school had broke up for 2 weeks and neither you or kikwang had texted,called or come to see eachother...kikwang had texted you a few times but never sent it as he didnt no if his words were good enough he didnt call cos he didnt want to hear the hurt in your voice and he didnt come round cos he was well....scared of SOL,...he knew SOL was all you had apart from suzy who hes sure he will hear from but he knew that SOL would be mad at him for hurting you and he wernt ready to face SOL just yet..

you on the other hand just didnt know what to say seen as you said all you had been bottling up to kikwang, but you wanted to txt him you wanted your friend back...

at home you had to much going on in your head which led to you having more nightmares and the same thing happend but you didnt just have SOL with you GD had also come running in to look after you...

you were cracking and it was starting to show.....

the night before you had to go back to school you were sitting in the living room with your brother's and they were just being there happy selfs and annoying eachother unaware that you was about to exploade

" ya _____, come join in with us" GD says

"dont want to" you say not looking at him

"you worried bout school tomorrow?" SOL asked unaware that his next sentance was about to tip you over the edge

you dont say anything "ya dont worry everything will be fine" he says smiling.....thats it you jump up face your brother and exploade

"no SOL its not ok...nothing is fine, nothings is ever fine....the guy i like turned into this crazy hot guy and got popular then forgot about me,he dont talk to me and i exploaded at him so now he dont talk to me anymore ....nothing....everyday i go to school and have to put up with the stupidity of the popular kids who by the way hate me...yeah they hate me so much they bully me..call me names throw my books on the floor and chase me down the street calling me names..i have to run home just to avoid it...i cry myself to sleep some nights and the nights i dont, i wake up screaming which im sure youve noticed..i remember sol ...i remember the accident i see it clear as day...how i moaned about that stupid panda that i wanted soooo bad if i hadent of kept about that damn panda we wouldnt of started fighting and appa wouldnt of turned around and lost control of the car and they would still be here.....i hear omma's screams then i wake up to my own screams ...i have to relive that every night and every day i relive it every freaking day....knowing that it was my fault its my fault there not here..i miss them so much and its all my fault and i have to live with that everyday for the rest of my life....." you say and the tears are pouring down your face you fall to the floor and SOL runs over to you sitting down and grabs you and hugs you tight followed by GD who hugs you aswell, your crying so hard that you dont realise that SOL is also crying......GD is close to tears aswell but holds it together...

all 3 of you sit on the floor for about 10 mintues sol is just letting you cry and hugging you,..now he knows whats been going on inside your head and knows what the nightmares are about and why you wake up crying and shaking so much.......his heart is breaking to see you like this and to know you were going threw this all alone just tears him up....and that you have been blaming yourself for your parents death ....he just dont know what to think

"listen to me,...look at me"he says lifting your head up, your holding onto your brother so tight...

"please look at me......dont you ever blame yourself again...it was not your fault,...wae didnt you tell me you felt like this? i could of helped you im your brother ____, i would of droped everything if you needed to talk"

"i didnt want to upset you" you say

"this upsets me...seeing you like this...this here breaks my heart, knowing that you was going threw all that alone and i had no idea"

"im sorry" you say

"you have nothing to be sorry for please ____, dont ever say that its your fault because its not,,....and as for this boy.....ill sort that out...is it kikwang?" he asks

"i dont want you to do anything Sol please" you say

"i wont hurt him....but i will have words..im not letting this go and as for the bullies i WILL deal with it" he says

standing up he picks you up and walks over to the sofa with you..

"i wish you had told me ____, im your big brother im here to help and protect you please dont take care of your burdens alone share them with me ill always help you..you know that"

"and me...im always here...and ill deal with the bullies noone and i mean noone hurts my little sister" GD says seriously

you give them a little smile...

"there it is.....that beautiful smile" GD says

"____ if theres ever a time you need to talk to someone im here but if you cant tell me then tell GD he will keep it a secret or if you want me to know but cant tell me then he will tell me" sol says and GD nods

"i knew it was hard for you aswell, so i didnt want to talk about omma and appa i didnt want to hurt you sol" you say

"then you should of spoke to me ..im only a call away and if you needed me i would of been here in a shot" GD says

"promise me that you will talk to me ...or GD" sol says

"i promise"

SOL gives you a cuddle and kisses you on the forehead, GD does the same...

"tell GD about these bullies" he says

you tell him about them and hes not happy...hes plotting revenge...and so is SOL

"how about you take tomorrow off to rest and we will make a great dinner and watch movies all day hows that sound?"

"great" GD says...you laugh at him

"ok ....your up 4 that...... _____?" SOL says..you nod you head

GD and SOL sat up most of the night watching over you as you had fallen asleep on the sofa....

the next morning you didnt go to school you texted suzy and told her you wernt going to be in and sol had rung up the school and said you were sick...in school no one seemed to notice your absence...... but kikwang did..

*where is she?.....i hope shes ok* he thinks

"i hope your happy with yourself lee kikwang" suzy says

"what....what did i do"

"you hurt her..you and your stupid friends" she tells him and walks off

the next day you didnt go in either...kikwang was getting worried

"ya suzy where is ____? have you heard from her?" he ask

"nae ive heard from her and wae do you care mr popular" she snaps at him

"ya i didnt do this to hurt her"

"well you failed ...infact you broke her heart....i hope your happy with yourself lee kikwang"

"stop saying my name like that.....and do i look happy...im worried about her"

"then prove it" she says and walks off

kikwang knows hes not getting anything from suzy apart from abuse......hes either gonna have to face you.....or worse....SOL

Dear Diary

i messed up so bad ____ aint been in school for 2 days, and suzy.... well.....she aint no help she just keeps saying one liners and walking away from me........so i either have to face _____ or her brother which im pretty sure he will knock me half way down the street.....i have to make it up to her , im worried about her....ill have to face one of them soon and whatever comes my way.........i deserve it...

Kikwang

kikwang was nervous about seeing you but he was even more nervous about seeing SOL so when he walks out of school and sees your brother and his friend standing outside the gates.......he makes a run for it ........

what is SOL and GD doing at the school?

who are they there to see?

who is about to get really hurt?

or really put in there place?