They had taken a cat-scan and more blood. We were now sitting in the Dr.s office waiting.
It was quiet, too quiet. After I first had told Papa, he had made all the DR. appointments for me.
Got all the best DR's he could find. But he had never gone to one of the appointments with me 
before. It meant a lot that he was now sitting right beside me. What was I gonna do now?
    I was sitting in the front seat with Papa driving. My seat was reclined as far back as
possible, with me curled up like a ball in it. Dr. Kim told us that the medicine helped shrink the 
tumor, but unfortunately it didn't stop it from spreading. He was going to put me on a different 
medicine that he hoped would help, but if it did not I would have to go in for surgery. That scared
me the most. 
"what am I going to do?" I asked in an almost whisper. We were now in the YG parking lot. The car 
was parked but no one got out.
"I think its time we tell your members Chaerin. I don't think you'll be able to hide it from them
anymore...but its your decision." 
    The next day we were all together in the practice room. I had decided it was time to tell
them. Bom unnie was chasing Dara around and Minzy was in front of the mirror dancing. We were all 
alone so i took the chance to tell them.
" hey guys...can we talk?" they all stopped what they were doing and stared at me. 
"um I need to tell you all something important...can we sit?" we all sat in the middle of the room.
All of them looked at me waiting.
"Whats going on unnie...is something wrong? you look like your gonna cry." Minzy was now holding my
hand. I took a deep breath.
" Girls...I..Im sick...I have cancer." a lone tear was now rolling down my cheek. Bomy was holding
my other hand, and Dara unnie was wiping away my tears that were now falling endlessly. Mizy's grip 
tightened on mine. Her eyes searching for mine.
"unnie...how bad is it?" her voice had broke. I spent the next few hours explaining my condition.
Telling them when I had found out. They asked me why I had not told them, why I had kept it to myself.
We were all crying and comforting each other. In some way I had felt at peace though. My members 
finally knew, i didn't have to hide it from them anymore. 
    It was September and the "missing you" promotions were close. I had begun the new medication,
and it seemed to be working. Then again that's what I had thought of the other one. My migraines 
still came , but not as often. I was thankful my members were there for me. Always taking care of me.
One day in I was sitting by my self in the cafeteria when Jiyong sat across from me.
"whats going on Chae?" he looked tired. He was so busy these days.
"not much just doing some writing" these days I had gotten into writing my own songs. 
"can I see?" I handed him the notebook I had been writing in.
"I want to throw away everything in front of me
I want to scream out loud but
The only one to listen would be me
Along with the burning candle
There’s not much left to my heart
This beautiful house feels like prison
The tactless night sky is so beautiful" he read out loud a part of my song. It sounded so nice in 
his voice. 
"this is so good Chae, you should go in the studio with Teady."
"you think... i don't know, im still working on it. So whats going on with you Ji."
"Oh yeah I remembered, can you do me a favor Chae?" he said giving me his nicest smile. I don't know 
why it made me feel like blushing. 
"depends, what do I get." I gave him my own smile, which made him laugh. It was nice hearing him laugh.
"you will be able to stand on stage with this handsome man." he was waving his arms in front of him.
"haha ok you got me, what do you need?" 
"I need you to sing R.O.D on Inki with me...please?" he was batting his eyelashes.
"you need to ask Papa YG first"
"Already did he said to ask you...so will you?"
"ok oppa when do we practice"

*so second chapter...i cried a little with Chae telling the girls...please comment. Next chapter will GD find out?