This morning i m waking up with the smile on my face.... i never expected that he is here beside me.... or may be i m dreaming.... i felt the whole world full with colorful rainbow.... i m smiling.... so wide ....

"why are u smiling?" i heard someone asking me

"i m happy"

"why?"

"because u are here"

"mmm.... "

"do u want to say anything to me?"

"like what?"

"like an apology may be?"

"why should i?"

"Kai!!... i m still hurting, u know"

"then go and apply some medicine"

"can u be nicer to me for a day"

"cannt"

and just with that sentence... kai became himself again... ah... what i m expecting him to say to me....  the warm that i felt just now slowly disappear from my heart... but it doesnt matter... ehehehe... my heart is made from a very tough stuff....  i still can endure this....

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Kai is walking by himself, no one with him today, last night after that person run away from his room, at first he want to ignore him and go back to sleep, but no matter how hard he tried, he just cant fall asleep... there is something inside his heart that make him feel uneasy... that s why he asked chanyeol where that  person go... and he arrive at the rooftop , hearing DO cursing him make him smile.. so this person also can curse like a drunk man.... so he just standing behind and wait... just to hear DO pouring his heart out.... at first curses come out, than wailing and crying... just like a little kid... but a few words last make him stunned...

"Kai  , u bastard, u stole my body and my heart..... why u make me fall for you..."

that words... make him realize that his joke about that one night stand and him favoring man are taken serious by DO, so... that s why he follows me around like a little puppy.... he.. really fall for me??? ...

Confession coming from strangers and girls flocking around him is something he familiar about , but to have a male confessing for him is a first time in his life.... that s why it makes him stunned.. should he clarified the matter with DO, that all he said before just a bad jokes?.... hmmm.... but hearing DO crying like a child soften his heart.... he never had someone close that can take whatever he said with smile like DO.... may be... may be he should keep this puppy by his side just a little longer... now that he know this person is  in love with him, chances that he betray him will become less... may be... until graduation day... i just keep him by my side ..

by the time he finished thinking by himself, DO is sleeping at the floor.. he walk slowly and look at the person face.... so cute.... just like a puppy.... hmm... this person just do what he want, crying, cursing and sleep here... there is nothing that can scare him... kai covered DO with his sweater... and he lay beside him... looking at the stars above.... then he too fall asleep...

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DO walk alone today.. he still sulking... his heart hurt , he cried all night.... and just when he thought Kai is being nice to him, he was given poison again... argh.... this is really stressful.. why is that person cannot be nice to me even once... many times he thought kai is being nice... but for just a few minutes only... most of the time that handsome face is just like a devil.... the devil with angel face

Loosing kai for a week last time make him realize that he already fall in love with that person.... it feel like he is living without water and everyday he is waiting and waiting for kai to show up... just like waiting for a rainy day, but what can he do.... he will never confess to that person.... if kai know how he felt... may be he will dump him and stay away from him.... he didnt know when he start to become obsess with kai, at first it just start with curiosity... later it became a habit.... then by the time he realize.. he cannot make a u turn anymore..... he realize he is falling deep to the bottom of the lake...and cannot be rescue anymore

So this is the feeling of falling in love - one sided... he ask himself, is this all worthy enough for me to go on, walking beside the person that i love but didint tell him my real feeling, what if he got a girl..... what if he get married?? argh... DO start to think about the negative things that could happened..... his bad habit... that make him a coward

but as soon as he saw kai walking ahead of him... all the sadness disappeared and a smile come to his face...  why should i think about what will happened, the present is more important he said to himself... he cut the distance between them and start calling that person name

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Everything back to normal....chanyeol is looking at his friend face.... he keep thinking about thins happened , but the conclusion is far ahead....

"DO, are you still sleeping?"

"yes... im dreaming"

"u.. u are in love with someone?"

"hurm..."

"is that person i know?"

"it is a secret"

"really? "

"hurm.. "

"did he know?"

"no he didnt ....  wait ... a minute ... Chanyeol.... how did u know??? "

"know what ??"

"that im in love with a man??? "

"with kai, idiot... it s too obvious "

"u even know it s HIM??!!"

"u just like a transparent glass"

"really??!!!! ... "

"but i just dont understand one thing... "

"what?.."

"how come u fall for him... why... i mead when... u just transferred here.. and nothing link both of u...most important - he is not into man"

"it is a BIG secret... chanyeol dont tell others, promise me"

"what big secret ??? "

"that he like man too.. "

"hurm... i never heard something like that before... unless he told you, how can you are so sure??"

"he told me"

"aha!!! and why did he tell something like that to you... ?  u dont know him.. he like to play tricks on others"

"no he didnt trick me, he really like man too, we even fuc..... ops!!!!!" DO is covering his mouth......

"WHAT did u say??? he ed you??!!!! already??!! when?? "

" mmm... that night... when i drunk... but keep it a secret ok.... "

"i never imaging the great kai will a man.. hahahhahahaha... this this is really surprise me... u  didnt know how many girlfriends he got before... "

"but.... he never said... he like me... so it just one sided "

"DO ... u are playing a dangerous game.... just hear my advice.. that guy in the room next to us is a very dangerous man..... u dont know how many girl s heart he has break... something like this is just nothing to him... just forget him and search for someone else"

"i dont know... this is my first love..."

"ah.... how naive.... my friend...  just think carefully... but whatever happen.. i will always support you.."

"thanks... "

"i just hope that... if anything happened in the future... u will be ready.. "

"hurm.... may be... "

DO is looking outside through the window... what ever happened... he just cannot control his heart.... he is in love with that man....

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late afternoon on his way to the cafe he heard a voice.. really familiar...... it s him.... on the phone with someone...  he wait till the conversation over....

"Kai, i m hungry.. "

"eat alone , dont have time today"

"why?"

"i got a date "

"w...w...with who?.."

"my fiancee"

"a..a...ah... so... u got... a fiancee.... "

"ah... i forgot to tell u before"

"m..m..m... i.. i... go back first"

"ok"

DO walk slowly..... he cannot feel anything.... cannot hear anything.... so.... that man... is engage?? he got a fiancee , but WHY the hell did he ed me??? !!!! and again his tears is falling down... damn  bastard you make me cry again.. 

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Kai is walking toward his car... he keep thinking again and again... am i too insensitive... but i never said i like him... a i dont like man... ... that person.. he cannot blame me... blame himself cause he fall for a straight man