*at car

"how are you, young madame?" Mr.Hong asking me while he driving.

"it's not that bad,and Mr.Hong i'm not young madame anymore, so please call me Jaehee now" looked to him through the centre mirror.

"i can't madame...." he answer me

"i got it...,you can't because aboeji right..?!" i just sighed. " keunyang do what you comfort to ahjussi"

after 30 minutes ride finally i arrived at Kim's

"we arrived madame.."

"thank you ahjussi..." i smiled at him

i walking to this Mansion once again with heavy step

"god, let it be the last time i'm step on my foot to this house" i sighed, i think i sighed too much today

and the heavy big door open,with some maid standing,i think their waiting some one, oh i just rememmber they waited for me of course.

i walked in through it,with hesistation..

"welcome home young madam' Mrs.Hong greeted with a bow.

"how are you ahjumma,and i only visit this time,for the last time JUST VISIT"

i said holding her arm, convince her.

"they are waiting for you in the hall,madame.." it's like she can't hear my last sentences

"let me...." she just took off my coat, my bag and the box i get before

"i take this with me ahjumma..." get the box from her

"i understand mam.." with her poker face she get the younger maid to take my stuff, and lead me to the hall where every one waited....

"Sir,madame, Young Madame it's here..." she said to my Ex-Parents In Law

"You arrived dear... I Miss you so much come we all waiting for you from early morning.."

Mrs.Kim my ex- mother in law hug me,looked at me with a look of longing, like finding kidnapped children after full of happiness and sadness at the same time.

my Ex-father-in law standing behind his wife with same look like his wife

"we can not even sleep at night, because expecting you today,they inside" i said while patted my shoulder

" i think i should says hello to him first, before seeing them" i smiled to them

then I went into the hall, and immediately saw him smiling at me, a smile that never changed. I bowed to him, and he kept smiling at me from the glass frame.

  "I'm here Kim Sunggyu" I smiled and bowed again

"how are you?I hope you're not angry for make you waited, and because I do not plan to come again next year ...so i'm sorry" with that I stood up and turned around when someone hugged me tightly

"bad woman, why did you just come now? hah!?! I think my friend is dead, what do you know my feelings huh!" he cried as he hit me, Kim Sunghee my bestfriend and ex-sister in law.

"If I'm dead, now I'm definitely not going to beyour tug fist right now" I replied, half laughing and hugged her.

"Nunna,you look horibble? are you eat regularly huh?" a young man said from behind Sunghee.that Lee Sungjong asked my with worried face.

" after 3 years you asking about my eating ?, nice greet Jong-ah" i hugged him

" at least he still care about you,not like someone" Dongwoo oppa replied

" and someone can't stop being sarkastic i believe" i smiled at him

" hey i just being myself..." he defence

" i know oppa" and walking toward him,and gave him some hu

I was suprised when someone hugged me from behind

"Yah Lee Seongyeol come here quick before she leaves us again,you can eat after we tied her up"

"arrasso,but at least you can stop screaming, you made me choke, you son of a-tree" he came while patted his chest

and both of them hugged me until we look like a sandwich

"yah Nam Woohyun, Lee Seongyeol let me go,i can't breath" i said still traped between this two kids

"okay" they let me go

"nuna...wasseo, it's been awhile" Myungsoo smiled at me with his leaning to the wall pose

"oowwh, and myungsoo can you stop possing huh?, i doesn't suit you" he just smirk

" yah you the only one said that to me you know?" he hugged me tight

" i miss you too" i said hugged him back

"come on kids enough for hugging time, let's have dinner" Mrs.Kim said and lead our way to dinning room

we sat at big long table

*sitting arrange

The lunch is quite nice, maybe baceuse i now eat with people and notalone like the past 3 years. The dinning room full of chating sound or more like Q&A to me exactly.

