“You look like a clown.”

I can practically see smokes coming out of Sulli’s ears and nose as she blows her bangs furiously at the unflattering remarks.

“Shut up, you sickly zombie!” comes her retort in an instant, almost like a reflex. Sulli’s cheeks, which are already rather scarlet because of the blush-on that Sunyoung put on her, become redder in less than a millisecond. Despite of sporting a short, boyish cut, Sulli still have a pinch of femininity in her that she asks—albeit hesitantly—Sunyoung, who knows the most about make up in our grade, for a tutorial. The winter ball is coming soon and Sulli definitely wants to present herself impressively on the event, especially with the ball being the last one for Luhan.

 I kind of agree that the blush on, eye shadows, and shadings are a little bit too much for Sulli’s typically pure and child-like image, but he doesn’t necessarily need to tell her that she looks like a freaking clown, because, boy, Sulli is only trying her best to be pretty. I turn around to send a judging look at the guy who firstly starts the bickering and he, Sehun, only shrugs his shoulder nonchalantly at me, as if he wasn’t aware that he has been unnecessarily picking on Sulli’s confidence.

Truthfully, I think Sehun is not all that bad. And no, this opinion isn’t formed after I started crushing on him. In fact, that is why I like him. Sehun isn’t really good with words. Although sometime he can be misunderstood, he is actually a good guy. Sehun is one of those guys whose actions speak louder than his words. Without a word, he will voluntarily help without hesitation, as if it was the only obvious thing to do.

I first met Sehun when the new semester of our second year begun. To be honest, I didn’t really notice him since he isn’t much of an attention grabber with his quietness and lack of facial expressions. However, the seat arrangement made him seated right behind me so I took the initiative to greet him as a common courtesy. He intimidated me with his cold eyes and short reply that day, but if I look back at it now, that was just how the way he is. As days went by, though, his kindness slowly unfolded.

Although I don’t look like one, I am a very clumsy girl. I have the tendency to accidentally let my stuff fall from my grip, or my table, or my bag, or anything else that possibly contains my things. That is pretty much why I have a habit to buy a lot of stationeries—I’m bound to lose my possessions easily. This is where Sehun’s casual kindness touches me. He often picked up my stuffs from the floor before I realized that it was missing and handed them back to me. Sometimes, he would comment with a ‘you’re so clumsy’, but most of the times, he wouldn’t utter a single word. Sehun is also the one who would support me, literally, when I stumble in my way out of my chair to answer the teacher’s calls. However, his most memorable deed until this day is when he let me used his blazer after he told me that there is a rip on the backside of mine. Later that day, he got scolded by the teacher for not wearing the uniform properly.

With all of Sehun’s kindness, I came to a conclusion that he might have a liking in me. I thought that for once, someone can see me, who has always been hidden under Sulli’s shadow. I was really delighted and thus started to pay more attention to him. That is what eventually breaks my heart. When I keep a close eye on him, I can finally see that his heart has been owned by my best friend since far before I knew him.

Sehun’s infatuation with Sulli is crystal clear; I can’t believe that I missed it before. Sehun is a living mess whenever Sulli is around. He would struggle to keep his composure, juvenilely blurt out mockery he shouldn’t have too, and blush like a stoplight whenever Sulli smiles. After I knew his crush toward Sulli, I decided to step back—it wasn’t like I was actively pursuing him either—and support his affection to Sulli because I won’t stand a chance with her as my competitor. Yes, I am a gutless and cowardly chicken, but I don’t care. I’ve had my hopes crushed so many times that I don’t dare to wish anymore.

TBC

AN: So I was busy this weekend, I can only add the new chapter today. This chapter is pretty short, but the next ones are going to be quite lenghty. Thank you for the comment and subs. ^^

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