I start to sleepy.

But I keep waiting.

I stare… at them. They stare back at me. 20 candles.

They are waiting to be blow up. Like me.

He will come. Like used to.

I am not hungry. I am not angry. I am waiting. You’ll come won’t you?

I start to pray, that you’ll be okay.

That’s nothing happen.

Maybe you want make me worried. Maybe to forget…

No, you won’t forget.

It’s already past midnight. You’re not 19 years old anymore.

You calling… you told me that. and you cut the phone coldly.

I am ikay, really. I just want to say, Happy Birthday. Happy Birthday Changmin.

I’ll blow the candles for you…

Changmin still remember how cold he act toward Jaejoong. How he hate Jaejoong without know the reason. It was first day he re-united with Junsu after big fight. And he want spent the night with him. Only with Junsu.

“Minnie… you should call Jaejoong Hyung. Maybe he waiting you…” said Junsu. Changmin make annoying face but still do it. After he heard Jaejoong voice

“I spend night with Su.” And he cut the line phone without waiting Jaejoong’s answer.

I am sorry Jongie.. that was my fault…

“it’s hurt right, Dr. Shim?” asked Yunho. Changmin just remain silent while stare Jaejoong sleeping face.

“it’s hurt to realize that you hurt someone you love, right?” asked Yunho.

“can’t you just shut up?” said Chan