-Tiffany's POV-

"Yes."

I don't know why... but

It hurt me when Taetae walked away.

It hurt me when Taetae told me Siwon mocked her.

It hurt me when Taetae started being cold to me.

Am I still in love Siwon oppa? Or am I in love with Taetae?

Even if I am in love with Taetae, what would mom and dad think of her?

What would they think of a girl loving another girl?

So do I love Taetae?

Of course you do!

No time for fighting with my inner self.

Aish, you love her. I told you before, I'm the smarter side of you.

But I can't possibly leave Siwon oppa like that.

For once, I agree with you.

What to do?

For once, I have no idea what to do.

You're useless.

Am not...

I'm positive that I still love Siwon oppa. Even if I don't, I'll try to love him again.

"So what're you going to do?" Sica broke my thoughts.

"I don't know..."

"Make a choice soon, you don't want to break Siwon's heart do you?"

"I don't."

-Taeyeon's POV-

"Soonkyu yah! I'm tired. I wanna sleep."

"Don't call me that! But fine. Afterall, we do have school tomorrow. Do you want me to bring... AHEM back to my dorm?"

"AHEM?"

"The person you don't want to sleep in this dorm tonight."

"No. I think I should talk to her."

"Good girl! See you tomorrow!"

Sunny went out and I saw her drag Sica back into their dorm.

I took a deep breath before going out.

"Fany--"

"Wait, let me say something first."

"Shoot."

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have shouted at you without knowing how much pain you're in."

"Apology accepted. This went smoother than I thought." I chuckled.

"But can I ask one question?"

"Sure."

"Why were you being cold to me?"

"Cause I felt like it?"

"Yah!" she hit my shoulder.

"Cause I'm afraid one of my best friend can't hang out with me as much since she's got a boyfriend. I mean like come on. Sica and Sunny also have one. Now you do?! I won't have anyone to hang out with!"

"I'll always make time for you, Taetae."

My heart beated rapidly. 

"You said that. So don't go ignoring me when you get married!" I joked, though I was hurting inside.

Why him? Why not me?

I know its wrong to love you, but I can't help myself.

I can't fight what my heart yearns for.

And it just so happens that its your love.

Your love that you've given to Choi Siwon.

Your love that will never be mine.

I heard snapping sounds.

"Hello, Taetae? Earth to Taeyeon!"

"What?"

"You looked like you were thinking deeply. Care to share?"

"No. I rather not share."

"Okay then. Hey, wanna play PS? I got Halo 3."  she asked me.

"Halo 3? Okay. It's on!" I smiled.

We played till around 2 in the morning.

"HAH! I totally owned you!"

"Aish. Did you have training?"

"What the? NO! I wouldn't waste my parent's money on getting lessons for this kind of games."

She yawned, "We won't be able to get much sleep... anyway, I'm not tired. Want to play the Q & A game again?"

"Sure. It's kinda fun to be honest."

"Okay. Since I was wrong, you start first."

"Is your maths that bad from young?"

"YAH! Hmph. It is. Why did you kick Jessica out of your room just now?"

"Cause like everyone else, she thinks I'm shallow."

"I don't think so..."

"Anyway. My question. What do you think of Sunny's aegyo? a) cute b) super cute c)extremely cute or d) damn annoying."

"Haha... I choose c. Do you think you're hot?"

"W-what?"

"You asked a question." Tiffany smiled happily at me.

"Fine. I think... I'm okay..."

"Are you sure?"

"Okay. You asked a question. Yes, I'm sure."

Should I ask about Siwon? Or should I not...

"D-do you really really love Siwon... like A LOT?"

"I don't love him... I just like him more than a friend now. But I think I still love him. I just don't know what happened to him."

"Nothing did. I know him from young. A cocky, arrogant friggin' rich brat."

"What? No, he's not?"

"Of course his girlfriend says that."

"What? I'm not saying that because I'm his girlfriend. I'm saying that cause its true."

"Whatever, pretentious, cocky, arrogant rich brat's girlfriend."

"He's not cocky, arrogant or pretentious."

"Then did he ever tell you why he called us that?"

"He said it was a joke."

"Make that pretentious, cocky, arrogant, lying rich brat."

"What? You're too much!"

"YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING. I TOLD YOU. DON'T ACT LIKE YOU DO! WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME UH?"

"Taetae..."

I took my bag and walked out of the house. She put a hand on my shoulder.

"Where are you going, Taetae?"

"Sica and Sunny's dorm. A place where everyone there understands me. Unlike the people in this dorm."

"Taetae, sorry..."

Sorry doesn't make the hurt go away, does it?

If it does, I would forgive you.

But the hurt would never go away.

I shrugged her hand away and walked into Sunny and Jessica's dorm.

I knocked on the door and a fully awake Sunny greeted me.

"Why am I surprised that you're still up?"

"Cause you were the one who played with me until morning last time."

"True..."

"What're you doing here?"

"Tiffany."

"AH. Fought again?"

"Kinda."

"Come in."

"Soonkyu, what am I suppose to do?"

"Taengoo, you don't have to bear with it."

"I asked her... I asked her if she still loves him a lot."

"And?"

"She said she just likes him more than a friend."

"That's good right?"

"I guess. But there's a possibility that she'll love him a lot again."

"Then make sure that doesn't happen."

"I can't. She wants to love him again. I can't possibly... she..." I started crying.

"Why're you crying, Little kid?" Jessica asked me.

"Sica... sorry about shouting at you just now."

"It's 'kay. Yeah, since Fany is alone, I'm going to accompany her."

"Okay... tell her... nevermind."

-Tiffany's POV-

She left... again.

Why do I keep making her leave?

