First Trimester 14 Weeks Noh Sung Ah massaged her daughter’s scruff. It’s been fifteen minutes Taeyeon kept vomiting everything from . Her morning sickness had gotten worse. It’s getting more often and longer, to the point that she was nearly suffered dehydration. “I’m dizzy, mother,” Taeyeon winced. Sung Ah watched Taeyeon concernedly. “Sit down first. I will make you a drink. A ginger drink to lessen your morning sickness,” then she headed to the kitchen. “Ah, mother. I’m not really sure I can put something into my mouth today. My mouth has gotten numb. It felt bitter. I prefer Jiwoong Oppa’s ice cream he gave me yesterday than a ginger drink right now,” Taeyeon whined as she tried to breath, controlled her nausea. It’s been more than one month since Taeyeon left Seoul and stayed in Jeonju with her family. She had sold everything she had in Seoul to pay compensation to SM, so she really got nothing remained. Initially, Taeyeon did feel lonely and missed her routines with SNSD and SMTown. The journalist and media that came back and forth just worsened her depression. Even her father got some securities outside their house to alienate all journalists. The hormones fluctuation Taeyeon had also made her extra sensitive that she literally cried and whined every time. But, fortunately her friends were being so caring to her. They called Taeyeon almost every day. SNSD even did a video call to cheer Taeyeon. They made her longed feeling lessen a lot. The media, forum, and internet also started to forget her. It’s relieving her, honestly. And not to mention, surrounded by her parents, Hayeon and Jiwoong made Taeyeon felt loved and wanted, made her happy, helped her to recover little by little from her traumatic state. Taeyeon was also ecstatic because of her baby’s growth. She could feel him in her tummy. Quiet Jeonju, supported friends, loving family. Taeyeon couldn’t ask for more. “You know ice cream isn’t good for your baby. It will make you fatter, not to mention it lacks of nutrition. I will give you ice cream after dinner, okay?” Sung Ah served a glass of steaming ginger drink in front of Taeyeon. “Oh yeah, you got a package from Seoul” “Package?” “I think it’s from Seoul, from police department or something.” Taeyeon’s body got a little bit of jolt. She knew exactly what that package was. It’s her clothes from ‘the accident’ and investigation report about her case. Tiffany did report the incident shortly after she found out Taeyeon was pregnant, but Taeyeon insisted to retract it. Imagined it just made her scared. “Ah, that, let it be, mother,” she muttered and distracted her mind to the ginger drink. Taeyeon smelt the drink and put it back to the table immediately. “Thank you, mother, but, I don’t like it. My baby doesn’t like it. It smelt weird.” “As far as I know, my grandchild wasn’t so picky about food and drink, but if you said my daughter. Yes, I believe you, Taeyeon, my sweet daughter,” Sung Ah said without looked to Taeyeon because she’s doing the dishes. “Your baby must be cold this morning. After all the food you threw up earlier. He needs something to eat. He needs to be warmed.” “Mother, you’re not making any sense. I’m the one that conceived him. There’s no way you know he wasn’t picky. I don’t even think you drink one when you’re pregnant of me, Jiwoon oppa and Hayeon,” Taeyeon was being adamant, tried to pull a joke to her mother. Sung Ah faced Taeyeon with hand on her hip while the other hand brandished a spatula, “Aish, Kim Taeyeon. You’re really Kim Sojoon’s daughter, aren’t you? You’re so stubborn just like your father. Are you debating me now? No way, no way. You better drink that ginger before I hit you because you’ve let my grandchild in cold. Be a nice girl, okay?” Taeyeon giggled funnily and pouted her lips. “Okay, mother, alright. I’ll drink it. You can put that spatula down, aigoo,” Taeyeon took a sip of the ginger drink. Her eyes widened. The felt of warmth aded into and stomach. That warmth then spread all over her body instantly and made her body comfortable. “How does it feel? It feels good, isn’t it?” Sung Ah smiled triumphantly. “Ah, mother. How can everything you made taste so good. What do I do without you, ouhhh,” Taeyeon muttered without putting her glass. She enjoyed it. And her stomach rumbled with joy. She knew her baby loved it. Yes, baby. I enjoyed it a lot too. Second Trimester 22 Weeks Taeyeon