Woot, I'm back with chapter update and a very lacking english, yehet.

One year had passed since I went hiatus and leave this story. Working really consume almost all my time to write, to play music, and do whatever I like, I'm sorry to all my subscribers and readers for not updating in such a long time. 

I hope you still give some loves to My Boyfriend is a Doctor, and don't hesitate to leave comment because believe it or not, that's the main reason of why I'm back to update this fic.

And does anybody still remember this story? If you forget I suggest you to reread the previous chapter -____-"

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It’s already 11.35AM when yoseob checked his watch and cringed while remembering that he already late to his appointment. He couldn’t stop cursing of being late on his first lunch *cough* date *cough* with Doojoon.

One turn and he’ll arrive at the park where Doojoon was waiting. He looked around to finally saw a familiar figure was sitting calmly, legs were crossed and once in a while the figure blow his hand and rubbed it, as if tried to seek some warmness. Seeing this, Yoseob feel guiltier of being late as he made the doctor waiting him in a cold weather.

“Doojoon-shii!!” Yoseob waving his hand to a man who was waiting in the bench. The latter tilted his head and when he got a clearer vision of yoseob, Doojoon stood up and smiled to him.

Yoseob wasn't sure if he forgot about his sprained leg or simply want to meet Doojoon faster, he just found himself run towards the doctor. And when he felt the stinging pain on his ankle, he suddenly got tripped and almost fell on the hard ground. Yoseob closed his eyes, waiting the hard surface to meet his face but nothing happened yet. He opened his eyes while he felt a tight arms wrapped on his waist and his heart beat faster while seeing the doctor was hugging him.

 Yoseob looked to doojoon’s eyes and they both keep silence for a second, until yoseob feel little awkward and he pushed Doojoon’s chest lightly, released the doctor from his grip. "I'm s-sorry"

They now were standing in front of each other awkwardly. Doojoon tried to break the silence by clearing his throat before saying “How many times I have to tell you. Even though you come late, you no need to run.. I don’t want to see you fall again and hurt”

“Mian.. Because I come late you have to wait me in this cold weather. That’s why-“ Yoseob bit his lower lip

Doojoon smiled widely when knowing the cute guy was worrying him, he then pinched yoseob’s cheek and made the latter pout in response “It’s okay, really. I don’t mad at all“

Yoseob smiled but soon he dropped it after a realization hit him straight in the head. Quickly he grabbed Doojoon’s hands and cupped it tightly.

“Oh my god! Your hand is freezing! I’m sorry for being late!” Yoseob blowed doojoon’s hand and rubbed it gently, try to give warmness from his body to doojoon. Now he felt guiltier for letting the doctor wait him in this cold weather. He cursed under his breath for not setting his alarm before take a nap in hyunseung’s apartment, he whined because he can’t run faster and made doojoon’s hands turned in to an ice, all he wanna do now is crying over his fault.

Doojoon was not mad waiting him in the cold weather, he didn’t mind waiting his patient for one hour, he never regret anything if that was about yoseob. But little thing yoseob didn’t know was now instead of feeling cold, doojoon was burning hot of all the touch yoseob gave, he could explode anytime soon if he let the latter still puffed his cheeks cutely, blow his hand with those kissable lips, and the caress- oh my god doojoon couldn’t handle it anymore.

“I’m *clearing throat* okay yoseob-ah, really”

“No! I can feel you’re freezing and now your hand turn in to an ice!” whined Yoseob, a soft ‘heung’ slipped from Yoseob lips as he felt terrible to make the latter wait him in the cold weather.

“Hey, look at me”

This time Doojoon cupped Yoseob’s face on to his hands, caressed the chubby cheeks slowly and his eyes met with yoseob’s teary eyes.

“I’m okay, so you don’t have to worry.” He let out a small smile. “See? Now you can feel my hand is warm again. It’s all thanks to you”

“Jinjja? You’re not lying?”

Doojoon chuckled, seeing yoseob’s panicked face made him amused “Kwaenchana, jinjja. Let’s go. I’ll forgive you if you treat me a cup of coffee in my lunch. Ottae?”

Yoseob’s face lightened and without thinking twice he nodded “Kaja!”

