~*~Chapter 12~*~

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Minseok got thinner and thinner. He never stopped losing weight and he didn’t eat during the meals at home or the lunches in school.

In the back of Luhan’s mind; Luhan knew that it was his entire fault, because he had called Minseok fat.

One day, Luhan walked into Minseok’s room with a bowl of Ramen and eggs with him.

“Minseokie… do you want something to eat?” Luhan asked.

Minseok shook his head slowly; he was lacking of energy and too tired to answer with a proper answer.

“I’m worried about you. You’re so skinny now. I’m sorry for calling you fat… it’s my entire fault, please eat something” Luhan’s voice got weaker because of the tears he tried to hold back in his throat. It almost broke when he saw the last three words.

“It’s not your fault” Minseok said.

His voice was husky and there was no feeling in it.

Luhan sat down net to Minseok on the bed and placed his arms around Minseok’s shoulder. He could easy feel the bones inside Minseok’s body.

“It is… you’re starving because I made you sad. It’s because of me even if you don’t admit it. Please, put your blame on me” Luhan said.

Light sobs came from Minseok, he was crying. He was so happy to have Luhan’s arms around him right now. He wanted this moment to last forever.

“I will always be on your side and support you” Luhan said.

“Please eat” he added.

Minseok took the spoon and ate a little bit of the ramen. The food felt like stones in his throat and he wanted to throw up. But he didn’t; Luhan might be disappointed.

Everything Minseok did was for Luhan and he would continue to do it only for the person he loved.

Minseok would never stop loving Luhan.

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“And then he told me that he was being real and he kissed me” Luhan told Joonmyeon about what had happened with Jongin.

The beginning of the meeting hadn’t started very well since Luhan didn’t want Joonmyeon to record anything this time. He was going to tell his psychologist who he had with and that he was scared that it was his mind who made the up, who would want that to be recorded?

“The thing is that; the … it hurt as hell until I thought about Yixing was there with me. Then it didn’t hurt any longer” Luhan explained and swallowed.

Luhan looked out of the window, the snow had almost melted away on the ground and there was full of small, white and pretty snowdrops in the grass.

Luhan heard how Joonmyeon’s pencil was being dragged towards the paper in his notebook.

“Maybe… your brain is telling you that you love Jongin, but your heart is saying Yixing” Joonmyeon said.

Luhan shrugged; did he know Yixing enough to know if he loved him? The only thing he knew was how happy he was when Yixing was there with him.

“I don’t know; what if Jongin still is an imagination? Even though he has told me he is real?” Luhan asked.

“How about you introduce Jongin for me, Minseok and Yixing?” Joonmyeon didn’t wait for a reply and instead continued with:

“How about tomorrow afternoon?”

It all came so fast for Luhan. He wasn’t even sure if this was the right time for Minseok to meet Jongin, especially not after Minseok confessed for Luhan. But how do you say no to your psychologist?

“Here? Can we come here after lunch?” Luhan murmured as answer.

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Both Minseok and Yixing was sitting and waiting for Luhan to come out after his meeting with the psychologist.

When he finally got out he had a bright smile on his lips, which was pretty unusual since Luhan got really mad after his meetings with a psychologist.

“How did it go?” Minseok stood up and asked Luhan and grabbed Luhan’s jacket.

“Good” Luhan said and turned around so he was facing both Yixing and Minseok.

“Are both of you free tomorrow afternoon?” Luhan asked both males, who nodded.

“I guess so” Minseok said.

The smile on Luhan’s lips got brighter and it was spread to his pretty eyes.

“Great! Then you two and Joonmyeon can come here tomorrow and meet Jongin” Luhan said happily.

Minseok’s heart was beating faster. How would he act in front of the person who took Luhan’s ity?

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‘Dear Sehun,

Joonmyeon, Minseok and Yixing will meet Jongin tomorrow.

I’m nervous, what if they don’t like him? Or get into a fight with him?

I had a dream about you last night. You were looking at me and stretched out your hand. So I took it. Then I started to fall and I just continued to fall until I hit the ground.

You stood right in front of me and told me that we one day will be together until the end.

Do you want that to happen?

I would like it to, I hope that we one day will be together.

Maybe I should take my medicines…

Love, Luhan’