Chapter 5 [The present (Part 5) – Hebe’s hesitation]
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[Hebe’s POV]

I woke up and the first person I saw is him. He’s sitting opposite of me talking about something, I’m not sure though.
Everything seems blur to me. He seems blur to me too. Maybe I’m dreaming.
I turn my head around and rub my eyes. 
As my vision clearer, I saw my nanny and she’s looking at me.
I look at JaeJoong again and back to nanny after awhile.
Is this a dream?
I sit up and look at them again, back and forth.
Then I turn to nanny and ask “why is he here?”

“He says he’s worried after what he did to you, and when did you guys kissed? I’m just gone for a week and this happen?” Nanny answers and questioned me at the same time

I look at her for awhile and reply to her question. I answer all her question straightly as I thought he don’t know what we’re talking about.
But I know I’m wrong. He knows what we’re talking about.
He even says that he love me.

“This really should be a dream” I thought to myself

Nanny start asking him questions but I heard nothing. I sat there shock.
I told myself again and again that this is a dream but is it?
Maybe I should go back to sleep, this is a dream.
When I wake up, everything will be back to normal~ right?

I stop myself from thinking anymore and run towards my room then shut the door~ hard.
Then I lie on my bed and cover myself with my blanket.

 There and then, I went back to my slumber.

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I feel someone calling out for me.
I open my eyes feeling ever so drowsy.

“Nanny?” I ask

“Xiao zhen, wake up little girl.” Nanny said while messing my already messy hair

“Five more minutes, nanny” I say still lying on my bed not wanting to wake up

 “Ok. I’m going out for awhile so if you’re hungry, there’s cereal in the fridge.” Nanny said

“Hmmm~” I reply

As I wake up, I’m already late. Again~
I did my daily routine then rush out.

Not noticing someone there looking at me, I tie my shoelace for a few times.
Untie it then tie again.
The knot seems really… not right?
Usually when I can’t make something right, nanny will make it right for me but she’s not here at the moment.
What should I do?

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After I don’t know how many times I tie and untie it, I notice someone standing in front of me.
I look up and there he is, JaeJoong.

He bends down and helps me to tie my shoe. I just sit there staring at his face while he’s tying my shoelace for me. 

“He’s so handsome that way.” I thought to myself “Wait. What am I thinking?”

 “There, done.” He looks up and smiles at me. 

What he said snap me out of my thought and that’s a good thing actually.
I hope I don’t look stupid.

I look at him trying to digest what he meant by done. 
As I remember what he did, I looked at my shoelace.

I thanked him and get up ready to go for my class. 
I told him that I have class and have to go. 

As I start walking, he picked up something and follows me.
 
“Hebe, have you eaten?” He asked while catching up with me. 

“No” I answer still walking

 “Here, this is for you” He said and gives me the breakfast he’s holding

I have forgotten to eat my cereal as I’m rushing out so I stop walking and take the breakfast from him.
I don’t really like to owe someone, so I take out some money from my pocket and give it to him.
I think I should be enough for any breakfast he bought.

He told me that it didn’t matter and I don’t need to pay back to him but I insisted.
If he never takes the money, I won’t take the breakfast.
That’s what I told him.
He takes the money after I say that though.

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I start eating my breakfast as I’m really hungry.
After I have finished he asks “Is it nice?” 

I nodded and thanked him for the breakfast.
When we have arrived Oxford University, I stop and look at him.
He seems confuse so I told him that he can’t come in if he’s not a student here.

He look confuse for awhile but quickly step back as he realize he has step into the school ground.
I thought he will be going but he keeps on looking at me so I just stand there.

 “Urgh… so, I’ll see you later? When will your class end?” He asked

“Is he for real? He’s really going to pursue me?” I thought to myself

I’m actually quite happy about that thought but can I?
I’m something… different from him. Different from everyone out there in this world…
I feel so lonely sometimes.
Very lonely~

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I remember the time when I’m still in my high school.
He’s my best friend. We never really did talk much but he’s always there for me.
He made me smile like how JaeJoong did.

