"i am"

"i...i .... im really mad!!!"

"then go n take cold shower... dont want something burning hot in here"

i walked out of his room and run.... he really make me mad today.... a week of frustration..... and he just said that he honored if i m not his friend anymore!!!!  that that selfish bastard!!!! i really cried a lot...... for days.. and now i m crying again........ i went to the rooftop.... and cry.... why the hell i m so concern about this cold guy.... i am me.... and if dont want to be my friend than be it!!!!!! i dont want to see his face ever again!!!!!! argh!!!!!

the next thing i know is that when i opened my eyes.... it s morning again... i sleep on the rooftop.... should be very cold last night... i turn around... and see myself covered by a sweater... and beside me Kai is sleeping in his t shirt.... and just like that... all my frustration go away..... i m smiling again....