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“I want milk shake, spaghetti carbonara with seafood and mushrooms, baked potato, chicken soup, salad, chicken fried rice, a cup of hot coffee and croissant. You sure you won’t order anything else Doojoon-shii? Ah please make the coffee first. Kamsahamnida. ”

Satisfied with the request, after the waitress left, Yoseob put the menu down and looked to Doojoon, who was now couldn’t help but chuckled after hearing yoseob’s order.

“Wae?” asked Yoseob confused

Instead of answering Yoseob’s question, Doojoon was blinked and bite his lower lip. Second after he furrowed, but not takes a minute for him to change his expression along with a nod.

 “What?”

Doojoon propped his chin on his palm, staring directly to Yoseob’s face before he gently smiled to his patient.

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3 seconds.

Was enough to send Yoseob to cloud nine

3 seconds

Make Yoseob’s blood rush to his head and heart beat rapidly.

3 seconds.

Also enough to made Yoseob blushing madly, who wouldn’t go insane if someone as attractive as Doojoon was staring at you? Plus he was smiling, god damn it those lips. Yoseob would want to keep and lock Doojoon in his home so he could saw his smile everyday. And by admiring him, Yoseob was sure his cheeks were now flushed already to a bright pink, no, maybe a red one. He just hoped he didn’t get nosebleed anytime soon.

After an intense staring from the doctor, Yoseob cleared his throat and decided to ask him, “W-what? Why are you staring like that?”

“I just realized I found an answer of one question which keep bugging in my head all this time”

Yoseob blinked his eyes and furrowed in confusion when Doojoon statement reached his ears “And what is it?”

“Is there anyone ever told something about your face?”

“Mwo? No. Is there something on my face?” Yoseob touched his eyes, nose, and his cheeks. Everything seems fine.

Doojoon chuckled, “Ahni, never mind”

“Then what’s wrong with my face?”

“Nothing. It’s just- well- nothing- forget what I just said” Doojoon shrugged his shoulders and leaned his back on the comfy chair.

“Neh?” Yoseob blinked his head and tilted his head, couldn’t help but feeling confused of Doojoon’s antique. This was his first time seeing the doctor look so- indescribable? despite of his usual appearance which Yoseob could tell was charming, this side of Doojoon was new for him.

Doojoon pursued his lips but suddenly shook his head “Ahni let's pretend I never asked, I don’t want to ruin this date by a stupid question”

“Who said this is a- ah forget it- Doojoon-shii, just tell me what’s on your mind palli” said Yoseob half whined as curiosity bubbled on his mind.

“Well if you insist, promise me you won’t be mad?”

Yoseob nodded immediately and with much hesitation, Doojoon motioned the blonde to come closer. With a low voice, Doojoon whispered to Yoseob’s ear, “After hearing your order, I just found out an answer of where your chubby cheeks are coming from”

Yoseob gasped and back away from Doojoon. He widened his eyes but soon after chuckled and a slight “Yah!” was the same  time Yoseob hit doojoon’s arm playfully as Doojoon laughing harder.

That moment, Yoseob’s eyes can’t stop staring at Doojoon. The way Doojoon’s lips moving when laugh, the way doojoon closed his eyes, the voice he let out, yoseob just like it. No. He love it. Yoseob admit every single movement from the doctor could make his heart race, sending more butterflies on his stomach. Doojoon was dangerous. He made every system on Yoseob’s body work not like what it was supposed to be. Maybe one day Yoseob would forget how to breath or casually walk with his hands, he wasn’t care anymore. And since when Yoseob become Doojoon's addict?

I’m going crazy. Damn it

“Earth to Yoseob. Do you hear me?”

Yoseob blinked his eyes before he realized Doojoon was waving his palm in front of his face. The blonde tried to hide his embarrassment as he shaking his head and clearing his throat before answering Doojoon’s question with “O-oh. I can’t hear you clearly. W-what is it?”

How long did he stare to Doojoon? 1 minute? 5 minutes? 1 hour? He can’t even remember while the waitress come, since all his order already settled on the table when he snapped from his thought.

It sounds exaggerated but for Yoseob, do nothing productive for 1 hour was as easy as turning your hands up and down. His imagination will travel wildly, he would get much inspiration with only sat down on his desk and staring on a lamp. Oh how could he forget? He got an idea to make a romance story while sitting in the back yard and seeing a couple cats purring and their body. Oh he remember the title badly, the one he spend his entire night to only finishing one book, Love of a Cat Doll. 

