Donghae’s POV

‘My father tortured me physically. But you tortured my physic, my heart, my soul, everything. I better die at the hands of my father, rather than suffer in your hands’

After I had said that, I ended our conversation.

‘Ahjuma. One bottle soju please!’ I shouted

Suddenly my phone was ringing. Who is it now?

Kyuhyun?

‘Hello Kyu.’

‘Where are you?’  I knew from his voice that he was panicking.

‘Why?’ I said to him while I was playing with the glass.

‘Tell me where you are!! I have a bad feeling about you.’

‘Calm down Kyu.’ I laughed when I was hearing his voice.

There is still person who cares about me. I smile in my heart.

‘I’m at Golden restaurant.’

‘Ok! Wait for me, don’t go anywhere. I will arrive at 3 minutes, oh no 5 minutes. Hmmm. Give me 10 minutes ok?’ I knew he was running now.

‘Just take your time Kyu. I will not go anywhere.’

‘Ok! 9 minutes 37 second! You start counting and closed your eyes.’

‘If not?’ I bet he was in his apartment. If he wanted to go here, he would take at about 20 minutes.

‘I always keep my promise Donghae.’

‘But I’m tired being the one who always disappointed in the end.’

‘I’m not him.’ From his voice I knew he was serious with his word.

‘Him? Who?’

‘Hyukjae.’

I couldn’t say anything, I just kept silent.

‘You’re crying again right? How many times do you cry in this week?’

This man really knew me very well.

‘Not too much.’

‘Yeah, like I trust you.’

I wanted to answer him but he cut me.

‘But you can always trust me. I will not leave you. I have known you for 15 years. I know I am not the person that saved you, I know I am not the person that you love, I know I am the person that doesn’t bring you happiness. But you have to know. I will not leave you, I will not make you cry, and I’m willing to wait you until you open your heart…

He let out the long breath and continued, ‘you don’t need to love me with all your heart. I will not force you at all. Just give a little space. It’s more than enough for me. I have been waiting you for 15 years and you have been waiting him for 20 years. I’m sure that I can wait for you in 15 years again.’

‘Kyu. You need some life. I don’t want make you lose your happiness because of me. I…

‘Oke stop! 9 minutes 37 seconds have passed. Now I’m in front of you.’

I turned my head and I could see he was standing in front of me.

‘How can you?’

He came near me and cupped my face.

‘I will not lose my happiness because you are my happiness.’ He patted my head and sat down in front of me.

‘But Kyu…’

‘Stop talking! I don’t want to discuss again. I could tell you anything at the phone, but when I am facing you know, you don’t know how embarrassing I am.’ He put his hands in front of his face.

‘Kyu, your face is red. Hahahaha’

‘Don’t laugh Lee Donghae.’

I kept laughing and finally he was joining me. If Hyukjae like him, I will be the happiest person in this world.

‘Kyu, can you accompany me?’

“Where?’

‘Han river.’

‘What do you want to do there???’ He looked me.

‘I will not end my life Kyu. Don’t worry.’ I smiled and stood up from my chair.

‘I’ll pay it, you wait outside. Don’t be stubborn and listen my order.’ He pushed me out and he went to the cashier.

‘Ok let’s go!’ He opened the door and let me in.

We didn’t talk anything. He knew I was not in the mood to talk now.

At about 15 minutes, we arrived and I came down from the car.

I walked and he followed me.

‘LEE HYUKJAE!! YOU’RE BASTARD!!!’ I screamed as loud as I could.

‘YAH! What are you doing?’ He hit my head

‘It’s what we call refreshing.’

‘LEE HYUKJAE!! WHY YOU ARE SO EVIL KNOW! I MISS YOUR KINDESS!!!’

‘Lee Donghae, you will be arrested by police. They will think you’re crazy.’

‘I know, so I bring you here. When they want to arrest me, you can tell them that I’m your friend. Let’s join me. Scream.’

‘No! I’m not crazy.

‘Hurry up!! Try!’

‘LEE DONGHAE I HOPE YOU CAN FIND YOUR HAPPINESS.’

‘CHO KYUHYUN I HOPE YOU CAN FIND YOUR HAPPINESS TOO’

‘I DON’T NEED HAPPINESS BECAUSE I HAVE IT BESIDE ME’

He turned his head and smiled at me.

‘I HOPE LEE DONGHAE WILL FORGET ABOUT LEE HYUKJAE SOON’

I didn’t say it out load. I just said that in my heart.

You have someone that really loves you. You have to give him change Donghae.

‘You go home now.’ I said to him.

‘I will drive you home.’

‘I want to walk.’

‘If that so, I will accompany you.’

‘Kyuhyun. Please, I need time to think.’

‘But you have to call me when you arrive ok?’

‘Yes. Don’t worry.’

After that I walked to my apartment.

I need some time. I need to think about my love for Hyukjae.

Let go..

Don’t let go..

Let go..

Don’t let go..

I walked when my eyes saw the ground.

I saw there were shoes in front of me. I lift my head and….

‘Appa?’

‘Hello my lovely soon.’

I turned my body and run as fast as I could.

I found the big garbage and I hide myself in there. Suddenly I remembered about this scene, about me and hyukjae 20 years ago. But now, it’s different. I’m alone now.

I tried to dial his number, but he didn’t answer.

Hyukjae please answer. I felt my body was trembling. My fears for 20 years come back again.

I kept calling and finally was answered.

‘Hyukjae, help me.’

‘I’m sorry, I’m not Hyukjae. I’m his friend. I have told him thousand times that you were calling him. But he didn’t want to answer it. He was in the club a while ago. But I don’t know where he is now. You said that you needed some help? I will search him for you…

‘Oh here you are my son. Finally! I have been searching you for 20 years and now we met. I miss you so much until I want to hug you until you die.’

I saw he was smirking and I didn’t know anything…

I’m alone and he is not with me anymore…

Hyukjae has gone….