One day, he confesses to me telling me that he actually likes me.
I did like him too so I want him to know more about me.
The ‘ME’ that no one knows.

When I told him, he just laughed not believing what I’m saying.
I show him, he run away calling me some monster.

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That’s the first time I use my powers on someone.
I erased all his memory about me.

That’s also the first time I cried after I know about my mom accident.
I don’t think I can take a second blow.

“You don’t have to… I mean… There’s a lots of girls out there… is better than me. I’m not what you think I am. I’m different.” I told him hope everything will go back to normal after that

“I’m sorry. I have to go for my class.” I said as he didn’t respond

I walk away from him thinking this is the end but he stopped me.

“Why?” He asked

I just stood there feeling confuse by his question.

 “Why do you want me to go for others? I only want you, Hebe. What is the different you all are talking about? I don’t understand! I don’t understand at all! All I know is that I want you to be by my side!” He told me

I look at him, shock from his statement.
We just stand there not moving nor saying anything.

And Ringgggggggggggggggggggg~~~~~~~~~~~

The bells rang. Everyone rushes to their class and only us standing there not moving.
I turn around noticing that the hall is already empty.
I’m really late.

As I’m thinking to myself about what should I do, he let me go.
I look at him and he told me that I should head for my class first.

I nod my head and walk to my class.
He called out for me and told me that he’ll wait for me at the cafe we meet yesterday.

I nod my head again then turn around and walk towards my class again.

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I didn’t really pay attention in the class as I was thinking or preparing to get dump again.

Time seems to goes by very fast today but I’m not fully prepared yet.
I walk to the cafe as slow as I can.
When I arrive I didn’t see him there.

“At least I still have sometime.” I thought to myself

I order myself a cup of coffee then sit at the same spot as yesterday.
I just sit there mentally preparing myself and when I look at the time, I notice that I have been sitting here for about an hour.

He’s still not here. I took out my phone and start typing message.
I send it to the number he gave me yesterday.

I stare at my coffee waiting for him.
When he arrived, he keeps on apologizing and asked me how long have I waited~

“Just an hour or so?” I answer still looking at my coffee

“I’m really sorry” He apologized again

“It’s ok. Why don’t we just get straight to the point?” I said looking at him

He nods his head while I just look into his eyes.
I stand up pull him with me. He did ask me where we are going but I just ignore him and keep on pulling him.

I went to the counter and pay for my coffee then continue to pull him out with me.
When we arrives the dark alley I let go of his hand.

“Why are we here?” He asked

“The truth... Our differences…” I told him as I don’t want to talk too much 

“Can you promise not to tell anyone even if you cannot accept the other me? Please.” I said again hoping he would agree.

I don’t really hope to erase people’s memories.

As he promise me, I look around checking if there’s anyone there and back to him when I’m sure that there’s nobody hiding or anything.

I turn around with my back facing him and close my eyes, getting ready to feel hurt.
“This is the truth” I told him

I let my wings out. The wings that I always hide away from people

“This is the truth JaeJoong. I’m not what you think I am. I’m not… normal. I’m a half human-angel.” I told him.

I never turn back to him. I can see his shock face even if I didn’t open my eyes.
Angels don’t really need eyes to see.

Tears start to fill my eyes although it is closed.
I better leave before he starts telling me that I’m some kind of monster.
I can already feel my tears falling.

“Another rejection” I thought to myself

I take a deep breath and hide my wings away and start walking with my head down.
He run towards me and hug me from behind.

“Don’t go”
That’s all he said. But that’s enough to make me cry. I cry not because I’m sad but happy.

He turned me around and looks at me.
“Why are you crying” He ask as he saw my tears
“Did I do something wrong. I’m sorry Hebe. I’m sorry.” 

I shake my head and pull him in for a hug.
He stood there for awhile before he returned my hug.
He never asks me why I cry anymore.
He must have known that I’m scare… that I’m scare of rejection.

We stay there hugging each other until…

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Author Note:-

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Signing out
18th July, 2010
11.05pm

Xiaobiiee aka zhen