As much as i hate to admit it, i was the one at fault. 

I honestly should've known better, I was the one who made the first move and you said you'd give me a chance 

I was the one who just assumed you would feel the same way as i felt about you 

how did i not see it coming? 

Maybe if i took into consideration that maybe, just maybe you weren't that into me as i thought then i wouldn't be left here heartbroken. No more than that, much more than just heartbroken, i'm torn. 

My only problem is, would it have been too much to atleast break up with me in...a less painful way? 

What am i saying? all break ups are painful. 

It was our 4 yrs anniversary, and at the same time she had just gotten a promotion, we'd been on some rough patches at that time. After she got a job in a major fashion company, we'd started to become distant. But i was desperate to keep hold of her. I felt that we had gotten distant and i knew it was inevitable. She no longer came back home from work wanting to cuddle me as we watched television and tell me that she couldn't wait to come back to me. She no longer called me on her breaks when she missed me. She no longer tried. 

"Its just..." She ruffles her hair like she always does when shes frustrated 

"What? just what Jessica?" 

She pauses for awhile and i wait impatiently for her repsonse

"Well?" I stamp my foot and signal her to talk 

"You're just too much! Its just... Its just you're suffocating me!" She bursts out all of a sudden

"Suffocating...?" 

"Yes! Suffocating! i mean i like you Yuri but..."

I stay quiet letting her finish her sentence

"I didn't think you'd be like this in a relationship!" she continues 

I laugh bitterly

"Its a relationship Jessica what do you expect? huh? All i wanted to do was surprise and congratulate you on your promotion and most importanly our anniversary. Am i that annoying that you dont even want to spend time with me?" i blink back the tears that start to form in my eyes

"Its too much Yuri! i always have to text you my schedule Every. Single. Day. And our conversations are always the same. These days im just too busy to reply to you." She falls onto the sofa covering her head with her arms. 

"Okay, Jessica im sorry." I walk up towards her and try to comfort her.

"No. Yuri its always like this, the same routine. You always apologise. I dont want that." She stands up from her position 

"Then what do you want Jessica?" 

Again silence. She says the last thing that i never wanted to hear her say 

"I want to break up." 

And that was it.  That was the last thing she said to me before leaving my apartment. no goodbyes, no I hope we can still be friends. Nothing. 

i waited for her to come back home for two nights making sure the door was unlocked so she could come back but one day when i came back from a long day of work all her things from our apartment were gone, all she left me was the memories and a note on the table that said "I'm sorry". 

 i tried to contact her, i tried to contact our friends so that they could get her to speak to me.

I tried for 3 weeks until finally giving up.

I gave up the girl who i claimed to be "The one".

The only one, the one who i wanted to spend my life with, the one who i wanted to grow old with, the one i wanted to love until the very end. 

How stupid. 

and the worse i was planning on proposing to you 

God im so stupid.

I was so blinded by the thought of being with you for a long time that i didn't even ask you if you wanted the same thing. 

I was so sure you were the one. 

but i guess It was all in my mind. 

Hiiiiiii~ another one shot!

Sorry its depressing af :/  

 Should i continue the story? or keep it as a one shot and a bitter break up between Jessica and Yuri?