 “I ask you, do you have something to do today?” Doojoon stirred his coffee before raising his cup up and shipped the hot black liquid slowly.

“Not really. Why?”

Doojoon smiled and nodded “Good, because I want you to accompany me to somewhere, I wanna go there after a long time. It’s a bit awkward if I have to go there in this hour alone.”

“Let’s see. I have no appointment until 4 o’clock. I must go to an exhibition in that hour” Yoseob stirred his milk shake before slurping the chocolate flavor liquid down to his throat.

“Well okay, how if you accompany me to this place first then I’ll accompany you to see the exhibition. How’s that sound?”

“That’s a good idea. But don’t you have any appointment to do today?”

Doojoon groaned a little, “Believe me, I’m not that busy, Yoseob”

“Then I guess I can accompany you, actually what kind of place you want to visit?”

Hearing Yoseob’s question, Doojoon's smile getting wider

“You’ll know when we arrived there”

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“I don’t know you’re such a coward Doojoon-shii”

The blonde was now caressed Doojoon’s back gently, tried to deliver any sort of comfort to the doctor. His eyes glued to the spikes haired guy who was sitting beside him, mumbling incoherent words, eyes closed tightly, eyebrows knitted, a dark expression was attached on the doctor’s handsome face. And Yoseob enjoyed this, he smiled knowing he could accompany Doojoon to a place he want to visit the most. Here they are, sat side by side in a garden at Lotte theme park.

Doojoon bend his body down and one of his head clutch his head, still with eyes closed tightly “Blame the game maker, I will never- ever- want to ride it anymore in my life and- urgh my god I’m still dizzy”

Yoseob who was still caressed Doojoon’s back, just rolled his eyes before scoffed, “Oh come on you’re too exaggerated, it’s just one round of a roller coaster ya know?”

“Still. I hate it. Urgh- my stomach” and now Doojoon brought his hand to clutch his stomach like if he loosens the grip, the content would come out anytime soon.

Yoseob chuckled, patted Doojoon’s shoulder and stood up “Wait here, I’ll buy you mineral water”

Doojoon want to stop the blonde, but he never know the blonde could gone that fast as he first opened his eyes, all he could saw was Yoseob’s back running to a shop.

A moment later, Yoseob came with hands full of snack and beverage. He handed a bottle of cold mineral water to Doojoon’s cheek, made the latter flinched a bit.

“Here”

Doojoon smiled and immediately opened the cap, gulped down almost half of the bottle just in a blink second to ease his nausea. “Thank you”

“You’re welcome”

“Thank you Yoseob”

“Yeah I already hear it Doojoon-shii” Yoseob nodded and devour his drink

Doojoon shook his head, “It’s not for the water though”

Yoseob put down his bottle and raised his head, looked towards Doojoon questioningly, “Then what is it for?”

“Thank you because today you give me power to be brave”

Yoseob blinked several times, trying to process Doojoon’s words in his brain. So, he already gave a power to Doojoon to be brave? What did he do actually? Yoseob’s mind tried to summary everything he did today with Doojoon. Waking up late. Meet with Doojoon. Make Doojoon’s turn cold like ice. Tripped. Eat in a café. Ride roller coaster.

Nothing special. Yoseob knitted his eyebrows even deeper. Did he just miss something important today?

“I don’t get it”

“How should I describe to you. Hmm- It’s like you who afraid to go to a hospital. It’s embarrassing to say this but actually I’m afraid of this place. If I have one wish to be granted, it was never come to this place anymore”

Doojoon turned to look to Yoseob’s eyes and a glint of sorry was shining in his eyes

“I’m sorry I had force you to go to hospital the first time we met. I don’t know you’re afraid to go inside back then. And I want to be brave like you, put your fear aside and tried to fight more to be strong.”

Yoseob’s eyes soften after hearing Doojoon’s words. He could feel what Doojoon feel. Beucause Yoseob understand the feeling well, where your mind screaming to stop, but your body whispered an ‘it’s okay, you don’t have to afraid anymore’. The moment he first stepped to hospital after such a long time, surely made him sick. But he know it was worth a try, because now he meet Doojoon, he could come closer to Doojoon.

