2 MONTHS LATER

Hyun Jae held my hand, pulling me along. We were backstage, and we had just finished recording an interview for a Chinese variety show.

When we reached an area where barely anyone went, Hyun Jae pulled me around a corner. Our lips met, both of us had been unable to be close because we had been on two flights today, and the other band members were always around.

I heard a gasp, and pulled away from the younger boy.

Someone had seen us.

It was the translator for the show.

She had promised to keep our secret, and we thanked her for that. We just prayed she kept her word, or the whole band could collapse.

~

2 WEEKS LATER

"Hyun Jae..." I murmured, "I have a question."

We were laying on his bed, staring up at our cieling.

"What is it, hyung?" He asked, turning his head to look at me.

"Could we... really have a future together?"

"What?" Hyun Jae sat up.

"Us two... the public wouldn't be okay with this."

"Who cares what they say?"

"What about the other members? What if it affects them, too?"

Hyun Jae was silent.

"I can't give you children, Hyun Jae."

"We can adopt." He said after a silent moment.

"But I know you would want your own child, not someone else's."

"Hyung..."

"I don't think... we're meant to be together..."

"Why are you saying this now?"

"I thought about it. It just... won't work out." I paused, "We can't have children. The country won't let us get married. We could end up infamous, our careers ruined. Or worse, it could ruin the rest of the band's careers. What if the agency gets rid of us all? What if no one will take us?"

"Then... we fade, start a normal life."

"I don't think that's possible, Hyun Jae... we'd be recognized everywhere."

"Hyung, don't say that."

"Hyun Jae-" I was cut off as he stormed out of the room, wiping his eyes.

I'm sorry, Hyun Jae...

~

NIGHTLY FOOL'S K.I. ENDS CONTRACT WITH E.R. ENT.

K.I. LEAVING NIGHTLY FOOL?

E.R. ENT. ENDING CONTRACT WITH K.I?

I stepped out of the E.R. Entertainment building, for the last time. I stepped past reporters, who shoved their cameras and microphones in my face, and walked into my van.

Before the van left, I rolled down my tinted window enough to look at the dance practice room's window.

Staring through the glass was Hyun Jae, his face an expressionless mask.

I felt my eyes water as I quickly rolled up my window and told my driver to leave.

~

It had been a week. A week at home, with my aunt and cousin. They never questioned what had happened, or judged me. They were comforting.

They encouraged me to begin an acting career, reminding me of the times when I was younger and had dreams that if I wasn't accepted as a singer, I would follow my other dream, acting.

I had always been passionate about both acting and singing, but had decided to be a singer with E.R Entertainment.

At the moment, I wasn't sure if I regretted that decision or not.

~

I scrolled through my texts. Jin Mo had texted me, asking if I was going to come back, that he missed me.

He said that the company was giving them hell.

I had zoned out, simply staring blankly at my phone, when he texted me again.

Look at this video the fans posted, hyung.

I tapped the link he had sent me.

It was a video a fan had recorded. It was outside of the E.R. Entertainment building.

Hyun Jae was visible through a window to what seemed to be one of the vocal practice rooms.

The window was open, and a song started to play.

It was 'Kiss Goodbye' by Wang Lee Hom.

As he sang, I sang along, wiping my cheeks as hot tears suddenly fell from my eyes.

Then I heard him crying.

I did regret my decisions.

~~

A/N

Okay this update took ageeessss but I have to balance my time between flute, school, writing and horseback riding and I also hate writing when my mum is in the same room as me (she pretty much always is) because she can see the screen and I get embarrassed. The time I normally use for writing has become time to practice flute (I have to practice super hard as I have a concert on the 17th of December) and yeah... Anyways, working on the next part right now, and it will likely be the last part, unless I drag it on. I might also end up writing a full story rather than just these short "memoirs of Hyun Jae," as I've taken to calling them now (Lol that should be the title maybe I will change it)

Anyways I dunno if you read that but I am updating the last part ASAP

Kbye