In the middle of it someone coming through the door. he came carrying a toddler who fell asleep on his shoulder

" Sorry i late, let me put Hyuk on bed quick, guys can you not screaming for today" he said

"Arrass----" Woohyun answer like a child who had scolded from his father

"You came..." he cut Woohyun out and the whole room became silent and everybody tensed

"Ne,urin manida Howon" i answer him

" Owh urin manida" he quick reply me back

And before he turned arroud he just said "and guys can you keep your voice down,can't you see he just sleeping after waiting all day,he toddler after all" he mouthing and going to 2nd floor

"Okay that intensed..., can we back to 10minute earlier" Dongwoo said

"How about toast for Jinhee comeback after 3years" Seongyeol shout

"Do not to shout Yeol~, we have sleeping kids in the house" i said to him

"okay every one Kkumbae~~" they all toasting with low voice

" For Jinhee nuna.." Myungsoo said and toast his wine glass to mine

Not long after that Howon comeback to the dinning room he took empty seat infront of me. I knew he keep staring at me, i can feel it,it feels like he making hole in my face with his gaze. and i don't brave enough to look him back , i just finished my food silentyly

"Are you finished Jinhee?" aboeji asking me

" Ne aboeji " i reply back

" Can we talk for moment?" he said

“Of course aboeji” i said, and i followed him to his study room

I remember the first time I entered the room it was when my father-in-law asked me to leave Sunggyu,He seat on his big sofa,i took the empty seat beside him.

“ Why you not wear the dress your mom picked for you?” he said

“ i thought that dress it’s to fancy for today ocassion aboeji” i smiled at him

“how are your work? Are they payed you enough?” he asked me

“it okay, you know it better than me aboeji” i reply him

“after all we have to know your condition Jinhee..”

“ I don’t apreciate it aboeji... it’s like i do some criminals thing and people keep staring at me”

I answer with my sincere tone

“ I’m sorry for spying you Jinhee-ah, but your mother always asking about you, she even get high blood pressure because worried about you”

He said sadly, I think he just wanted a normal life like other old people enjoyed your old with your family but today I may caused his heart broke because he can’t get enjoy,relaxed,old times

“ But I’m happy that you came today, do you want to comeback here again?”

i can see his happy face.

“ I came today to return this....”

I took the passbook from the dress box  that I brought with me I put the passbook on the table and pushed it towards him.

“But...,you need this” his face change into sadnees,disapointment, hurt

“ Or can you just comeback here?” i startled he begged, he never do that before

“ I can’t...and i don’t need 10.000.000 Won a month” i try to sound tough

“ I try to keep in touch with everyone,but if you keep sending me money, packaged or people to captured me, I will dissapear until you can’t find me”

I’m serious about this, i not playing game right now and he know it

But suddenly someone come into the room and pulled my wrist and dragged me out of the room

 "Samcheon sorry, I need to talk to her"

"Howon what you're doing, I'm talking seriously with aboenim, you can not ----"

He looked at me with anger.

"yes I can” and he looked at aboeji aboeji just nodded and said

"Don’t  angry too much on her Howon"

"I understand Samcheon" and he dragged me to the back yard of the mansion

"Howon let go , it’s hurt" I groaned in pain

"So you can feel pain too" he tells me with his eyes that scared.

"I do not understand your said Howon"

 I turned around, and took a cigarette from the pocket of my skirt, I started smoking cigarettes

"Are you smoking right now?"

He was shocked, and immediately took the cigar off  from my mouth and stepped it on ground.

"Hey!!!”

 I started yelling at him and took this new cigarette, and he regained a pack of cigarettes that I hold and stepped on it again

“ Do you know what are you doing right now” he grinth his teeth try to controlled his emotion

“ Yes, being a normal person” i answer him rising my voice

“ You just make your self like a , don’t you know that”

“ So what, do i need to act like a nun, tolerate to this ruin life”

“ So you think Hyuk is ruined your live? Huh?”

Everyone watching our confrontation behind the glass door,they not had they do not mean to eavesdroping, they're just a be carefull so that our conversation did not go out of control.

And after what Howon said,i just silent, my eyes blurry it looks like I'll start crying.
I never think my son as a reason for my ruined life, but whenever I see him my heartit’s torned apart,because he make me remember to my first love.

I heard Woohyun talking to someone

"Hey, kiddo now you should disturb Howon samcheon n----"

But he doesn’t care, the opened glass door was squelead

 "Samcheon Can we eat ice cream now?"

He walking while rubbed his eyes, his wokeup hair exactly like his father, he was wearing a little tuxedo as his father's friends, that soft voice make my tears fall. I could not hold it anymore and started to run out of the mansion.

“Nuna” “Jinhee” “Yah Park Jinhee” “Jin-ah”

They started to shout my name, i just walked fast to the front door, I take my hanged coat and my bag.

“Madame...” Mrs.Hong look at me with worried face.

"Tell to the abeoji and eomeoni I going home first, and say to the others do not look for me"

And then I ran desperately until the big road and ride the first taxi that stopped in front of me. and I could just cry all the way home.

To be continued

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