look at that beautiful smile and perfect face. ugh sehun you btch. lol

Sehun's POV 

Give me love like never before,
'cause lately I've been craving more,
And it's been a while but I still feel the same,
Maybe I should let you go,
You know I'll fight my corner,
And that tonight I'll call ya,
After my blood is drowning in alcohol,
No I just wanna hold ya.

 

It felt like someone was stabbing my heart everytime I see her with him. I know it was wrong, but you can't blame me because he failed to be a boyfriend. He failed to comfort his girlfriend when she needed him the most. Was it wrong to ask her to give me love? I was always there. I was there when her father died. I was there when Baekhyun was being a douchebag to her. I was there when she needed Baekhyun. I was there.. always to show her how much I cared. Yet, I was so stupid to actually think she will give me love when all this time she was still inlove with BAaekhyun. Of course she was! 6 years of dating is not a joke for fck's sake. Baekhyun wasted 6 years and 18 years of friendship. When all she did was to give him love. And now, she's gone. Am I too selfish to give her another book.. another chapter.. with me? 

"You were great, bacon!" my head snapped that time and she was there.. hugging baekhyun and he kissed her. We were inside the parking lot that time when we finished our debut stage. I was watching them thoroughly. ".....I was so nervous before the show, but just the thought of you being there, I felt more relaxed and I really want to make you proud" Baekhyun gave her a peck on the lips and hugged her tightly. My heart clenched. My heart ached for the first time. I wish I was Baekhyun that time. 

Do you want to know when did I have feelings for her? Training days. Baekhyun became a trainee in 2011 and we became good friends. Once, he brought Saejin with him to introduce her to us. And as I saw that beautiful face, that beautiful smile, that perfect body, that eye smile, and that contagious laugh, I froze and just stared at the goddess infront of us. Everyone was actually shocked to see her. Why was she not a model or an idol? But of course we ignored those feelings because she is Baekhyun's girlfriend. After that day, she always visited us Baekhyun and Exo became close to her aswell. She was like our 13th member. And for me? I started falling for her. I know it was wrong, but I kept it as a secret. No one knew my secret. Baekhyun was soooo lucky to have Saejin and yet.. he let her go so easily. He only trained for a year.. well can't blame him because he sings really really well. He's like the clown of our group. Good sense of humor, full of aegyo, talented and very nice. Not until he became popular after we debuted. All of us noticed how Baekhyun became arrogant and wanted all the attention. He changed. 

She was crying. I saw her crying, You know why? Because that bastard was hanging out with Mun Kayoung rather than celebrate their monthsary. She went to our dorm to surprise Baekhyun, but she found nothing, Baekhyun was with Mun Kayoung that time. That bastard.

Shall I introduce Mun Kayoung? Mun Kayoung is only 18 years and an actress. We know her because she filmed a cf with Exo. But unfortunately, she had to kiss Baekhyun to make it 'more romantic' as the director said. Saejin was there. Saejin saw everything, yet, she still acted like it was only for a commercial. Exo saw everything. We pity Saejin because that gorgeous girl was feeling a lot of pain because of that bastard. Soon enough, rumors circulated and next thing happened, Baekhyun was enjoying it. All the attention was at him. Like the way he wanted to. He was arrogant and self-obsessed. Chanyeol and Baekhyun even fought because of the bastard's selfishness. We tried changing him again, but he was too arrogant to change. 

Baekhyun always go to clubs at night and flirt with s girls. And of course he was enjoying because he is an idol. He will just give them a wink and everyone will fall for that aegyo. And for Saejin? he did nothing. He did nothing to make her feel better and let her feel his love like he used to. I never understood Baekhyun because he was nothing compared to us. I am also an idol, but I'm taking his place to act as the boyfriend for Saejin to make her feel better. Exo did it also. We made her feel special when Baekhyun did not. Yes, I admit, I am famous, but I never neglected anyone. Especially Saejin even though we just met 3 years ago. But the bastard neglected her because he became famous. Can you see the effect of being famous?

While Saejin was saving their fragmented relationship, I was there to mend her broken heart. I was slowly creating a book for her. A book containing new chapters.. with me.