[ SINGAPORE ]

We all went to our hotel and went inside. I haven’t seen Jiyong because when I woke up, the rest of BigBang already left and we were the last to go to the hotel. Earlier, sajangnim said that we need to go to Singapore for a presscon for samsung. All YG artist are present. It simply means that he is there. We will be together. It's supposed to bring smile on my face for I will be spending my day with him but today, it makes me freaking nervous. Everything that involves him now makes me nervous now. How can I face him without being hurt anymore? How long do I need to wear a fake smile in front of him? Why does loving him became this painful?

"Chaerin ah! Are you ready? Let' s go already?" Dara said as she knock on the bathroom door. I wipe my tears and put on my eyeliner again then flashed a smile on the mirror. It's going to be okay. I assured myself. I grabbed my phone and opened the door.

"I’m done." I smiled at Dara who is standing in front of me Dara nodded and we entered our van. While on the van, I can't help but get nervous. I really don't want to see him. It pains me when I see him. Why can't I move on? I hate myself for still holding onto him. I was deep in thought when Bom held my hand.

"Are you okay Chae? Do you want to stay home?" I smiled weakly and shook my head.

"I’m fine unnie. Why?" Bom points at my face which made me confuse. She reached to my face and wipe a small tear on my cheek. I didn’t know that I cried while thinking about him. I laughed slowly so they wont worry.

"Oh. Sorry for making you worry unnie. Im fine. Really. Don’t worry."

We arrived at the location and we got out slowly. Bom smiled at me and whispered. "Be strong Chae. You'll see him today again."

I smiled and nodded slowly. "Thank you unnie."

We entered the event area and we were greeted by the flashes of camera. We smiled at the camera and went to our places. The other artist are already inside then I saw him. He is sitting in front. I sighed when I saw his face on the monitor, looking expressionless. The presscon started and I keep on spacing out but the laughter ta