ate her breakfast with no appetite. Her morning sickness was lessened a lot since she got in second trimester of her pregnancy but she lost her appetite nowadays. And yet her mother forced her to eat for the sake of baby. It just pissed her off even though she knew her mother was right. “Oy, Taeyeon. Why does my little sister look so gloomy today? What happened?” Jiwoong that just came from the bathroom joined her. “Did the hormones play with you?” he said jokingly. “Oppa, you don’t want to make fun of me now. It’s just not a right time. I’m holding a knife now oppa. I could have been stabbed you,” Taeyeon glared at Jiwoong. Jiwoong laughed. “Waahhh, you are really being moody, Kim Taeyeon. You need a vacation.” “Yes, I need it badly. Oh, gosh I haven’t come out since I came home to Jeonju,” Taeyeon cracked her neck in strain. “How about this,” Jiwoong dried his hair with a towel. “I’ll take you out today.” Taeyeon’s face brightened right away, “Really? You take me out??” “This is Sunday anyway, and I have nothing to do,” Jiwoong lifted his shoulder. “But only if you make me a sandwich. Two sandwich. With peanut butter or chocolate jam is fine.” “Oppa! Don’t you have compassion for your sister? I’m pregnant. Mother had made sandwich with tuna and tomato for you.” “Listen to me, little girl. Nothing’s free. You have to earn it,” Jiwoong flicked Taeyeon’s nose and go to his room. “I’ll dress up and make sure the sandwich ready!” “Aish that tedious man,” Taeyeon whined as she smiled. She then got the bread and made her brother sandwich just as he told. Taeyeon inhaled deeply. She inhaled the fresh air of Deokjin Park, being outside of her house after this long time felt so good. Maybe Taeyeon needed to go out more often after all. Jiwoong had made a right decision to bring her sister out here. Jiwoong and Taeyeon walked side by side. They walked on footpaths surrounded by lotus pool on the left and right. This month indeed was the right time to visit Deokjin Park because its lotus’ blooming season. All the lotus in Deokjin Park have started to blossom and grew, it created such a beautiful and calm feeling for everyone visiting. “It’s such a shame we couldn’t make it for watching Dano Festival. It will be more rousing and incredible around here. It’s been a long time since I attended my last Dano Festival. Since middle school I think?” Taeyeon muttered. “Yah, don’t even think about attended Dano Festival when all you’d done in this past couple of months you’re always stayed on your bed, watching entertainment news and ate up all my ice cream. I could’ve been broke because of you.” “It’s not me, it’s the baby. Baby who ate all of that ice cream,” Taeyeon innocently pointed at her start to distend stomach. “How could you use him to cover your crime? I love my nephew and I know he isn’t greedy. And since when baby ate ice cream for his meal?” Jiwoong hit Taeyeon’s head, didn’t believe his sister’s nonsense reason. “Ouch, why does everybody in the house seem know more about my baby. Oh, I know, you are just act like you know everything,” Taeyeon pouted her tongue. Because of the weekend, Deokjin Park was pretty crowded. And most of them noticed the nearly twin Kim siblings. In a flash the two Kim siblings became a center of attention. “Are you really Kim Taeyeon? Waaahhh, your womb, waaahhh! May I touch it?” an ahjumma Taeyeon’s stomach. “Aigoo, aigooo, look what we had. Our nation idol’s leader will be a mother soon,” a grandfather commented. “Noona, may I take a photo with you? I am a Taegangers!” a boy excitedly asked Taeyeon. Most of them asked for Taeyeon’s health and her baby’s growth. They also sent prayer to Taeyeon and her baby. Taeyeon herself could just smile and bowed over and over again. She’s touched. “Everybody’s waiting for your baby. Everybody’s caring about you. Everybody loves you, Taeyeon. You have to acknowledge it. You’re not alone in this. You never will,” Jiwoong patted Taeyeon’s head with affection. Taeyeon grinned widely. “Yeah, oppa, I never thought people will still support me after all of this. I’m grateful. Really grateful,” she inhaled again but suddenly she felt her breath was stuck. Taeyeon could feel her thigh and lower abdomen tightened, hurting her. Taeyeon grimaced. Her ice cream fell to the ground. “Why did you throw your ice,” Jiwoong clearly noticed her sister’s sudden change. Taeyeon’s hand held him