Then Darling Don't Refrain

November Rain

Seunghyun told his mom and secretary that he would be back in two days, he just needs to settle some business in the suburbs before going back to the city. He plans on taking Dara back with him to Seoul, he wants to get to know more about her and if she permits, he wants them to be more than just friends. He needs Dara now, he knows he's not strong enough not to get back into the whole "high society" lifestyle again and the only one who can keep him grounded is Dara. He know what he feels about Dara is beyond simple admiration and curiosity, he has never felt this way before about anything else. He decided that today he would confess his feelings to Dara and ask her to come with him.

He didn't prepare a romantic evening, he knows Dara will just cringe at the sight of roses and candles. Dara wasn't a romantic, she fancied herself as a realist and all those antics were just "foolish" for her. So to match Dara's personality, he decided to be natural and just take her out to the sea and confess to her there. Nothing fancy, just him showing his heart on his sleeve. He just hopes that Dara will feel the same way that he does.

After their shift at the center, they casually strolled on the beach, talking about anything and everything that came to their heads. It was just like any other day, until Seunghyun grabbed Dara's hands and placed it on his chest, earning him a raised eyebrow from the girl. 

"Dara, I need to go back to Seoul tomorrow," her eyebrow knits together "but before I do, there's one thing that I want you to know." Seunghyun releases one of Dara's hands and tucks a stray lock behind her ear. "I've fallen in love with you. I have never felt like this before and I am sure that this unsure feeling in my heart is love. I cannot bear to be separated from you. Even when we are just doors away from each other, I feel like you're a world away. Please come with me to Seoul. You can start anew there, with me."

Dara drops her gaze from Seunghyun, the hope in his eyes was squeezing her heart. She caresses his face, warmth visible from her eyes "I know you think what you have with me is love, I sometimes confuse myself with the emotion. However I believe that you are confusing your NEED of me with LOVE." She lets go of his face and pulls her hand away from his chest "You think that you cannot continue with your path because I will not be there to guide you, but that's where you're mistaken. I cannot walk your road for you and you cannot walk mine. I care for you, Seunghyun, I really do. I do not know if this is love, but know that you are important for me. It's too soon for me to decipher if what I have for you is love or not and I cannot drop everything just because you asked. I am happy here, and it's unfair of you to ask me to leave. Did you even think about things from my perspective?" Dara couldn't mask the hurt in her voice when she said that. Seunghyun felt guilty but he didn't want to be misunderstood.

"I am not asking you to drop what you've built for yourself and enter my life. I am just asking you to share what you have with me and I will share my happiness with you. You can continue being a social worker, it's an honorable vocation. But please hold my hand while I walk my dark road, you are the only light for me. I need you because I love you. I've never needed anyone before, I used to think I had what any man could ever want or need then I met you. When you came into my life, everything just seemed to come into perspective; what used to mean the world to mean didn't seem all that important anymore and the concept of Love and romance used to seem fiction but is now a blooming reality for me."

"You also know my stand about love, right? It's just a fleeting emotion. Look at my parents, their romance was one for the books until 'soulmates' became strangers and children became burdens. I cannot gamble everything I've built just because I think I am in love. I might be in love with you now, but what will happen when we fall out of love? When we realize that it was just an illusion? I cannot come with you to Seoul. I'm sorry."

"If you can't come to Seoul, then I shall stay here, I can leave the business to my mother and she can do as she pleases with it."

"As I said, I cannot make you decisions for you. You have your own life to live and I have mine. I will not deny I have feelings for you, but I will not allow you to let your life revolve around mine because I am not willing to do the same for you. Think about it more carefully, I thought you were a man of reason and not of impulse? Think about the long run." Dara turned around to leave but Seunghyun reached out and hugged her from behind.

"You said you have feelings for me, right? Then can you be my girlfriend? I won't ask you to leave, but can I at least have this title to hold on to?" He kisses the top of her head and turned her to face him. A knot in his chest was growing bigger, the reality of him being refused is dawning on him but it's too late to back down. He has to grasp the last remaining straw. He drops his gaze on his shoes, anxiously awaiting for Dara's answer.

Dara ducks her head to catch Seunghyun's attention, making him look at her teary eyes "Ok, I agree to being your girlfriend. But no more of this nonsense about relocating alright? It's not as if you are moving to another continent." Dara smiles at him and his worries seem to dissipate.

Finally, they came to an agreement. This is by far the most unromantic love story Seunghyun has ever encountered, but for him it was perfect.

 

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XXvociferate
#1
Chapter 5: That trusting someone with a knife . . *sigh*
juzwannaread #2
Chapter 7: All's good though it's sad. Maybe there's still hope but it's likely to take a lot of time. The story is short but it's just right as it is. Thanks.
kang2noh
#3
Chapter 7: men are weak. it is fact.
thank you for sharing your story.
-escaping
#4
Chapter 7: I don't really know what to feel. Literally. Part of me wants Dara to forgive Seunghyun and plus there's their child to hold them back. But also I understand Dara's point of view because she was really hurt and she was cheated on.

On the last paragraph, I held a little hope on that maybe there is still a chance. And I want them to be together again with their child and build a family, in baby steps though. The process may be slow but I want them to get back together. They had a nice journey and I certainly hope it is not the end.

OKAY. Stop me for being so sentimental(?) /laughs/ Nice story! Thank you for sharing this story of yours. I love it. In fact, I've been a follower of your stories. I just realized, most of them (your stories) don't have the exact typical "happy" endings.

Okayyyy, this is the last. I had too much talk! I really like this story and other TabiSan stories of yours.
T23tink1 #5
Chapter 7: I hope for a sequel or an epilogue please...thank you
lightning_TabiSan #6
Chapter 7: This is tragic all the same .... aigoo, Tabi why do you have to be so weak!

Argghh, i don't understand men, if one is really true to his love then why with 1 temptation be swayed and ruin everything that leads to forever after?

Haisst! The ending is so frustrating ...... it needs en EPILOGUE :P

But it is written so beautifully like hiw one's heart flutters when one falls in love and shatters when it is totally broken!

More TabiSan, juseyo :)
GirliedeDios #7
Chapter 7: Just one mistake... It just took a few seconds to ruin their lives. It's hard to put in words the desperation Dara felt after she caught him in the act. Seunghyun was not able to pass the test and lose the chance of a blissful life.
strongurlx #8
Chapter 7: Love all your stories~ Keep writing more please♥
darafan82
#9
Chapter 7: As I was nearing the end of the last chapter I found myself thinking, "Please don't go back to him..." Although I'm a big Tabisan fan it just wouldn't have felt right for her to go back to him after he hurt her so badly. Who knows, maybe in time -- like years? Or maybe not. I do like the way you ended it though. Glad it wasn't a tragic story... just realistic :)
msdeathstalker #10
Chapter 7: what a beautiful story that made me cry.. love it