It's been two hours i sat in the cafe. My hot americano's already turned into a warm one. I fish my phone from my pocket. I hesitant for a couple of times whether to text luhan or not about the aunty.

I let out a sigh. I put my phone back into my jeans. 

If i contact him now, definitely he will ask where i am and will come to here. And when i see his face after like days i didn't meet him, i will definitely just back into his embrace without even any words. And after that we will back into the cycle again.

We always act like that. We get angry about a thing. We seperate for days and then come back to each other, hug, kiss and talk sweet to each other without try to break the problems and find the way out. So those problems will occure again and again.

Sure it's tiring. But we are just afraid to face our problems. To sit and talk about it.

Well the reasons we afraid are different. I'm afraid because i knew i can't make him easily understand my point of view. It's hard to talk with him. He always avoids the topic or gets angry which leads to days of seperation. While him, he's just hard headed person. He's not used to understand because he never be understood. And i've just knew what people said about love can change someone into a better one is a bull. Well at least it's not easy.

I'm just a stupid one. It might be because i read too many romantic novels. 

Yeah. After days i found out about luhan's love life, i decided i was the protagonist that will bring hapiness to luhan. I will fix him, pour him with love and change him.

When he said he accepted me and would try to believe me, it felt like i finally had my own love story. Like i said before i tried really hard. I remembered how soft