Hearing from him that this is just a waste of time… I didn’t control myself anymore… I burst out… and because of that… I pulled him harshly back inside and locked the door… I looked at him angrily… I can see that he’s really afraid now… I can feel him shaking… and tears are starting to form in his eyes… but then I didn’t let my feelings control over me… I’m still angry at him for telling that…

“You think that this is just a waste of time?? What the hell!!! Don’t you know how hard it is for me to approach and tell you all of these things!! Then it’s just a waste of time for you??!!”

“I… I… I’m sorry”

I pushed him harder on the wall… I kissed him harshly… I can’t control myself anymore… I felt like I need this… I need him… I stopped on what I’m doing when I felt that he’s trembling… I looked at him… and he was crying… the moment I saw him cry… my heart softened…

“I… I’m sorry… I… I didn’t mean to hurt you…”

I was about to hug him when he avoided me… he was totally afraid of my action… now what!! DAMN Kyuhyun!!

“Wh…why?? Wh…what… di…did I…I… d…do t…to yo…you?”

He said in between of his sobbing… I pulled him gently… and hug him tight…

“nothing… I… just got mad when you said that it’s just a waste of time… mianhae… jeongmal mianhae… Sungmin hyung…”

He pushed me away… then he looked at me… in his eyes are full of confusions and questions… then he manage to speak…

“why are you mad? Please tell me!!! You’re confusing me so much!!”

“ssshhh… calm down… I’ll tell you ok?? Just calm down…”

I hug him again and make him feel safe so that he can calm himself… I didn’t let him go this time… I wanted this… I NEED this… I gathered all my strength before I speak without letting him go….

“Sungmin hyung… I… I think… I’ve… I’ve fallen in love with you…”

Finally!! I was able to say it to him!!! I can’t believe this… but it’s true… I think I’