i arrive at my room, i just loose all my senses.... i cannot even recognize other things beside my bed.... this is hell....... he got fiancee? a woman? a girl? and... so... what am i ?... i m become a crybaby again, but this time without a sound... still cannot accepted that a person i fall in love is already make a promise to marry other person... my stars are steaming down.. what should i do??? this is the end of my life... god... im really desperate

chanyeol looking at his roommate... DO is sleeping under the cover... he didnt want to wake him up... early night DO still  sleeping... chanyeol keep thinking... what s wrong with this person... may be DO is tired and sleep early, so he just do his work without waking him up... but later early in the morning... DO still not move from the bed, chanyeol become worried, he  come closer to DO s bed and call his name, but he get no answer. he pull the blanket and keep calling DO s name, and still no answer... this person.. is he dead? chanyeol put his hand on DO s head, it burning... , his friend is having a high fever, he stand him up and took him to his car then drove to the nearby hospital

hours later DO wake up in a very strange place.. what place is this.. ? he is in a room... someone sent him to a hospital? but why? he just cannot think... he cannot even lift his hand... all his will is dried up... someone is opening the door.... he prayed really hard, that the person is Kai... but it is not... chanyeol is looking at him with a concern eyes...

"are u ok?... "

"hurm.... "

"just rest here... do you want me to contact ur parent?"

"no... "

" how about kai?"

"dont tell him anything"

"ah.... so he is the reason u become like this"

"hurm... "

"did he do something to u?"

"no... "
"then..."

"chanyeol... just.... let me sleep for awhile.."

DO close his eyes again.. he just dont want to think........and he is sleeping again...

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After a few days.... kai is strolling to the class...  lately he didnt see DO s around.... for a few days the annoying puppy just disappear and he felt like he s back on his own... ah.... he is free...

the fourth day kai is looking around.. this is weird... where is that puppy?? he didnt see it around... hurm.... his world ...ah... may be he felt a little bit lonely...that guy.. after a few days he will come back again

the fifth day... - something is definitely wrong... DO is nowhere in the school, where did that person go? if someone can see what above his head right now, they can see several question marks

the sixth day - no one is knocking his door, this is too silent and boring for him .... where is his obedient puppy go??? he  is walking to the next room, knocking

"come in"

"hurm... chanyeol, where is your room mate?"

"DO? why?"

"nothing just asking "

kai is walking out from the room, he never went to DO s room before.. and he never care about any of his school mate before... so... asking about that puppy make him feel inferior, he went back to his room and contact his friends ... may be he should just forget about the puppy and hang around outside, yea... this is better than worrying about others

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chanyeol is sitting at his desk and staring ahead, he intentionally didnt want to say anything to kai, that young master is too spoiled, also he didnt want DO to be hurt.... he know what kind of person Kai is, tomorrow DO will be out of the hospital, even though he keep asking for the reason DO just giving him a weak smile.. and silent

early in the morning DO come back to the school, resting in the hospital for a few days make him forget his frustration....  but he miss kai the most... that guy... whatever he said and do... he cannot forget... kai is his first love.. the one that he gave everything... and he know that he is having one sided love toward the man... kai does not know how he felt..... so... how could he blame that person for his own feeling.

"chanyeol... thanks for what u did.."

"welcome... so... are u ready to talk?"

"hurm.... "

"dont want to force you.... but if u want to share i ll be here.."

"thanks.. "

"by the way, kai ask me about you yesterday, but i didnt say anything"

"he ask about me??? "

"yea.. he come to me and ask"

"hurm.... he still a human being after all ..  do u think he care about me?"

"DO .. mm... i think u should let him go"

"really.... "

"yes.. it s for your own good.."

"may be... i should.."

and for the next few days , DO is giving his all just to avoid kai, it just like playing hide and seek, he tried not to go to places that kai usually go, and hiding himself when he see kai..... it tiring him , but he dont know what to do... if he stick with the guy... he will be hurt... deeply... and now that he s avoiding him he is also hurting himself....

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kai felt that someone is watching him... but when he look around there is no one looking at him.... this is weird.... why did i felt that someone is following me.... he just mind his own business and keep eating... yesterday he saw DO from afar, but when he walk to him, that person disappear just like that... ah.. did he think i dont know that he is playing cat and mouse with him?? ... kai is smirking... let see how long you can avoided me...  u think that i dont know u are in love with me.. hehehehe... u must be heartbroken right now... kai is having another evil smile

DO is watching from afar, he see kai is smiling... why did that guy smile??? he didnt look for me... he didnt search for me.... is he really dont mind if i m not around him anymore???? am i just an annoying person to him?? argh.... !!! i thought, if he didnt see me for awhile, may be he will miss me... but looking at him, smiling now... i never see him smile before when i m around him, now that i m not in front of him, he just keep smiling alone... he really didnt miss me??? i am his only friend here and he glad i m not around.....

DO is depress again..... at first , he thought that the best way is to avoid kai, but later it seemed like he is stalking him, following him around in secret all day long... and lastly he himself feel that he is forcing himself too much.... he want to be around that guy... that mean person.... he want to get nearer.... and living like this is killing him....

"room mate u look depress again.."

"ah... i m just tired"

"u still avoiding him?"

"yea.... "

"mmm.... for how long?... u should forget ur feeling for him... "

"i cant, he s my first..."

"ah may be u just find other person and sleep with him, then u can forget him"

" may be....." DO walking in circle... thinking....

"just sit down... u make me dizzy just looking at you"

"chanyeol.... d... do you know where... i.. can get ... a partner... ?"

"ah just go to the net and search for a gay bar, may be u find some nearby ehehhe"

"really??/ there s place like that!!"

Chanyeol is looking at DO, this is amazing.... he is so simple, i just joking with him just now about sleeping with other person and he took it seriously!!! this friend of mine.... what should i do with u???