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I think this is the time where I have to confess to myself and say that I do like him... You know I don't want to say that but I can't deny anymore. He makes me so happy, angry and sad at the same time that it's crazy! I never wanted to fall for him but sadly we can't control our hearts. I'm really scared right now; I really don't want to get broken hearted... I don't want to feel that unstoppable pain again. Now I'm in the train to get to my grandma’s house and all I can think of is sehun and how sujin and he are there without me! She's a flirt! And will do anything to attract sehun. But according to his words he might like me: “I wanted you to come!" At that moment my heart almost stopped. I haven't even said proper goodbye. It looked like I was angry and he was too and we both just stared at each other angrily and said annoyed goodbye. And I regret that now! I wanted to say have a safe flight or take care... Should I text him? Or should I not? That’s the question.. Okay I'm going to text him, but what should I text him? Just plain hey or something like did you fly safe or how are you? Or... Ugh, someone help me… I took my phone and started typing, but then deleted it, then typed another one. And when I was about to send I got a text… and oh my god, I almost fell of my chair, my heart started to beat very fast… Sehun texted me first!!!! OMG he texted me! Calm down! I should reply!!! How should I reply?!!! Wait a minute I haven’t even read the text:

- Did you have a safe flight?- OMG!!!.... Why is he doing this to me? Why does he show he’s caring side? Why don’t you make me hate you??!!!

- That’s what I should be asking? How was your flight?

- Well not bad actually, but it would be better if Sujin would have kept her head away from my shoulder…- he responded almost immediately,  what?! Okay, forget all the caring stuff I just said!

-Ooh, she’s sitting next to you?

-Yeah, But don’t be jealous ;)

-Pshht, as if I was…

-Of, course you wer

 Oh I meant weren’t * typo… >:) caugh –

-Haha really funny! - he makes me laugh even without an effort…  we talked a little bit more and then we stopped he had to go somewhere…

I honestly don’t know what to do… should I give him a chance? Should I risk? Again?! God please help me…

 It's been like two days since we have talked and all I know about their trip is from their Instagram’s... Sujin,,,., ugh!!!!! She really pisses me of now!  She posts pictures with sehun and sometimes with Jackson too. And pictures aren't something to be pleased with, she's luring with them, and once she even posted selfie looking directly into the camera and the caption said: "in your face" I pretty sure it was for me... What's her problem? Even though I like sehun I'm not trying to steal him from anybody, I mean I'm not texting him every day or call or tag him in photos. I think that's a little bit too much.

I and Jackson were chatting more often than me and sehun and actually, hahaha get ready!!!!!! JACKSON LIKES EUNHE!!!!! Wohoooooo !!!!! And plus I'm comfortable around him we don't have awkwardness in our conversations, plus he knows that I like Sehun and were kind of helping each other with our crushes. He told me that sehun never initiated interaction with sujin, she was always the one who would swirl around him.  And guess what!!! Haha it made my day~.

Sehunas POV

I saw Jackson giggling while lying on the Coach. He’s texting someone. I don't know why I kind of felt that it MIGHT be jae hi, so I walked by and I tried to see the id but I couldn't ugh! So I have to ask him, well actually he's a cool guy and we got along pretty well so it's okay for me to ask:

- Who are you texting?

- Oh, hi. Jenny- and he laughed, I knew it!

- Oh say hi, how's she doing? - I asked casually

- She’s fine, they are going back tomorrow from jeju, we still have three days.

- Okay, say safe flight. Key I'm leaving I'm going to walk around china do you want to come?

- Oh yeah sure just wait a minute I'll get ready. I and jenny are almost done talking so

- Okay be quick. - As I said he's a good guy so I really offered him to come with me, plus I didn't want to walk around alone. And MAYBE he'll say something about jae hi? And he got ready very fast.

We met sujin on our way out and oh god! Remember when I said she was close friend? I think she's trying to be too close. I looked at Jackson with the "look" and he understood me . But sujin couldn't… she stopped us:

- Oh hi guys, I was just coming to you

- Oh, what a coincidence - Jackson said with a little bit sarcasm

- Yeah, where are you going guys? - And she looked at me, oh I don't want her to come! And than Jackson saved me

- We’re going to meet our friends, and we're in a hurry so, nice to see you byee. -She looked so disappointed. When we left the building I said to Jackson:

- Uh thanks, sometimes she's just too much

- I know right?! Haha- we both laughed and changed the topic.

We were exhausted when we were done shopping and being tourists. I bought some souvenirs for my friends and family and jae hi too. I need to do something to make her hate me less. Suddenly I remembered the kiss... My lips started to burn and I have a huge urge to repeat that... Even just thinking about her makes my heart go crazy, how can she do that?! It's not like I haven't liked anyone after her, but they never were as interesting as her. Some would let me do anything I wanted, without a word and it’s soo boring. But she... She argues with me, makes me frustrated… She makes my heartbeat go insane, and I feel so angry and bad about myself. Because the things I did when we were together back there were horrible. I thought making her jealous would help but I made it worse. I would be super cold when she was trying to be nice and make everything better. Ugh!! I would punch myself in the face if I could go back. Plus I was younger and I didn't know much... She was my first girlfriend... And I'll hope she'll be the last. But JACKSONNNN!!!! He's in my way!! I think jae hi might like him. They're too comfortable around each other. I really need to do something!!

Today we're going back to Seoul, but I'm not going straight to dorm I have to spend few days with my family... I really want to see her but I need some family time too... I haven't seen them for a while now...

So I spent some quality time with my family and it's been almost 2 weeks that I haven't seen her.  Ugh I must really like her because all I can think of is the day we'll meet. Oh and I almost forgot to tell you hahah few days ago she texted me aaah 😂 it made my day.. Omg in being so cheesy now ugh... It's so not me! That's the kind of impact she has on me ...

I'm in the car I'll be in the dorm in like 30 minutes. It's almost 5 pm so ... I'm entering the dorm now, I want to run haha but I'm stopping myself from doing that... Oh and I haven't told her when I was coming back... So I'm standing at the door I calmed myself and opened door. I looked around and she's not here, but at the second I thought about that I heard noise from bathroom. I waited near the door to surprise her and when the door opened I screamed booo:

-ahhhh-I heard her scream but....

-MINHYE?