Once again, Yoseob’s mind travelled wildly. There were many things actually on Yoseob’s mind like, ‘why you insist to go to this place then?’, ‘you will hurt yourself’, ‘ I don’t want seeing you miserable like this’, or ‘are you feeling sad now?’, but instead Yoseob carefully asked, “What’s wrong?”

But Yoseob suddenly regret his chosen words as Doojoon smile faded away slowly, he looked longingly to the ground before answer the blonde’s question, “Because there were so many memories buried in this place”

Yoseob’s eyes fixed on Doojoon. Yoseob could tell Doojoon was now hurt by seeing his expression. He wanted to hug him, to whisper a sweet nothing on Doojoon’s ear, but who he is actually? He was neither the elder’s lover nor boyfriend and must satisfy with just a patient-doctor relationship between them. But isn’t that what we called friend when two people comforting each others? So without hesitate, Yoseob gently placed his palm on Doojoon’s shaking hands, “You don’t have to tell if you don’t want to”

Doojoon smiled to Yoseob, a shook on his head was a beginning of him to start his story “I usually come here with my family. Too many memories we spent here together. My mother’s favorite ride is Marry Go Round, she will always whine and beg us to get on the ride every time we come here. And of course, my dad will refuse to company her, he was too embarrassed to ride it. So my dongsaeng and I will be the one to ride those horses with her; you know how embarrassed we get when people begin to stare to us and giggle.” Doojoon smiled when memories of his family come across his mind.

“Then why don’t you come again here with your family?” asked Yoseob

“I’m all alone now and I have no one to company, I never visit this place again after hmm- maybe around 10 years?”

 “Alone? What happen?”

Doojoon once again raised his head up and blankly looked to the sky, a bitter smile hanging on his thin lips.

“Yoboseyo? Is this Yoon Doojoon-shii? We’re from Gangnam hospital want to inform you-“

“My parents and my brother died in a car accident. It was happened when I was in a high school. They both going out in the midnight to pick my dongsaeng up from his vacation, no one ever have an ability to predict our future, a drunken truck driver was lost his steering and hit my parent’s car.”

“Omma! Appa! Doohyun-ah!”

“It happened so fast, in just one night I become empty, hopeless, no family to rely on.”

“Doojoon-ah”

“Omma”

“I still remember my mom’s last request to me”

“Don’t cry. My son is not a cry baby. Take care of yourself. Be a good help to other people. We love you Doojoonie. Umma love you”

“Because of that accident, I promise to be a doctor. To cure many people. To save anyone who need help.”

Yoseob nodded “Your parent and dongsaeng must be proud of you”

“I hope so” Doojoon sighed and played with his fingers “That night totally change everything in my life.” And a little smile hanging in the corner of his lips, “Til now my brain can’t accept that they already gone. Sometimes I’m still wondering ‘Am I in a nightmare? I should wake up now’. But the more I tried to fool my brain, the more pain I’ll regain. Sounds stupid, doesn’t it?”

“No. Not at all.”

Doojoon slowly shifted his eyes to the voice owner; a questioning look was attached on his face as he saw his patient closed his eyes, sighing deeply. His eyebrow knitted, like he tried to remember something or maybe tried to forget what he already remember, Doojoon wasn’t sure. And Doojoon know Yoseob was now nervous, he just gulped hardly as he saw the latter’s adam apple was moving up and down in a slow motion. Before Doojoon could ask what happened, Yoseob’s voice stopped him.

“That’s not sound stupid at all. I know how that nightmare feeling like.”

A silence along with a cold breeze was coloring their air which surrounding them. Doojoon won’t ask anything, he know Yoseob was in pain. He let Yoseob to calm down before the patient ready to speak.

“I also lose one of my families. My hyung. The only family I have. Despite of his scary looks, he actually always acted like a babo. He brings many books when come home. He said no one will make a fool with us if we read more books than those people can read. Thanks to all the books he brought home, I become a novelist now.”

Yoseob bite his lower lip as hard as possible, making a metallic taste none other than his blood spread on his mouth. His heart was thorn. He wasn’t knew how long he could hold his tears because it was threatened to fall now.

