It a dark cold night, 
the city is dead, the sky was plain black. 
The moon looks lonely without stars, 
Street lamps only the light on the street, cold winds brushes on the trees making smooth noises. 
Cans of beers and bottle of soju can be seen around, a song plays on the stereo. 
A song, a song that he keeps repeating over and over again

The room smell like , dirty clothes, bed sheets, unfinished dishes, broken frames, shattered memories. 

A drunken man lying on the bed with a can of beer on his hand, his golden hair was starting to fade, his face shows that he never had a time to sleep. Heavy dark bags under his eyes, the hair around his lips are getting long. 

He looks like a helpless man, man that drowns on alcohol. A man traps on the memories and died on the scenes. 
He punished himself many times, but for him isn't enough, He pushed people away from him, he shut down himself on the outside world 

He was misery,  He lost everything, 
His family, His friends, and Her. 

"Meifeng" he whispers in tears, crying is all he can do,
Crying his pain and misery. 

Loneliness is the worst thing in the world, 
Regrets can eat you alive, but misery was deathful, it can kill anyone. 

He had it all, 
Loneliness and regrets send him in misery. 
"yifan" a voice calls him, his eyelids open half-way, he only see darkness, the darkness that only companion he only have. 

"Yifan" a bright light blinds him, figure of a girl standing in front of him 
"Yifan, stop this" she whispers 
"stop all of this" she then started to cry, kris held his hand, trying to reach her. 
When their fingertips touch, her face lightens. 

"Meifeng" kris whispers, he pushed himself from the bed. 
"Meifeng" 

"Yifan, stop this" you cried holding his hand 
"You need to stop doing this" his hand reach your face, he pulled you close to him. 
"baobei" he said  "im sorry, forgive me. Im sorry" kris cried 

"Yifan, you need to let go. You need to let go of me, stop doing this on yourself" you cried wiping the tears on his face 
"You need to move on and let me go" 

"No! No! I can't move on. Baobei i can't let you go, i can't let you go, please don't leave me" he cried holding you tightly 
"Don't leave i need you" he cupped your face on, your forehead touched on another. 
"I love you.. Don't leave me" he presses his lips on yours, closing his eyes he kiss you, he kiss you again. 

When he opens his eyes, you are not there anymore. 
You are gone again.
The bright light from the sun welcome his sight, he was lying on the floor with cans of beer around him, 
it's all dream, you are not there, you never be. 
"Meifeng" he stares at the ceiling, thinking about his dream 
"How can i move on?" He whispers and close his eyes again, hoping that he would see you again 


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"Kris.. Kris.. Wake up" he feel his body shake by someone, he groan and rolled to his side, he buried his face on his shoulder 

"Kris you need to wake up" he heard another voice again 

"Gege do you think he's alright?" a familiar voice ask the man 
"He need to be alright! He can't stay like this forever, go back to dorm, i will take care of him, tell to others to rest you have schedule tomorrow" their manager command, 
lay look again to kris and nodded 
"Don't be harsh to them gege, he's in pain" lay said before he left to their dorm 

Their manager sighed and look around, the whole apartment is in mess. 
With a groan he grab one plastic bag and started to clean, he steal glance to kris who's still laying on his side. 

"Kris, you need to stop doing this to yourself" he said taking the empty cans and shove it inside the black bag 
"She's gone, you can't change that" he said and went to kitchenTop of FormBottom of Form He took the dirty plates from the table, an