even more tautly. “What’s wrong Taeyeon? Are you in pain? Omo omo,” Jiwoong said in panic looked at Taeyeon held her stomach in pain. He then took Taeyeon and sat her on the bench in front of lotus pool. “I-I…Its feell… aaahhhh!” Taeyeon could feel her abdomen and thigh pulled each other, suffering her. She began to sweat all over her forehead. “It’s really hurt oppa….ahhh!” Jiwoong started to look around in confusion. He really had no idea about what happened to Taeyeon. Taeyeon’s attracted some crowd. “Should we call ambulance?” “What happened to her?” The crowd’s mumbling was not helping. Taeyeon still bear the pain. “Aigooo, what’s wrong? Are you in pain?” a middle aged woman with a kid beside her approached Taeyeon and Jiwoong. “I don’t know, Mam. She wasn’t like this a few moments ago.” The middle aged woman pressed Taeyeon’s lower abdomen, made her convulsed “Oh, this is the one that hurt?” Taeyeon nodded and bit her lower lip in pain. “That’s pretty normal, dear. Your pregnancy must be in second semester. It’s probably around five or six months old. Contraction you had was naturally come and gone in this period. That was for practicing your muscles so you can give birth smoothly later. It’s alright. It should’ve been gone by now,” she caressed Taeyeon’s stomach. And Taeyeon could feel her pain dissipated. Taeyeon sighed in relief. “Thank you, Mam. Thank you so much,” Jiwoong bowed to her ninety degrees as for Taeyeon, she just nodded her head because she didn’t have strength to stand up. The middle aged woman named Cheon Jina left after giving Jiwoong some advices. “Are you alright?” Jiwoong said. “Yes, oppa, I feel a lot better now,” Taeyeon leaned to the bench. “She is an obstetrician in Jeonju Hospital. We should pay her a visit later.” “You’re right, oppa. We should,” Taeyeon grinned. Baby, you shocked me. I thought something happened to you. I’m so relieved that you’re fine there. 26 Weeks Taeyeon and Her father sat and ate the kimbap that her mother packed for them. They’re in Jeonju Hospital. It’s time for Taeyeon’s routine examination. They’d waited in the hospital waiting room for half an hour now. “Kim Taeyeon-ssi,” Taeyeon turned her head when a nurse called her name. She took a breath nervously. “Did you finish your brunch? It’s our turn already, sweetheart,” Sojoon then held her daughter’s hand. “Father, I-I’m nervous,” Taeyeon muttered. It’s always like this. Every monthly routine examination she did make her nervous. Although it’s just a normal examination, Taeyeon couldn’t help but worry about her baby. She’s afraid something happened to her baby. And the fact that symptoms she had so far were strange and painful made her worried even more. Even though many said all the symptoms she had were perfectly normal, including the doctor. “Hello, Kim Taeyeon,” Dr. Cheon Jina, Taeyeon’s obstetrician greeted her as she walked in to the room. She stood up and bowed when she saw Taeyeon’s father also come in. “Ah, hello, Kim Sojoon-nim” “Eyyyy, you don’t have to bow that low to me. You’re not stranger to me. You’re my loyal customer,” Sojoon cackled and gave her a handshake. They then talked about Sojoon’s optical shop and Cheon Jina’s eyes condition. Taeyeon then bowed to Cheon Jina and greeted her back, “Hello, Cheon Jina Ahjumma.” Taeyeon started to go to Cheon Jina ever since the encounter in the park. Coicidentally, Cheon Jina was a regular at her father’s optical shop. Cheon Jina smiled. “Your tummy is getting bigger. We better check it now,” Cheon Jina let Taeyeon sat on an examination chair. She noticed Taeyeon’s nervousness, “Relax, Taeyeon. You made the baby uncomfortable. Nothing bad will happen” Taeyeon just smiled a little. “I think you’ll come here with Jiwoong or your mother as usual. But, I guess your father also want to see his grandchild,” Cheon Jina washed her hands and wore a pair of rubber gloves. “So I am not allowed to see my own grandchild? I will sue this hospital if that’s the case,” Sojoon said jokingly. “You come in the right time instead, Sojoon nim. Taeyeon’s pregnancy is 26 weeks old. That means we can tell the gender of her baby.” Taeyeon’s eyes widened. “Really? Is that true? We can know my baby will be a boy or a girl? Now? Today?” Cheon Jina nodded. “Well, yeah if you want to know. If you want to make it a surprise, I won’t tell you.” “If Taeyeon didn’t want to know, you can just tell me