He missed him so much. He missed his hyung so much. Yoseob couldn’t exactly remember anymore how many years already left without his presence on Yoseob’s life. All Yoseob know was his world still turning but everything was just felt empty.

“What happened?” gently Doojoon asked the blonde, hoping by telling his story would make his heart a bit ease. At least that’s what he feels after telling Yoseob about his past.

“Lung cancer. He already fights with his disease alone but who knows he finally gives up and leave me that fast”

Yoseob shifted his eyes and smiled to Doojoon “We’re so poor back then. His payment from part time work could only pay our house rent and buy meal twice a day. We live in a broken house which so cold in the night and hot in the afternoon. I remember when he comes with wet cloth in his body and I never realized it was my last time to see him”

“Yongguk hyung! You’re sweating a lot! Don’t sleep with a wet shirt!” Yoseob shook the blonde guy who was lying his body on the bed.

Didn’t even bother to open his eyes, the elder between two answered Yoseob’s command groggily along with his deep voice “Ah, wae. Hyung so tired, Seobie. Let me sleep”

“No no noooo” Yoseob flickered his finger in front of Yongguk’s face, disapproval coming second after Yongguk protest “Everytime I let you sleep, you’ll never open your eyes until the next morning!”

Yoseob slapped his hyung’s arms, trying to make the older move his and willingly change his clothes. One thing Yoseob hate the most was seeing his brother getting sick but pretend not like one. So he won’t give up nagging until his brother change his clothes.

Yoseob huffed annoyedly

But instead of moving, a muscular hand suddenly made its way to Yoseob’s body, hooked his slim waist and let the younger fell down beside him. Yoseob let out a yelp, his cheeks landed on a well built chest, and a pair of hand tightened its grip over his body. Not too tight, but good enough to make him feel secure.

“I told you to get changed” Yoseob pouted, hit the elder’s shoulder playfully

“Arasso, I’ll get changed later so let me sleep a bit, I’m so sleepy”

“You’ll get sick if you sleep like that” another whined. And successfully made Yongguk laughed and open his eyelid just slightly, enough for him to see Yoseob was pouting under his embrace.

“Stop being a cute dongsaeng” he pinched Yoseob’s nose and make the latter squirmed in protest. But who’s Yoseob against Yongguk power? His hyung was much stronger than him and he knew his effort was a waste. So his mind just told him to enjoy the warmness he got from the elder. 

“If I have money, I’ll dye my hair to be blonde like you, so no one will think I’m cute. And don’t blame me, It’s not my will to be born with round eyes, pink lips, smart brain, fair skin, and - auch!“

A yelp slipped down from Yoseob’s lips as he felt his hyung tightened his embrace and made Yoseob’s lips touched Yongguk’s shirt. He could feel a muscular arm was locked on his back head. Yoseob tried to protest but only a muffled sound could be heard because his hyung’s chest easily sealed his lips.

“Ah kemanhae, you always know how to be arrogant in front of your hyung, don’t you? What do you want now? Tell me! Tell me! Ice cream? Pancakes? I will buy a whole world if you want, you cute little dongsaeng!”

Yoseob tried to break free from Yongguk’s arms, with full power he pushed the latter’s chest and successfully made the blonde’s loosen his death grip over Yoseob’s head. Like a fish, Yoseob agapes his mouth and tried to catch his breath before replying the elder’s question “Puah- Kerrom! I only have you in my life so bragging about myself is nothing but a must! And I don’t want ice cream and pancakes! I want you to change clothes before you got sick!”

Yoseob huffed in annoyance once again

Yongguk’s lips made its way to a half round but drop down the smile immediately as he was coughing hard. Yongguk clutched his chest before brought his body to a nightstand, leaving Yoseob alone in the bed. His hand frantically search for water and when he found what he searched for, he gulped down all the content almost instantly. Inhale. Exhale. And after his coughing was calming down, he looked to the younger as if he wanna say ‘Don’t worry I’m okay’

 Not want to disappointed his dongsaeng’s order earlier; he walked to a nearby table where they usually placed the clean clothes, changing his shirt and shorts.

Yongguk turned his head, gave a reassuring smile to the younger who attached a worry look on his face. Concerned was written all over his face and Yongguk didn’t want his dongsaeng being sad because of him. So Yongguk came with a blanket on his hands, placed the warm thing over Yoseob’s body and second after he slipped his body next to the younger.

