KILL ME NOW.

seriously T___T

I hope I never said YES to his offer...

no matter how hard I try to focus my EARS to what he's trying to explain to me, I CAN'T SIMPLY UNDERSTAND ANYTHING.

I can't help myself from looking at his...lips.

GAWD, just WHAT AM I DOING?

I shouldn't be liking the twin too!

but maybe...it's just because they look identical that's why... I wanted to kiss Youngmin so much and now I feel like he's Youngmin.

MUST REMIND MYSELF THAT... ONLY YOUNGMIN. ONLY HIM AND NO ONE ELSE. >__<

 

"uhhmm... do you get it now?" he raised a brow as he smiled kindly at me.

 

and then I feel like smiling... =___=

No, PLEASE DON'T.

KWANGMIN, JUST WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO DO TO ME? T____T

 

SHINYOUNG, JUST SAY YES SO YOU CAN FREAKIN' GET OUT OF HIS SIGHT!

"Uhm, yes, well...I-I kinda need to go now...so..." I tried to think of what I should say next as I spotted Youngmin walking out of the library.

"well...I need to go n-now, thank you" I gave him an...AWKWARD smile and stood up fixing my things as fast as I could but...

this day is not so lucky I felt so clumsy because I kept trying to put my pens back in my pencil case but they keep ending up missed.

'shoot' I whispered to myself as my eyebrows met together irritated at how clumsy I am right now.

"Uhmm... let me help you" I heard Kwangmin as I saw a hand grabbing my notebooks together.

I looked at him and then he's now putting everything back in my bag.

before I could perfectly place my pens back inside my pencil case, he finally grabbed my pencil case and I felt an electricity once our skin touched together. @_@

okay, now what's this I'm feeling?

my heartbeat got faster... seriously? T___T

 

before I knew it, he finally got my stuff inside my bag and now he's handing my bag to me with a smile on his face.

"Oh...you ended up doing it for me...hahahahahahaha..."

an awkward laugh escaped my mouth... 'OMG...what am I doing...I feel so stupid'

"sorry for bothering you, thanks again...I-I must go now" I got my bag from him and walked awkwardly out of the library.

I felt him staring at my back...

I hope what I'm feeling is not true >__<

I'm afraid to look back because I might meet his freakin' youngmin-like eyes X_X

 

Gawd...

Just what exactly happened? X___X

 

*****

Dissmissal

"where did my bestfriend has gone to? why haven't I seen her in class? T__T she left her bestfriend to suffer for another ZERO quiz in math...this is too embarrassing'  I thought to myself feeling so ashamed because everyone in class heard my score when our teacher called us out asking for our scores to be recorded in his record book.

 

the most embarrassing part is, YOUNGMIN heard it and I AM THE ONLY GIRL who got ZERO. @__@

I FEEL VERY STUPID. T___T

 

I suddenly felt a tap on my shoulder.

 

for a second I thought it's my bestfriend but when I looked back to see who it is...

my face got so red.

"Hey...uhhmm... I thought you understand me when I explained the lesson earlier in the library? what happened?" Kwangmin's face looked so concern and his eyes is just on mine not leaving it.

 

*sigh*

he's making me feel more stupid than ever! T___T

can someone please kick this guy out of my sight? I'm starting to feel offended... like he's kind of proving that I'm a complete IDIOT!

well, he's not actually saying it that way, but... he...he...

 

GGGAAAAHH!!

 

it's all his fault!

 

I GOT SO DISTRACTED WITH HIS FREAKIN' YOUNGMIN FACE AND THE LIPS, THE LIPS! GGGR!

I wanna tear it!

before I knew it, I found myself staring at his youngmin-ish lips 0.0

 

Gosh, did he noticed?

 

SNAP OUT OF IT.

 

He's making me so distracted! ARGH! >_<

 

"uhhmm...are you okay?" He asked me another question again this time, his face looks worried.

'say something!'

"U-Uhh , y-yeah... well...I'm a complete idiot... so now you know" i suddenlly blurted out as I saw Youngmin heading out the room.

 

I feel like following him but... I feel so ashamed right now I feel like putting a paper bag on my head!

I quickly grabbed my things to put inside my bag but before I could put them in, a pair of hands grabbed them from me and had put it in safely.

 

"Hmm... don't look down on yourself. I could teach you more on weekends. Besides, I don't have something important to do so yeah, I'd be glad to tutor you" He gave me a smile and he grabbed my bag and headed out.

O.O

 

No, No, No...this is NOT HAPPENING.

WHAT'S WITH HIM?

 

*****

school bus

"seriously, you didn't need to get my bag as well. I can carry it myself...and... well... I don't really wanna bother you on weekends too...so-"

"I know you're bag is pretty heavy for you I just helped you. and about the tutor thing, totally no problem about that you don't have to think that way"

 

what a complete MESS.

 

he carried my bag for me and well...he's so tall and fast walker too, I couldn't catch up. When I got inside, I found him sitting here with my bag. I had no other choice but to sit with him since there are no other seats left. =.=

 

this guy... =.=