I want her so badly by my side. But even then, she has no right to call him that.

But what if what she says is true? What would happen then?

I should ask Sica about her past.

"Tiffany, you fool." I heard an icy voice out of nowhere.

"Sica?"

"You fool. You're making Kim Taeyeon, the strongest of the strongest cry."

"What?"

"She's crying. Kim Taeyeon is crying."

"What makes you think it's cause of me?"

"Just guessin'. Did you guys fight or something?"

"I guess we kind of did."

"Siwon again?"

"Yeah. She said he was a pretentious, cocky, arrogant, lying rich brat."

"She's telling the truth."

"What?"

"You trust me right?"

"I do."

"So believe me."

"Not unless you tell me the whole story."

"I can't."

"Then I won't believe you."

"Fany."

"No."

-Taeyeon's POV-

"Sunny, I can bear with it. If it's for her, I will bear with it."

"Lovedrunk person."

"Yeah, I am. I was never so in love. When Junsu was cheating on me, it didn't hurt as bad as it does now."

"Hmm. Weird girl."

"Yeah. I think... I'm going to skip school tomorrow. Can you help me cover?"

"Sure. Anyway, I'm sure Shinyoung unnie wouldn't mind."

"Yeah, she herself skips work."

"Yeah, true."

"If she needs me to explain, tell her I can."

"Okay, Taengoo. But what if Tiffany asks instead?"

"Then... tell her that I'm not feeling well."

"She can check on you, you know?"

"So what if she does? I don't care. If she accuses me of lying, then so be it. Her own boyfriend is a liar."

"Alright..."

-No One's POV-

That night, Taeyeon and Jessica switched rooms.

The next day in class...

-Tiffany's POV-

Where's Taetae? 

"Uhm, Sunny... where is Taetae?"

"Sick. At home."

"Don't lie, Sunny. Is she avoiding me?"

"No. She's sick at home."

"I'm going to visit."

Why? Why are you avoiding me?

I went to their dorm and saw Taetae playing Halo.

"Sick? Are you serious? And you called Siwon oppa a liar."

She looked at me and plugged her headphones into the machine and totally ignored me.

I grabbed her headphones away and looked at her.

"Taetae, why are you avoiding me?"

"..."

-Taeyeon's POV-

Don't reply.

Don't respond.

Don't make her think you forgive her.

Don't show her your weak side.

Don't let her talk to you about Siwon.

Don't let her hurt you again.

"Taetae, please stop. I can't take it. Stop ignoring me. You were my first friend here. Please, just stop..." she was on the verge of tears.

I broke the first, second and third rule just because she cried.

I hugged her.

"Sorry, I was just... annoyed last night. And I was really sick."

Yeah, Love-Sick.

"Taetae, please don't do that again. Don't be cold to me anymore."

"Sorry, Fany."

"Stop saying sorry."

"Sorry for saying so--"

She kissed me. SHE FRIGGIN' KISSED ME.

My heart is beating rapidly. My face is turning red. I can't face her straight in the eye.

"I told you not to say sorry."

"I-I... uhh... duh... y-yeah... o-okay..."

"You're so cute when you're shy. Tell you what, as an apology, let's go eat lunch together. I know a really cool restaurant nearby."

Stop teasing me.

Stop giving me hope.

Stop making me think you like me like how I like you.

Then I heard a voice I dreaded to hear.

"Miyoung, it's time for our date."

Date... Date... Date...

My heart tore into a million pieces.

"Oppa, about our date--"

"Go. You can treat me to lunch another time."

I said as I walked away.

Tears were forming in my eyes again.

I walked to the rooftop again and cried.

This time, it was Jessica who found me.

"So, you like her?"

"What?"

"You like Tiffany?"

"Was it that obvious?"

"No. But since I know you from young, it kinda is to me."

"Yep. I do. Just..."

"If you're holding back because of Siwon, don't."

"Why?"

"If you love someone and hold back because they're with someone else, you'll never get him or her."

"Sica, what are you talking about?"

"Wookie oppa. I liked him ever since we started hanging out. But he was dating Sunny. So I held back. I was lucky. He ended up breaking up with her. But Taeng, just don't."

"If I were to get close to her, what would she think?"

"Taengoo, I think she likes you too."

"Just as a friend."

"What? How would you know?"

"I asked her before."

"I can only watch her from afar because I am a fool."

"Taengoo, stop saying that."

"I don't have the courage to confess. What if we become strangers because of my confession? I won't be able to take it."

"Alright. I trust that you'll keep this under control."

"I will, Sica. Don't worry."

"Oh, and by the way, you should write a song."

"Write a song?"

"Yeah. There will be a music showcase with entertainments from the whole Korea coming. Shinyoung unnie told me to tell you that you should write a song since you seem to have awesome ideas."

"Weird unnie. Well, I'll try. See ya."

"See ya!"

She went down.

Write a song? I think I have just the lyrics.

I went back to the dorm and saw Siwon bringing Tiffany back.

I waited for her to go in before going in myself.

"Taetae! Did you hear?"

"The Music Showcase?"

"Yeah. Are you going to be in it?"

"Shinyoung unnie told Sica to tell me that I should write a song and sing it... so I guess... yeah?"

"Great! You can write a song? I never knew. I wonder how it'll be like..."

"You'll be the first to read the lyrics."

"Yeah! Taetae, you're the best!"

She hugged me.

"Yeah... I guess I am..."

"Well, you better go work on your song. I'll be playing my DS."

"You do know you need to study sometimes..."

"I know, Taetae. But I need to chill after a long day."

"Okay... anyway, I'm going to bed now. Night."

"Night, Taetae."

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Author's Note:

Another update