It s a new year... another year, and i m getting older... they said that we should be getting wiser when we are older... mmm... i hope so... i m looking the person beside me... kai... and my heartbeat getting faster

We are watching the fireworks blazing on the sky, seoul is full of lights this new year s eve, my new friend baekhyun is also with us, i m comfortable with him... hurm...if i met him before i met kai, may be.... i ll fall for him... but that just a may be...

by the time the fireworks ended, it s only me and kai.. didnt realize when baekhyun went away.. but kai said that he is meeting other friend... so at last just me and kai here, wishing each other a new year wish, i try not to get drunk again.... but everytime i see kai is answering his phone or messaging or may be surfing  the net... i felt hurt.... i m here in front of him... and he just ignore me...

then i start to drink...

"kai.. "

"mm..."

"why are u ignoring me??"

"i m not, are u drunk??"

"may be"

"stop drinking..."

"then what should i do.... my heart is hurting..."

"why?"

"it s hurt when i see u taking the calls,texting the messages..... i bet it must be from girls trying to u on the new year s eve"

"DO ... u are really drunk.. "

"yes i am.. and u know why, all because of you.... why u make me like this ??? u treat me like a lover, but i m not, sometimes u treat me like a pet but i m just a stranger to you, i dont know anything about u, u said i m your friend but i felt i just like a toy"

"DO i never said i ll be your lover, i never said i like u... "

"yah u never said that things, but why did u treat me like i m your mistress??? ... u shouldnt me!!"

"are u angry at me because of that??"

"yes!!! yes!!!! i really hate when u are flirting around with others, i hate when i m the one who suffering looking at you with others"

"then what u want from me.. tell me"

"can u please just look at me....  not others.... i dont care if u treat me like a slave or toy... but please just look at me .. because.... i.. " DO fall of the table... too drunk to say anything else...

"so....  u really love me that much eh.." kai is watching DO intently ...

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the next morning i woke up i found myself with kai again... but this time i m not ... so i think nothing happened last night... why did everytime i m drunk i ll end up waking beside him... and i dont remember anything about last night..... by the time he woke up, i already took a bath and waiting for him to wake up before going home... he opened his eyes and look at me.... something is different in his look, but i dont know what... so i just act like normal

he sent me back home... i didnt know what happened to baekhyun, but a few day after that he called me and ask me to meet him, he gave me the payment that he promised me... and we promised to stay in touch... if only kai is as warm hearted as him.... kai never contact me again until the school open....i bought him something.... i hope he like it...

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the second year goes by with not much happening between me and kai... eventhough there is a change of attitude toward me... he get a little bit nicer, but during this time i felt like he is avoiding me.... and at last by the end of the year, i ve spent most of my time with baekhyul more than him.... sometimes i felt that there is a wall he build around him, so that i cannot penetrate it....., but at the same time...i rarely see him going around with any girls..

Few weeks before the and of the year kai is not around again... i dont know where he went.... but it seemed like he disappear like always... i asked Baekhyun, but he didnt want to say anything... so it just me left alone, lonely and cold....

We are at the bar, me alone waiting for Baekhyun.... he called and said that he want to meet me .... so after an hour sitting at the bar makes me want to go back... but as i promised i just stay there and wait....

"hey there... are u alone?..." someone ask me

"mmm... i m waiting for someone... but... may be he will not come"

"never see u here.... "
"aa... i rarely come... "

"are u seeing someone .."

"nope... i m nobody, no one want me"

"ah.... seemed like u are frustrated.."

"really?? may be.... "

"let me buy u a drink "

"ok... thanks.."

for someone to approach me and making a simple conversation with me... i m really thankful.... and this person also look really nice...  his styke is just like baekhyun a year ago.... may be i ll make a new friend...  i just ask him to buy me a drink without alcohol, if i get drunk i dont know what will happen... and kai is not here now.... how i miss him......

talking and drinking with a new friend make me a little bit ok... i ll wait till the bar close... later my head got heavier.... and i feel hot..... my new friend is asking me if im ok.... but i feel dizzy and every nerve on my body is prickling....... i tried to stand up, but my legs gave me away....  everything is bluring... i only heard voices calming me.... i slumped back on the sofa..... i felt really tired....  but someone is calming me down...... my head is full of kai......that the only thing that exist right now....

"why.... why...  why did u leave me... ?"

"i m not leaving u dear..." someone answering me

"but u always avoiding me..... u never want to sleep with me again "

"ah... tonight... i promise u... tonight i ll fullfil ur need"

"i love u..... i really do... dont leave me.... "

"come dear..... i ll make love to you tonight...."

i feel my body being taken away.... kai is taking me..... he said he will not leave me...... i m in a dream land.....

suddenly i felt my hand being pull away,  i heard some noise..... but my eyes is too heavy... i just cannot open it.... i heard a familiar voice..

"DO KYUNGSOO..... how dare u!!!!!"

"w.....w....what... who........"

"u said u love me!!!!, but u just want someone to you, is your love is so CHEAP!!!!!"

"k...k...kai.... "

"you said u only want me!!!!, u make me care, u make me fall for u!!!! and now when i fall deep, u betray me!!!!.... tonight im going to show u what happened to someone who dare to play with my feeling!!!"

"k..k..kai.... i... im...not...."

"LIAR!!!!, COME!!!"

kai force me to follow him, pulling my arm roughly... i never see him so mad before...... but my head is so heavy........ at last i see only blackness...

"DO... im going to make u regret what u did.....after what u have done, do u think i ll let u go..... never...  "