“Come here” Yongguk placed his left arm under Yoseob’s neck, shifting their position so the younger won’t have a pain neck when he woke up. Yoseob willingly come closer to Yongguk, he wrapped his hands on his hyung’s chest and the other one make its move to Yongguk’s back, caressed it lovingly.

“See, you get sick” Yoseob’s pretend to get annoyed

“Ahni, hyung won’t get sick. You know how healthy I am, Seobie-ah”

“And you know I’ll be sad seeing you having a fever” Yoseob burned his head deeper on Yongguk’s shoulder

Yongguk chuckled, his hand patting the younger’s head gently “If you so cute like this I can’t even have a will to got separated from you”

Yoseob let out a soft yawn, signing that he was sleepy. His eyes was heavy, but still he respond to his brother’s words as he said “You sound like wanna go far away, you never plan to leave me alone, right hyung? You know how much I love you, right hyung? You can’t go anywhere, you hear me, right hyung?”

The elder smiled after hearing Yoseob’s words, he tightened his embrace, giving more comfort to the younger “I hear you, I won’t go anywhere. Instead I will always live in your heart, Seobbie-ah.” Yongguk caressed Yoseob’s head “Sleep well nae dongsaeng, nae Seobbie.”

and he kissed the crown of the younger’s head, for the last time

“Saranghae. Mianhae.”

“I never realized that was his last words for me. I didn’t understand back then, why he apologized, why he thanked me, what’s the meaning under his words. But now when I’m older enough to understand, everything is too late. I can’t see him anymore. It’s just one night, but feel like an eternity. That nightmare comes, all I could feel was his cold body, all I could hear was an ambulance siren, and all I could see were people surrounding my hyung with their equipment. No one in the hospital answer my question, they’re just busy. I’m waiting them alone in a hallway with a strange smell of chloroform in a new place I never visited. It makes me nausea, makes me feel numb. That’s why I hate hospital. That place, just remind me the day my brother died.”

“I’m sorry” Doojoon caressed Yoseob’s back when he saw droplet of tears were falling down, wetting Yoseob’s cheek. Gently Doojoon erase the stain with his thumb, the latter return it with a small smile and a shook in head, with a soft voice whispered ‘it’s okay’ to him.

“You love him so much, don’t you?”

Yoseob nodded his head, “He’s more than a brother to me. He’s my other half. And you know the feeling when you lost part of your life. A nightmare that never let you wake up”

Doojoon nodded in acknowledgement “I know how it feels”

The blonde returned the words with a smile, “Thank you Doojoon-shii”

“You know, I actually want to tell you this from the first time we met. You can call me with Doojoon only, Doojoon-shii makes me older than my actual age”

“How old are you actually?”

“I’m turning 32 this year” Doojoon shrugged “And you? How old are you?”

Yoseob immediately chuckled after hearing Doojoon’s question. He stand his body up and patted all dirt on his . He then took a light step to move his position in front of Doojoon, bowed his head and looked directly to the doctor as he said, “Yang Yoseob. 21 years old. Nice to meet you ahjussi”

“Yeah yeah 21 years ol-“ Doojoon words paused as he absorbed all the infromation he got from the blonde in front of him. His eyes widened immediately as reality hit him straight on his brain.  He tilted his head to meet the baby face guy who was smiling to him

“W- what?! 21 years old?! Are you kidding?”

Yoseob shrugged “That’s my real age though. Yah, come on ahjussi! We must go to the exibition or we’re going to be late!”

Yoseob run a little towards the gate, leaving a still shocked Doojoon sat on the bench. Unmoving. With mouth gaped open.

And after about one minute Yoseob left his sat place, he heard a shout from his back and giggled a little. He turned his back and saw Doojoon was running towards him. While waiting the elder to approach, he absent mindly stare to the sky above him and smiled,

‘Hyung, are you healthy up there?’

‘I found someone I love, I hope he’s the best person for my life‘

‘You hear what I just said, don’t you hyung?’

“I hear you, I won’t go anywhere. Instead I will always live in your heart, Seobbie-ah.”

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Longer than usual right? There are 22155 characters and 4902 words in this update

See you again in the next chapter ^^