I guess our friendship is really broken now. I admit I'm the one that started it but he's at fault too. At first i tried to avoid him a little because Niel might be unhappy that I'm still very close with L.Joe, especially when I'm 'dating C.A.P hyung'. I knew that it wouldn't work because i feel like my world is falling apart just trying to avoid L.Joe. Its not like i didn't try, i wanted to go apologise to L.Joe for avoiding him so i went to our room and i heard piano sounds. (Let's just assume there's a piano in L.Joe's room, not the grand piano just a synthesizer or a chord organ) Not long after, i heard Niel singing along when he plays the piano. I don't dare to take a look at what they are doing but i still did. I can't believe what i see and hear. Ok its not like theyvare making out or something but i still felt betrayed. Although we didn't say it out, i thought it was our secret activity where only the two of us will do. He should only play for me to sing unless there is no choice isn't it? Why is he playing for Niel now? How can he? I felt like our unspoken promise is...... broken....... I feel so hurt, betrayed and possessive now. I find myself getting more and more possessive and its not doing us any good. "Hyung it feels so awesome we should do this again some other time!" I heard Niel spoke while i was outside. They couldn't see me of course, I'm hiding behind the corridor wall. "Yes let's do this again some other time. Your voice is great." L.Joe answered. I felt my heart torn into pieces when i heard that. He used to only say that to me. Damn it Lee Chanhee! Stop being so possessive! I sighed and decided that it's better for me to continue avoiding him. I have no idea what would i do next if this continues. Avoiding him would be best in this current situation. I could see that he starts to reciprocate Niel's 'affection' lately so perhaps he's interested in Niel too? Poor C.A.P hyung i have no idea whether our plan will work but i only know the 'NielJoe' thing going on has great impact on me. I get jealous so easily it makes me feel as though I'm a insecure girlfriend trying to safeguard her boyfriend. I feel so useless. Besides, he's not even my boyfriend but just a best friend! I hid my jealousy well, preventing it from showing and tried getting more hankg panky with C.A.P hyung. We both know its just an act but in order to drive jealousy in Niel, we continued with the act. Ok i admit i did it with the intention of making L.Joe jealous too but he seems to not be affected. He used to push the others away when they are too close to me but now..... Just what went wrong between us? Its all broken. My friendship with L.Joe is really broken and I'm too tired to fix it. Not exactly too tired, just pissed off that he broke our secret so i don't feel like fixing it anymore. Let's just leave it like this. Even on stage, the fan service of ChunJoe is minimal. Well how do i even do fan service when Niel sticks to L.Joe most of the time? Fans seems to ship NielJoe more nowadays so i stay with C.A.P hyung. It seems like I'm making use of C.A.P hyung doesn't it? In fact, we're both making use of each other. I'm using him as a shield from L.Joe while he's using me to make Niel jealous. I hate to admit but I'm starting to take C.A.P hyung as a replacement of L.Joe sometimes. I know its mean of me but that is the only way that could make me feel balance. I might suffocate if i don't find a way to balance. I really miss L.Joe. Its not like we don't see each other anymore. Its just that i miss the L.Joe that was so close to me and not someone else. Niel suggested before to switch rooms with me so he could sleep with L.Joe and ne with C.A.P hyung but i rejected. L.Joe did not agree to the idea too. Even if i can't return to being the best of friends with L.Joe, at least let me stay near him. That's all that i ask for now. This is what happens when you fall for your best friend. Your friendship gets broken... (Author's Note: Okay here's Chunji's POV! I hope these two chapters aren't too confusing coz i seem to be just blabbering and i think it gets incoherent. Sorry if its bad. I still hope you guys enjoy it though >< That's it for now. I'll get the next chapter out as soon as soon as i can! Do comment and subscribe! And the usual, Cheers! ^^ )