Chapter 1

 

I stared down the long distance I was from the grey cracked cement . A side of me willing to jump off this thin edge , but another side not wanting to leave this world. I thought about it stepping on and off the edge deciding . " Ugh!" I clawed my hands through my long hair. I couldn't .. I couldn't it would be to painful for me.. it was such a hard way to die..

 

" Oh my god!" A small group of girls at the bottom of the building I was standing on screamed. " She's gonna jump!" One pointed up at me.

 

 

 

I feel bad for them .. because in a little bit they would see my broken bloody lifeless body in their face . I'm sure that would scar one person forever. 

 

All the high school students out side for break quickly gathered to see me the girl standing up on a thin fragile edge on the class room's roof top .

 

It so funny.... no one cared about me.. but on the day I'm about to end my life they suddenly cared so much they came to watch me fall to my death....

 

" Get down from there!" A few teachers shout down below me.

 

 

I heard heavy running foot steps running up the stairs coming to the roof top.  " Miss! " Mr. Kim shouted. 

 

I turned to look at the five teachers standing behind me 15 feet away.

" I'm sure there's  another way ! Just please get down from there child!" Miss Jung said.

 

I set my foot on the edge looking up and then down. I can't do this.. but..I suffered so much.. I can't take it any more .. I can't take this anymore.. If I do this I can't turn back..I would feel so much pain when I meet the grey  cracked cement..my body and bones would be broken .. It would hurt so much. But  the pain would be gone.. It would soon be over.. I won't have to suffer this pain any more. It would be done.. no one could hurt me anymore .. I would finally be at peace...

 

I turned back to look at the teachers there behind me with a horrid face expressions. " Don't do this Miss!" One of the teachers took tiny steps towards me. 

 

"No! Don't come near me ! If you do I'll jump this instant !" I shouted. 

 

He quickly took a few steps back. 

"I'm sorry! Please get down from there !" 

 

"....I can't .." I looked down the building and then up back at them.

 

" Let me come get you down then .." Miss Jung said coming closer.

 

"Don't you dare come near..I really meant what I said a few seconds ago." I shouted.

 

We suddenly heard the door slam open *bam* I saw a really young boy with blonde hair running towards me. He ran towards me without yielding not afraid that I would jump off if he got near me. I was about to threaten him to leave me be. " Don't -"  

 

 

In a flash I was yanked off the edge of the building on to the middle of the roof top floor on top of the boy who had just pulled me. I frozed on top of him .. It was my first time seeing a boy up this close in my face. He was so close to my face I can feel his breathing on my face. My face flushed and my heart beated rapidly.

For a second I thought of what would it feel like to love some one.. and be hugged by them..

 

" Are you crazy ?!" He shouted at me worried his doe eyes watery .

 

"..." I pushed the blonde boy off of me.

How dare he interfere with my life! 

 

" Are you okay? What were you thinking??" Miss Jung came over to me helping me stand up.

 

" Don't touch me!" I shouted when the blonde boy reach out his hand to support my body when I got up. 

 

"...." He stared at me with a sadden expression.

 

" How could you?.." I said looking at him straight in the eyes." How could you take away my freedom?.." I ran after sending him a hard push. He stood there with a frozen expression.

 

 

" Hey -" Miss Jung shouted after me.

 

I ran as fast as I could to the end of the back of the building I tried to jump off .  The back of the building was infront of the long field of green grass . There students played soccer, ran , or couples might come and lay in the grass to stare up into the sky and where the P.E takes places during class periods. I jumped into a bush at the side of the building to hide so they won't find me .

 

 I squeezed onto myself tight so my clothes won't be shown through the bush. I know its wrong that I'm hiding but..I don't want them to take me to a mental hospital . I don't want to stay with those people I don't want be thought as a crazy person ...

 

 

I peeked seeing the boy with doe eyes looking around turning head . His face covered in a worried expression. Tears in his eyes threatening to fall , he shouted my name ..He was looking for me ...

He ran off into a different direction searching for me. 

 

Miss Jung and a few other teachers ran off in different direction. " We need to find her! What if she attempts to commit sucide again?" 

 

I quickly tucked my self back in the bushes. As the teachers ran past the building. 

 

I let out a huge sigh as all the teachers ran off. 

 

" Nice hiding spot." 

 

I quickly turned to that voice..

 

He smirked staring down at me.