CHAPTER 6

“Eomma! I want to go home now!” you said your mom crying.

“Wait. You’re making me feel nervous dear. Why? What happened? Stop crying. You make mom nervous.” your mom said worriedly.

“I should have not assumed that he likes me! Why he will like me in the first place! I should have thought of that before! Stars will never like a simple, ugly girl like me! I want to go home now! Why did I assume? I am so stupid!” you said your mom and this time you started to cry hardly.

“Look dear. Mom doesn’t know what exactly had happened. Please stop crying. You’re not ugly, okay? If you tell yourself that you are ugly it was the same like telling mom that I am ugly too. And no matter how bright that star is, it was never impossible for him to like someone like you, okay. My baby is pretty, nice, sweet. It was his problem if he doesn’t appreciate someone like you –someone who appreciates the beauty and goodness in almost everything. It was his lost!  I told you before. Assuming is not bad at all, you will never assume if he doesn’t give you a reason to. And remember baby, nothing is impossible with love. What you can see in those Korean dramas you have watched can even happen in real life. So stop crying now.” your mom said

“I love you mommy! I will be back soon. And mom, please remove the posters at my room. I will do the right thing when I come back home. I should have done it before. I promise I will forget oppas. That’s what you and dad want, right? I will do it. I promise to focus on with important matters. Not with KPop whom after you like and love so much will just give you heartache…” you said sniffing so hardly.

“Okay, but for now. Just do everything you can to enjoy your trip. Promise mom that you will do everything to go home with good memories. Okay? Bye! I love you. If you need me, just call. Okay?” your mom ends the convo.  -BEEEEEEEEEEEEEP-

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(3^rd day in Seoul…)

“Hello! Good Morning. Can you drop by CUBE Café later? Lunch time. Hope we can eat lunch together. And by the way, are you sure that you were fine? I am worried about you.” [MESSAGE RECEIVED 9:00 AM KST]

“Ah! Pathetic! Why should I have lunch with you? Why don’t invite that girl!”  you thought yourself. You stared at your like for around 10 minutes before finally managing to give him a reply.

“Sorry. I can’t. Thanks for inviting anyway!” [MESSAGE SENT 9:11 AM KST]

You really feel like you got a stoned heart towards Changsub. Never fell for a guy before and now that you finally love someone, nothing good happens! “Argh! I should not stress myself with this kind of pathetic stuff!” you said and gone off bed to prepare for another trip. Instead of having breakfast at CUBE Café, like what you have planned before having the Korea trip you have been dreaming off, you go on a different coffee shop. And you even make all means just not to pass by CUBE Ent.

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*phone ringing* CHANGSUB CALLING – ANSWER? REJECT?

“What the EFF is wrong with this guy! Now for me, he was like one of those flirty guys I used to hate at school!” you thought yourself. But without you expecting, you accidentally pressed on answer.

“Yoboseyo?... Yoboseyo?...” Changsub said while waiting for you to answer back.

“Yea. Hi! Why? Is there anything I can help you with?” you said trying to sound as normal as you could.

“I just want to check if you were really fine. I can sense something really different about you.” he said.

“Now, you were sounding like knew me! Okay. Just so you know we have just met like for 72 hrs now? It may be long enough for you but for me it wasn’t, okay?! Now, if you don’t have much to say. Let me end this conversation and let me enjoy my trip alone. Bye!” you said harshly.

While you were walking, you have realized how rude you’ve become. “Changsub was just trying to bring up a nice convo but what did I do”… “Argh! HELLLO! He deserves it. At least now he knows that I am no longer interested”… Despite all the jumbled thoughts you have on your mind, your conscience can’t take it so you managed to send him a message.

“Hello! I am sorry about earlier. I should have not done that. Sorry for being rude.” [MESSAGE SENT 1:00 PM KST]

“A. It’s fine. And yes, you were right. I DON’T KNOW YOU AT ALL. 72hrs wasn’t really enough to know someone.” [MESSAGE RECEIVED 1:15 PM KST]

Despite knowing that it was your entire fault, Changsub’s message hurt your feelings that it made you decide to just went back your dorm.

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 “A. It is hurting my pride. But this is the right thing to do since it was my entire fault. I am sorry for being rude to you despite of you trying to be nice to me. Now I just can’t enjoy anything because my conscience is haunting me. Please tell me that you forgive me. SORRY. I am really really sorry. I’ll drop by CUBE café later. I wanted to apologize to you personally. Hope you can meet me there.”  [MESSAGE SENT 4:05 PM KST]

“Ok. You don’t have to drop by here if you will just come by to apologize. Forgiven.” [MESSAGE RECEIVED 6:00 PM KST]

“Argh!” you started to cry once again. “Now we are arguing like we were couples! Why this have to be this hard!” you shouted and you weep even harder.